Monday, September 06, 2004

bad ear

i'm so fucking sentimental and far too easily influenced by music. it should not be allowed to have such an effect over me. these things should not make me cry.

Sunday, September 05, 2004

we can dance and dance

so i found out that my reasons for being angry/sad about girls' night being cancelled were the wrong reasons. it turned out for the better since laylee was feeling sick last night. yesterday sallis came and picked me up in the early afternoon. we got milkshakes at java cabana, he bought the new bjork album, and he got to meet the poor nameless puppy. alice and katherine met us at sonic and we headed downtown to the memphis music and heritage festival. we only knew where one of the stages was, and it was a little late for shopping around. we watched this goofy guy play the piano, ran around peabody place, and went back to the stage where a really hysterical rap group was performing. some guys filmed us for their public access show. as we were leaving, we passed the place where becca and laylee were volunteering. we heard a REALLY great band that sounded something like andrew bird's bowl of fire. the crazy thing is that we came in during the middle of them playing "st. james infirmary." it was weird that i recognized it, being so familiar with danny barker's version, in which he adds a bunch of awesome lines and side notes. actually everyone should hear that version because it's the ultimate. it was really great, and i hated having to leave. sallis took us home, where katherine, alice, and i had a totally awesome girly night as a trio. we stuffed ourselves with cinnamon tea, popcorn, and java chip ice cream. we talked about boyzzz and morocco and great shit. we listened to lots of music and watched some music videos and rolled around on the futon. it was great. i missed seeing LA and laylee though. we stayed up till after 5am, which was a bad idea. ah well. katherine woke up at 9:30 for church. when she came home, alice and i eventually dragged ourselves out of bed and went to breakfast at ck's. i drank too many cups of coffee with sweet-n-low. something inspired me to order the paul bunyan breakfast. do not ask me why. i stuffed myself absolutely full. after a long meal, katherine took me back home. dad immediately took me to lauren's house so that we could work on our math project-- it's a powerpoint presentation for pre-calculs about fucking PEEPS. i took a nap in lauren's super-comfy bed before katherine, alice, and brett picked us up around 7 to head down to south memphis. there's really no words to describe things that i would like to say, but there's at least this: we listened to elephunk (my new favorite album) about 5 times, ate a second breakfast at ihop, found a little piece of the apocalypse, inhaled a cornucopia of chemicals, observed the loading of a barge, befriended men of the mississippi, used a crane as a jungle gym, got covered in oil and sugar, explored a man named harley's boathouse and got sexually harassed by his creepy red neck brother. president's island is my new favorite place. i love the mississippi. i love my city.

listening to: the black eyed peas - the boogie that be

Saturday, September 04, 2004

faithless, grungy, pathetic, wretched

last night all plans were somehow abandoned and alice and ended up at home alone all night. it was really great because we had time to hang out and talk and be wonderful. i absolutely LOVE that girl!!!! it was also funny because she and i were hanging out while laylee and LA were hanging out. our group of Girls was separated into the "Al" and the "La" couples. ho ho ho. i love that kind of thing. the kind of thing i do NOT love is that our girls night for this evening is cancelled. it makes me angry and sad. hopefully i'll make up for it by hanging out with sallis and katherine and alice today. hooray!

listening to: juliana hatfield - what a life

Friday, September 03, 2004

Teenage Mythology: Daphne and Apollo Revisited

This boy came quietly out of the wood work, and I was caught off guard. No one before him ever really saw me, with my unruly hair, rumpled skirt, and no trace of self-confidence. That was the life I had learned.

He stole what he could –– the minutes off my cell phone, all my days of summer, midnight in my grandma's kitchen, one desperate hug. Of course I ran. The only thing I knew to do was run. No one taught me how to be pretty, how to be loved. I became afraid to learn. Just told myself to keep my muscles pumping to keep me out of reach.

Well. I may have overdone it. I pulled back 400 miles, building the best defense: a separation of two entire states (measured by 7,877,696 people), the length of a muddy river (equaling eternity). A girl needs her space.

But he couldn't drop it. I couldn't understand why he kept pushing against my limitations, what drove him to stand as watchman of my night and day. Turns out, it was only that he knew me. He knew my legs were not long or strong enough to keep me running forever. How could I have known that he would whittle my wooden heart, gently carve away the rough places in me?

By November he was biting at my heels like an obsessive French dog, hanging on the curtain of my voice, and imagining the curl of my hip. Without my permission. I never wanted to be marked, claimed, owned. But now I look at myself, firmly planted in my sneakers and undeniably connected to some puppy of a boy. He lead me out of my darkness and pulled me into his wood. Some very needy roots sprouted out of me and met up with his –– connecting and intertwining finally at the halfway point on the brown bank of the Mississippi. My limbs fork out like awkward branches, pocked and uneven bark covering completely my milk pale skin. He places his hand on my chest to admire his craftsmanship: heart beating full and sticky with some sound resembling love.

oh please

somebody needs to come hang out with me and alice! aogpwihpghoiwe

Thursday, September 02, 2004

things

1. new puppy is ADORABLE. she has no name yet, but we're working on it.
2. home at the end of the world is a ridiculously bad film.
3. "five years" by david bowie is the song of the week, and may very well be the best song of all time.
4. i love my sister and her friends.
5. it really sucks that today is amelia's last in memphis.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

rejoice

morgan and mom are on their way to pick up our new cairn terrier puppy. hooray!

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

no central destination

today at school i actually had energy and a not-so-bad day. it was nice. some kid stuck me with a big piece of clear tape that read "speaks in bad poetry" which is probably not a false accusation. am i right? elizabeth, surprisingly, drove me home, and we stopped on the way for some disgusting, delicious KFC. now LA is over to do hang out and do homework because neither of us can concentrate on homework alone. this makes me happy. i want to start having homework parties all the time. nobody's ever wanted to before! i am very excited. wish us luck.

listening to: cake - long line of cars

Monday, August 30, 2004

it's too much to take

this morning we were waiting to turn left onto perkins (where school is) and we saw this really scary wreck. this guy tried to turn left when there was no way he was going to make it, so he got hit and there was lots of noise and glass and we had to get out of the car and walk through all of it to get to school through the stalled traffic. the scary thing is how easily that could happen to any impatient person at that light-- it's really ridiculous how long you have to wait there every day. it shook me up quite a bit.
the rest of the day was okay for a motherfucking monday. post-school activity was pretty nice too. christ, i refuse to believe it's really monday. i still have some homework that i should be tending to... lates.

yayyy?!!!!

server is back!!!
i am a happy woman.

Sunday, August 29, 2004

before noon

yesterday brock came over so that we could go see home at the end of the world at studio, but he was a little late and i realized i didn't have the money for a movie anyway. so we watched before sunrise on my tiny, awful tv. in the middle we started talking and morgan came in for a long time, so we finished the movie about an hour later than we expected to, at 3:30. i felt really bad because we missed janelle's street theatre thing at 2:30. i miss her a lot. but brock and i loved the movie so it was sort of worth it. we talked to my mom a little bit about it, and then headed out to ridgeway 4 armed with university to go see before sunset. at first it felt much more movie, much more planned out, than the first film, but it eventually slipped into that same ease of before sunrise. both films are great and i recommend that everyone see them. but i may have loved them even more because they (especially the first one) felt really relevant right now. but anyway. brock and i came back home to eat something. we talked about renting another movie, but that seemed a little much. so we sprawled around on the futon and made rice krispie treats. morgan and brock started talking degrassi, so i escaped into the den and watched a little pulp fiction with the folks. unfortunately, they were showing it on encore, with all the profanity dubbed over, in full-screen, with commercials and little ads popping up at the bottom of the screen. i really, really, really hate tv. morgan and brock came in and turned on damn noggin. i admit that i left the room on purpose, took on my goddamn contacts, and fell asleep in my tent with the light on. it was barely 10:30. i'm a wimp. brock left me a nice note on my blinds, though. at 12:30, brandon called and woke me up. we only got to talk for 20 minutes but it was still nice. afterwards, i called william with my free long-distance on weekend nights. i've been wanting to talk to him for a long time, but after i got that massive phone bill, i was nervous to use lots of moneys. but i got to talk to him for a solid 45 minutes and it was really nice. he's been so busy, doing lots of things. he dispelled the rumor about him and cherie getting married to buy a house... they'd made a joke in frustration about money for college, saying that if they got married, college would cost less. i hate not hearing things directly from people because of all this fucking twisting around that things go through. at any rate. i woke up far too early -- before anyone else in the family. serves me right for going to bed so damn early. i wash sorting laundry and i found brandon's hulk bandana. it's weird how it's taking me so long to find all the things he left. thank god i'm never giving them back.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

just a thought

i might delete my comments again because they're slipping into unuse. any protestors?

Friday, August 27, 2004

god damn internet

today wasn't too bad at school. laylee gave me her turkey sandwich at lunch. and although i got back two horrible test grades, i managed to stay in a pretty good mood. life is good because:
1) kraftwerk in german class
2) meg and i planned a wes anderson party
3) voodoo music fest
after school, brock played chauffer by taking kathryn home and dropping morgan off at eileen's house. he, laylee, and i searched for food in east memphis. laylee and i ended up with glorious chick-fil-a sandwiches and sweet sweet distillers in the car. is it said that brody dalle gives me chills? i think not. we came home and cuddled (and a little more) before laylee got picked up to go to gone with the wind at the orpheum with kevin. brock and i headed over to java cabana to meet up with heather (who is adorable!). aside from soothing my wicked craving for a cinnamon milkshake, i had an awesome time hanging out with her and swinging at peabody like always. she is a very cool girl who i hope to see more of. now i have settled down for a long winter's nap with a vanilla coke to my left and a stack of my father's compilation CDs to my right. i've got to enter them into a database i'm making for him as payment for an outrageous cell phone bill. i could really go for a milkshake and a black and mild, but it'll have to wait.

listening to: empress - a very small step

Thursday, August 26, 2004

SWEET LORD

so who's up for this shit? ideally, we could all drive down to new orleans for a weekend, but if parents aren't up for it, my dad has volunteered oh-so-selflessly haha to go. i think i'd just about die if we could make this work.... pleeeeeease can we try? oh my. please tell me you guys will ask your units about this. i need something to live for.

listening to: nancy sinatra - bang bang

i'll start as his knees and i'll end in his dreams

today was pretty shitty. right now i'm in a good mood for some inexplicable reason... most likely because of the nice group chat we had after school by my locker. we should do that every day because it was very nice. lunch was pretty good, also. other than that, my day was absolutely horrible. i had 3 tests in a row, all of which i failed. no joke. i felt really stupid and then i had to go to government and get even more depressed. well at least tomorrow's friday, and we're hopefully having a party at meg's house on saturday. as long as i can look forward to these things, i'll make it through today. hope everyone else is doing well.

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

cause for excitement

or... a reason to live? whatever you call it, laylee and LA are on their way to pick me up, and i am very excited. i don't know what we're doing, but i don't give a shit because i LOVE THOSE GIRLS! honestly i don't get to see them enough, and i'm in the perfect mood to do something lovely and just talk and be good. or bad... i really don't care either way, as long as i'm with those fine ladies! also i really crave a piece of pizza. and this food thing? yeah, it's getting really bad. i've got to stop eating so much. anyone care to help with my starvation? ho ho ho i'm only half kidding.

listening to: tullycraft - sent to the moon

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

everybody's parents are crazy

except mine. if anybody needs to spend some time away from home, i invite you here. i'm sure my units could handle it. in other news, i love chex mix. i've been eating entirely too much lately. also i hate riding the bus home. mostly i hate the waiting around part that we do before we even think about walking to the bus stop. if we could hang around, and then instantaneously arrive at home, i would be much happier. brett and sallis, i assign you the job of building me a portal. hop to it, lads! this week is incredibly long. i want to die. i'm watching movie trailers because the alternative is sleeping. of course, the only time i want to sleep is when i have piles of homework left. i'm done for the night, and what can i say? i require no pillow.

Sunday, August 22, 2004

laugh it up

i love lemon poppyseed bread from la baguette. and polaroids. and a boy. and vanilla coke. mmmmm.
i am obviously in a better mood than earlier. i really want to leave the house, but i cannot. yesterday i saw garden state and it was fucking amazing. everyone really needs to see that movie. it's really beautiful, and parts of it said things i needed to hear right now. so. yes. also last night i got to hang out with katherine for the first time since fucking casey jones. that is REALLY weird to realize, but it's true. and then of course i left my cell phone and purse in her car somehow. it's very weird because we got into the car and as we were pulling out of the driveway, i said "oh no i left my purse inside!" so katherine had to pay for my subway sandwich and then when we got back home, i couldn't find my purse to pay her back. it was nuts. oh well. also mouse's mom got mad at him for trying to stay out later and he's in trouble with her and i feel awful.
i have to pee. i miss everyone.
my purse has been found, thanks for your concern. today is drab and dreary. i'm in a horrible mood. happy birthday to brock, in any case.
has anyone seen my damn purse?!

Friday, August 20, 2004

deadly food stuffs

i'm eating an egg scrambles and i think it's going to kill me. it's something i found in my freezer that's possibly a year old and dead to all the world. ah well. i need energy. all i've had today is a bunch of chips with cheese sauce at el mezcal, some crackers at lunch, and a couple spoonfuls of cool whip. mmmmmm. diet, how i love thee.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

it always feels like you're leaving

love mix deux made for me by brandon. i got it in the mail yesterday, and it's quite nice. i'm posting the track list here since he didn't write it down. you don't have to pay attention.

01) phoebe carrai - bach's cello suite no. 1 (prelude)
02) throwing muses - mr. bones
03) the stooges - i wanna be your dog
04) yeah yeah yeahs - no no no
05) björk - cocoon
06) pj harvey - electric light
07) a tribe called quest - 8 million stories
08) iggy pop - tiny girls
09) violent femmes - good feeling
10) godspeed you! black emperor - sleep
11) bright eyes - pull my hair
12) throwing muses - serene

i carry you around

today a million people moved to our lunch. it's nice, but chaotic. mr. isom has been absent for two days, and i've gotten lots of time to talk to laylee, LA, and brock in psychology. i took my "waiting for godot" make up essay test today, and i did horribly. i realized halfway through that i'd set it up wrong, but... oh well. i didn't even bother trying to fix it, and just ploughed onward. maybe she will commend me for being different HAHAHAH. morgan and i rode the bus home for the first time today. it's nice being able to control what time you go home. in all, today was much better than yesterday, when i had a horrible pain in my stomach area all day. and better than tuesday, because tuesday is the worst day of the week. although yesterday i did get my package from brandon, which always makes me really happy. he sent me back my cell phone, so if you've been trying to call me for a week and a half and getting no alanna, that is why. feel free to call away now. he also sent me a really great mix. i can post the track list if anyone cares to know what's on it. anyway. everybody have an awesome friday tomorrow. oh, and on saturday, everyone must come to my house. no questions. be here.

listening to: the olympics commentators

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

SO TIRED. I WANT TO DIE.

listening to: the mountain goats - grendel's mother

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

what!

i can't believe how late it is, how little i've done, and how tired i am. this is just ridiculous. i hate school. and i was supposed to enjoy this year, too. who the fuck fixed up my grand plan? i need redecorating.

Monday, August 16, 2004

a girl has got to hide away

today i stayed home from school to get over that damn fever. i was actually really annoyed to miss the first full monday of the school year, especially since i had two tests. but whatever, i would rather not infect anyone else. so anyway. i have to go "study" for my passage to india/july's people test, and debate whether or not to do friday's pre-calculs homework. (our text book's spine is actually mispelled. isn't that terrifying?)
i am eating godiva ice cream -- creamy vanilla with chocolate covered cookies and godvia chocolate chunks. mmmmmm sweet lord.

listening to: bangs - call + response

Sunday, August 15, 2004

one of my biggest pet peeves

when i'm genuinely irritated with someone, i make a sort of snippy comment, and they think i'm kidding. laughter does not make a good apology. it's a slap in the face. it only says to me that people i am close to can't tell the difference between when i'm angry and when i'm happy, and that makes me very sad.

listening to: the microphones - i love you so much!

sick day

i went to bed late last night absolutely freezing cold. i was shaking and my teeth were chattering. i sealed myself within two huge blankets but i still couldn't stop shivering. this morning i woke up absolutely burning up, even though i'd kicked off some of the covers. i have a fever and a headache, and i'm blessed with dizziness every time i try to move. i blame brock for this sickness. he complained all weekend that he wasn't feeling well, and yet he still cuddled with everybody. if you are contagious, this is a bad idea. i hope that he didn't infect anybody else, although i think i've already gotten my mother sick too. i am in a bad mood, and i've been listening to the microphones all day. i don't feel well enough to go, but everyone else should attend the our own voice workshop for the upcoming play, the story of joan of arc set in a modern teenage psych ward. theatreworks 3pm. hop to it.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

my dog will always come through

mom and dad just came home from the vet. i haven't really been blogging a lot so i don't know if i mentioned it, but our dog bonnie has been really sick for a good hunk of the summer. she got sick in georgia, while we were in orlando, and got steadily worse ever since. they finally put her to sleep tonight, because she was suffering so much and there were so many things wrong with her. she was such a sweet, noble, beautiful dog, and all will miss her.

listening to: cat stevens - i love my dog

god damn

today did not turn out as i planned. queer as folk party was okay. the best part was getting to hang out with my loves, but the show itself is pretty awful. it was sort of fun to watch, but i wasn't that entertained. the bad acting was just too distracting. at any rate, dad picked me up at 2:45 from LA's to go to brittany's. we got lost for over 2 hours. it was hell. i mapquest gave us these absolutely HORRIBLE directions, and i wanted to die. it didn't help that i had forgotten that brittany had a new address since last year's birthday party. plus i hadn't remembered to bring my cell phone or the invitation, so when i realized i didn't remember brittany's apartment number, i couldn't call home and ask mom what it said on the invitation. we drove around until we found a working payphone, but our house line was, of course, busy. for about 2 million years. we ended up going out to the east shelby county library and using their phone book and computer resources, but nothing helped. we wandered around the apartment complex for far too long. went back to circle k for their pay phone. finally got in touch with mom. she said that brittany's apartment number was 38U, but that didn't exist. she couldn't read brittany's handwriting, apparently, and told me it was apartment A. it was two hours after the designated party arrival time, and nobody was answering the door of apartment 38A. so i left a note and we hightailed it outta there. i came home and looked at the invitation, and lo and behold! there is no way in hell or on god's green earth that the real apartment number is 38A. i am very irritated because i don't have brittany's most recent phone number and she currently has no idea why i stood her up for her 18th birthday party. it's kind of funny how much this imitates the situation at her 13th birthday, or even her 10th. it's just ridiculous how all those good dates are fucked. ANYWAY i'm really irritated. sorry.

why can't i sleep in here?

yesterday marked the beginning of the first weekend of the school year. we had a cuddling party, a journey to subway, and went to see MUTZ at the caravan. the band was as great as ever, but the crowd was smaller and less rowdy than at the last show. which is really too bad. i had a good time, and i also saw dead city for the first time. i liked them in terms of performance, but i don't think i could listen to hardcore in my spare time. so sue me. i got to talk to brandon a little bit last night, which is always very good. today, brock and laylee are on their way to pick me up and watch queer as folk at LA's house. after that i am going to brittany's birthday party. hooray!

Thursday, August 12, 2004

i love hell

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Low
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)High
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

So many days, so little time?

Lordpook1: we needs to have some more days
Sheisrealokay: waht are you talking about
Lordpook1: well see i was thinkin...
Sheisrealokay: oh ye?
Lordpook1: ye
Sheisrealokay: go on
Lordpook1: as i was saying...
Lordpook1: i was thinking. why haven't we had airport day? or blog life reenactment day?
Sheisrealokay: because you never said anything stupid
Lordpook1: or fountain day or sitcom day or a day where we all switch personalities
Sheisrealokay: aweopigha we already had fountain day
Lordpook1: i mean fountain day 2. you know, all the wetness of fountain day 1, but with the boredom of exhausting a theme
Sheisrealokay: why should we do that, other than the wet of course
Lordpook1: because i would be there? (is that the right answer?)
Sheisrealokay: no
Lordpook1: well what about transgender day? that seems right up our collective alley
Sheisrealokay: aweiogweopieh YES
Lordpook1: ok. i'll dress as mowgli. or babar.
Sheisrealokay: that was disney day ass
Sheisrealokay: and babar isn't even disneny weheo[weigga
Lordpook1: that's right, he's an elephant
Lordpook1: g2g
Sheisrealokay: aaa bye

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

ah, yes

enter post-school day headache. i remember these.... i'm also having blog deja vu right now. can anybody say "repeat?"
in any case, today was boring as all get out. i learned nothing, did nothing, and barely even got homework. i discovered how doubly crazy my teachers are and i'm liking some of them less now. i hope i don't go crazy. awopihgwhei. at least lunch is nice. my schedule:

homeroom - boyd (yet another year alone in the ole homeroom. but becca and laylee are down the hall.)
2nd - german 1 - herrmann (with brock, eileen, meg, christie)
3rd - physics - mccrory (i haven't talked to anyone in this class yet)
4th - AP english literature - wyatt (brock, laylee, allison. combined we overtake the awkwardness of elise being there too)
5th - AP psychology - isom (brock, laylee, LA. and lauren might TA)
c lunch with morgan, katherine, brock, laylee, LA, becca, brett, eileen, mouse
6th - pre-calculus - wall (brock, lauren, allison)
7th - u.s. government - bafford (brock, margaret)

for the most part it's pretty nice. yes, brock is in all my classes except one. i really hope we don't have a fight this year hyuk hyuk hyuk. it really sucks that i only see sallis and alice briefly before fifth period. i'm gonna have to work out my walking patterns so that i run into as many people as possible, once things settle down. i hope they don't change my schedule like last year gpowaihpwohgi. i like it how it is. anyway, i'm going to go do my amazingly tiny amount of homework. thank god for no textbooks.

Monday, August 09, 2004

the end

summer is officially over, and i have entirely lost the ability to put words together to form sentences. in short-- i had an interesting summer, sometimes very busy and beautiful and sometimes very laidback and lazy. i have yet to finish my summer reading, but the first day of school was really not so bad. i'm kind of excited about the year, actually. most importantly, my visit from brandon was a 10-day bliss. he left five hours ago, and i already miss him like crazy. i have lots more to say, but i've forgotten how to say it since i haven't used the computer since he came. hopefully i'll have some pictures to post soon and lots of things to say. goodbye, all.

Saturday, July 31, 2004

Thursday, July 29, 2004

i think i'm going crazy.

at least i have root beer to help me along. last night i started july's people which i didn't like at first and then got into further in... maybe that's just because it was 4am? who can tell these days?
today i'm cleaning my room and ACTUALLY MAKING PROGRESS. unfortunately there is nowhere to put anything and i have no clue what to do with all the shit on the floor. oh well. at least it looks a little bit better. anyone up for coming to help me? that's a joke since like three people read this shit and they're all out of town or dead. except for morgan, who is too busy cleaning her own room. le sigh. what's a girl like me to do with a full trash bag and no more shelf space?

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

gahh

so i finally finished that damned book (oh god i'm so punny.) i want to make a big long post about this week, but i have to clean and read and get ready for brandon to come. so i don't know how much i'll get to blog in the coming days.... we'll see. i'll try to keep you guys (haha) up to date.

listening to: rasputina - nov. 17dee (extended version)
taking a break from dante's infernal. about to go crazy. gahoewiahohewa.

Monday, July 26, 2004

idiot nightmare

tonight MÃœTZ is playing at the caravan at 8. it's $5 and i hear you're supposed to dress silly. i don't know what my costume will be, but i encourage everybody to go. a lot of people are out of town or not speaking to me, so i probably won't really have anyone to hang out with. at any rate, please come. call me. i think i'm going to be a hermit this week, what with everything that's not going on. i did get a love letter from the amazing plaid today, though. that makes me very happy. anyway, i'm going to go read some of that infernal inferno and try to bribe morgan into making a costume for me. that's a joke in that if she agreed to do it, i wouldn't put up a fight. have a day, fishes.

Sunday, July 25, 2004

aaaaaaaand we're back!

the trip was the same trip we always have. i enjoyed myself to the best of my ability, spent time with the grandparents, and got horrible trapped in dante's inferno. which i hate. *shudder*
i'm supposed to be rendezvousing with brandon right now, but i don't think he's gonna show up. oh well.
instead, i am messing with the scandaliz vandalistz myspace profile, which you should all visit and add to your friends list. also i'm messing with this flickr thing, as you can tell by the picture to your right. become a member to see my friends only photos mwahhahaaa.
i feel like such a geek. oh well.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Friday, July 23, 2004

saved!

my father is a good man.
i just took some things out to the trash can and found already inside a pillow covered in roly polies. i came in and told dad that they were there. he said, "is THAT what they were? i just picked that pillow off the ground without looking." he then went back outside and saved the roly polies.
life is good.

should've gone to bed an hour ago

so that i didn't have to find this horrible site and countless others...

find a love that's true

today was taking a turn for the worst until i had two bowls of spaghetti with clams for dinner, and then had a lovely evening with sallis, brock, morgan, margaret, and lauren. we went to starbucks and tcby for treats and somehow ended up on the top of the dryve (tittie!) cleaners. (if you don't know the tittie cleaners, you can see it in the back right of this picture. it's the ugliest fucking building in the world.) that was awesome, and i had a great time. then we went back to sallis's to explore his room and his old yearbooks. i finally finished a damn passage to india. it was okay. unfortunately, i've heard more positive things about that one than any of the other required reading.... fucking great. i think tomorrow me, sallis, morgan, and whoever else are going to try to read aloud at least some of "waiting for godot" since it's a play, and i can't STAND just reading plays. i'm way too audio. please call me if you think that could help you in any way... we need at least one more person. my mouth tastes like canadian cigar. mmmm.
this list makes me really happy.

listening to: sleater-kinney - hot rock

Thursday, July 22, 2004

FLEA! FLEE!

mom woke me up by screaming "WE HAVE TO FLEA THE HOUSE!" of course, being my mother, she immediately left and sat down to watch an old movie. over an hour later, she decided it was time to begin. with a sense of urgency, she threw a shower curtain over the computer where i'd continued to talk to brandon on his lunch break. we'd been doing nothing all morning, so we had to finish absolutely everything in 5 minutes. blankets over the tv, air conditioning turned off, refridgerator unplugged. we barely had time to grab the necessities and the animals, everything streaming along in the steam left over from mom's rushing. we set off 5 flea bombs. god they stink. my cat ran back into the house as we were trying to close the door, of course, and mom and i had to chase her around. i think i got some flea shit in my eyes. oh well. everybody settled down on a blanket outside. i should've done more summer reading, but somehow nothing was accomplished. we took a lunch break at pie in the sky. we ordered all 3 different kind of milkshakes. i had vanilla. mmmmm sweet jesus. i was nervous about my cat all afternoon -- that's the longest she's been outside in her whole life. but all turned out well, i think. we slathered ourselves in burt's bees insect repellent, even though i never get bitten. morgan still got eaten up. poor love. at any rate, the mail came and i recieved a magazine called Tape Op about recording music. it's something i've been saying i might look into as a future career, and i found it really ironic that it showed up at my house... mom said i might've gotten on some kind of mailing list, but i didn't sign up for this. is it a nice gift? if so, thank you to whoever paid $3.95 to send me this. i really do think i would enjoy that job. anyway, i'm supposed to go out soon with (hopefully) sallis, brock, and lauren. hooray!

listening to: morgan's watching flashdance and talking on the phone

dreams

i've got some pictures up on a photobucket account while kevin's server remains down in the dirt... you can check that out right here. i'm dead tired.
brock and alice came over. we played in my tent. yes, it's still up. what a baby i am! we went to sonic for the first time in a damn month. hunter came over and we watched the dreamers. alice had supposedly rated the R version, but we didn't notice any changes from the NC-17 version that we saw in theatres. i'm going to have to look that up when i'm less tired. it's still a damn great movie. OH MY GOD IT'S 3? WHO DID THIS TO ME? oWIEHOPAHIWGEdlske.

listening to: fiery furnaces - don't dance her down

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

ahem

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRANDON!
you are 18. think of all the things you can do and all the people you can't. i seethe with envy. cluck cluck.

listening to: merril bainbridge - mouth

what's summer?

another day of next-to-nothingness. watched donnie darko with the parentals. read some passage to india. took a nap. bleghhh. my hair's a mess. i need a shower. i want a cigar. mom's been so worked up about cleaning this summer. she must do this every time, but i can't remember her ever being this adamant about it before. i'm supposed to do regular cleaning plus organize the new books, photographs, home movies, and records. it's enough to drive a person MAD. so i should go to bed, but i have 50 more pages until i reach today's goal for summer reading. so i guess i'm off.

Monday, July 19, 2004

food for thought

yissah!
have a great day, everyone.

our mom our mom

well it's been an interesting weekend. tiki party was really fun, and tonight i had cheesecake with alice and sallis. now i'm kind of tired but i need to go read passage to india. i need to finish that book like, last week. i feel like a puppy. you know, i don't think i've stayed up all night this whole summer. that feels sort of wrong. i know it's coming, i can feel it. so good night-- or is it?

listening to: tracy + the plastics - dog

Saturday, July 17, 2004

nematode's happy flight

i saw napoleon dynamite this afternoon with morgan, alice, and brett. we ran into elizabeth, jenny, and her brother, but somehow got separated and didn't sit with them. the movie was really funny, and although parts were slow, i still recommend it. it's a hell of a lot better than most of the movies that are out right now, at any rate. i like how it was rated PG. afterwards, we all talked in the lobby for about half an hour which was nice. i sort of tried to ask jenny and elizabeth if they wanted to hang out with us, but somehow plans never got made. it was really weird the way that got evaded constantly. so we just dropped morgan off at home (she was going over to a fez party at foot's house, and is still there) and spent an hour or so driving around looking for some trader vic's mai tai mix for the tiki party tomorrow night. we had no luck. we're going to have to settle for the off-brand kind at shnuck's. but what can you do? then we all went to alice's and ate fake meat. i've never had it before and i quite enjoyed myself. mmmmm hot non-dog with cheese. brock picked us all up around 9 and we took brett home since he didn't want to stay out late. we picked up my camera, bought some film and 2 cheap DVDs at walgreen's (dragnet and an abbot & costello feature) and made it to the full moon club in time to hear the prank that the mutant space bats were breaking up at that very moment and would not be playing that night. ha ha very funny. the show itself was really nice. they played a lot of their older songs, which were sort of sloppy but it was nice to hear them again. they even played the one with handclaps, and me, alice, and brock HANDCLAPPED IT UP. and bennett looked at us. thank god. he used to look over the audience's heads or play with his back facing us. he's still totally lou reed, but he at least notices that we are there now. at any rate, i love spacebats shows because i can DANCE like a loon. alice, brock, and i also did quiiiiite a bit of that. better than anyone else there. because, as usual, we were the only ones dancing. it's amazing how many hipsters you can dig up to come to a show like that. they just sit in their sits without moving and can barely find it within themselves to applaud. well fuck that. at least hunter always thanks us for being... whatever you would call spacebats groupies. what would that be? space skunks? sea horses? nematodes? at any rate, i filmed the show, although my camera was making a hell of a lot of noise, and i have no idea why. it only does it with certain tapes, and it's driving me insane. i left the camera on the table for most of the night, so i don't know if any visuals will come out, but i hope it sounds at least a little bit of okay. i do it for posterity! man oh man. i'm a conniving, archival pack rat. what. after the space bats played, this band whose name has already slipped my mind (it was like the 'insert Male Name here' Three or something) started their set. the most interesting part of the band--obviously--was the lady cellist, front and center. at first they played sort of jam band music and the cello was really just background. things started to get more interesting, and of course it was time to leave. although brock (me and becca's ride) had gotten his curfew extended to 12:30, since he is now living in cordova, we had to leave the club at damn 11:40. i came home, jabbered to the parentals, had a cigar, talked to brandon for about five seconds, and here i am. where's brett to make tiki plans? call me if you're interested in attending, by the by. i'm suddenly really really cold and shivering. this sucks.

Friday, July 16, 2004

abandonment

I AM PRESSING THE BUTTONS WMAHAHAAEIEIEO
today we are going to see napoleon dynamite at 4:40 at studio. everyone should show up. hooray! plus there's a mutant space bats of doom show tonight at the full moon club at 10pm. please be there.
brett doesn't like me anymore. he's only friends with morgan. i'm really heartbroken.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

what means bastille day?

today was mom's birthday. it was pretty nice. we watched grosse point blank which i had surprisingly never seen before. john cusack is still my ultimate hero. men named "john" do unspeakable things to me. we mostly waded around all day not cleaning for once. we had tortillas for dinner and gave mom her presents (some DVDs and a birdhouse, since we're already overrun with books from ALA). morgan went to a meeting with crazy hutchison for the movie he's making. morgan got the part of "sister's friend" and i'm very proud. i tried to take a nap but had no success, so i made a bit of progress in both my summer reading and daydreaming. when morgan came home, we went out for dessert at this place in overton square that i've forgotten the name of. it's french, and we couldn't eat there because they were booked up since it's bastille day. this is pretty funny since i didn't know that was an actually celebrated holiday in america. what's more funny is that my mom's birthday is the french independce day, while my dad's is the american one. ho ho ho. so we hightailed it over to melange. the real restaurant was all reserved too so we sat in the little outer smoking/bar area. i had creme brulee and coffee, which was very nice. it was discovered yet again that i am a horrifyingly slow eater.
in other news, i got to talk to brandon on the phone twice today as well as online during his lunch break. the boy takes up too much of my time.
i need to go read some more from this a passage to india mess.

listening to: sarah harmer - go to sleep

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

bagel time!

i'm having a bagel and i'm very happy. that's really all i had to say.
AP scores are supposed to come this week, and believe it or not, i'm nervous about it. mostly because mom will kill me if i make less than 3's. but there's nothing i can do now, so oh well.
brandon, becca, and i are working together to get a minnie proctor show happening in new orleans. if it happens, we all have to drive down together and make a party!
i can't believe i've spent another day doing nothing productive. i better go soon.

listening to: the magnetic fields - 100,000 fireflies

more posts are on the way

i've decided to start blogging again, even when i'm not blogging. i'm sure i can figure that out. someday. the usual people came over for a spur of the moment i love the 90's party. it was fun, but the show wasn't quite as good as i expected. i keep thinking about how summer is almost up. only about 4 weeks i think. it's, a pity, especially since i had much higher hopes for this summer. it seems like whole weeks went by without me noticing them. but who knows, especially with a few great things planned this month, things could turn out nicely. so to my few friends who need it, some encouragement: i'm awake at 5am and have to get up early and clean. but that doesn't mean you get to sleep all day. get up and get going. you're running out of time. to my friends who don't need it, get your lazy self back under the covers. who am i to talk. i should get to sleep, but i'll probably have dreams about the terrible things brett sends me online. hum hum hum.

listening to: joanna newsom - sprout and the bean

Monday, July 12, 2004

well fuck

today was shitty. but i did finally make mp3s of the minnie proctor show at neil's. the quality is okay on the first couple songs and grows steadily worse as the camera moves farther back in the room and the people become louder.
i had an orange sherbert popsicle swirl thingie. and some organic apple jews.

listening to: minnie proctor - flickers
(i think i fucked up this file somehow. i am trying to figure out.)

Sunday, July 11, 2004

sorry, readers

getting back into the swing of blogging has been harder than i expected, and i apologize. wednesday night we had dinner at spaghetti warehouse for alice's birthday, then went to the peabody for dessert. we explored a bit of the hotel and were immediately afterwards accosted by a nice bum. eileen and foot spent the night. they are beautiful gals. on thursday, mom, morgan, foot, brock, and i saw the saddest music in the world which was really beautiful and great. afterwards, brock and i observed an office party from the safety of his car, drove around listening to modest mouse, and swung on the swings at overton park. on friday nobody called. i watched more tv than necessary with morgan and foot -- cry-baby, the breakfast club, the new episode of degrassi. today margaret came over to hang out a little while, and brock, LA, and alice eventually trickled in. margaret left, and we went to dinner at sekisui. i had a lot of water, but no food. i refuse to eat at restaurants any longer. what a waste of money.
also, i've talked to william for the first time in a few weeks since we've both been out of town. i've talked to brett for long amounts of time too too late at night. i've been talking to brandon forever and can't wait until i see him on july 30. can we arrange a Poking Party? where people come over and poke at him? with blunt objects?

listening to: miss kittin - requiem for a hit

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

yawn.

i'm about to die of tired. very quickly i'll say that i had a really lazy, tired kind of day. brock came over in the early afternoon. we listened to music and danced around, and i used up all my energy. we rented "little otik" which was good and very very weird. i talked to brandon for the first time in a few days, and it was really nice. he was smiling like a nut. i have a headache.

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

AHHH MORGAN JUST SHOT ME FULL OF SILLY STRING

Monday, July 05, 2004

i woke up at damn 9:30 this morning somehow, even though i didn't get to sleep until around 4:30 in the morning. i dawdled around for a couple hours, then started trying to make plans with brett. we ended up just talking on the phone for an hour or so. then i talked to brock on the phone. went to therapy, which was okay. it was my last official appointment, but i'm supposed to call and come in when i need to. after that, i came home and spent forever again trying to make plans. i hate the kind of night where this happens. brock came over, and then alice and hunter arrived a little later. we went to pick up brett and stood around in the driveway forever and ever trying to decide where to go eat. i wasn't even hungry, but i was hyper. i hopped all over the place like a nut piece. we FINALLY decided on zinnie's east, where i had only some fries and a dr. pepper. sallis came to meet us, and that was great because i haven't hung out with him in forever. actually, it was great seeing everbody. i was in a pretty good movie and i missed all of you doves. then we spent forever in the zinnie's parking lot trying to decide what to do next. we just ended up going to peabody park, of course. brett and i ran up to look at the train and hang over the sidewalk. i love to swing on swings. man oh man.

listening to: rasputina - oh injury

Sunday, July 04, 2004

well, i just reread my last post from before we left town and all i can say is that i'm a damn liar about that blogging promise! although i did write lots of journal entries which i'm beginning to type up. if you care about the little details of my vacation, you can read them here... in all, i had a pretty good time. orlando is a horrible place, but is bearable when you stuff it full of librarians. my grandparents and cousins are just the same as ever, and amazingly enough, i still find it within myself to love them. ho ho! (i've started saying 'ho ho' all the time and it's driving mother mad.)
i haven't called anyone yet even though we've been in town for a few hours just because i'm tired and i didn't feel up for dealing with the folkies tonight. but feel free to call me any time starting now. i can't wait to hear what everyone has been doing while i was away. i'm sure i missed lots of excitement! someone start telling me!

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

finally bought some new goddamn bras at victoria's secret, and i actually like them. i went with laylee and alice and it was surprisingly unpainful. i also got some thigh high stockings, which i wore with laylee's little black skirt, my doctor who shirt, and the magnificent foot's top hat. we went to whitney camp's house for another pono party, and it was really weird. we were expecting them to either make jokes about our outfits or be really awkward about them, but they didn't really do anything. they were actually really involved in watching the porn, and it wasn't even good. go figure. the rest of us tried to make the best of it by dancing around to avenue d and the pixies, but it didn't really work. oh well. the best part of the night was cuddling with brock and alice on whitney's bed and unbuttoning his vest with our teeth. le sigh. how high school can you get?
we went to sonic for a few minutes before we came home. alice and hunter hung out for a little while, and we listened to some music. i talked to brandon on the phone. i'm going to miss all of you kids when we leave town tomorrow... we come back july 4, but i hope to blog a bit while we're there to keep you posted maybe. stay hott, my loves.

Monday, June 21, 2004

patti smith was fucking amazing!!

if you come see me before i leave town again, i'll tell you about it. mwahahaha

Sunday, June 20, 2004

i took an accidental nap from about 10:30 to 2:30am when brandon woke me up. the little bugger fell asleep on the phone, and it was the cutest thing i've ever heard in my life. but anyway, now i can't sleep. i'm listening to the new beastie boys album. also the sky is purple and very pretty. too many lights. eaghhiio.

Friday, June 18, 2004

i'm about to go shopping for clothes with mom and morgan. i hate shopping. i hate to shop. i hate the shop. i do not want to go. but i have to go. for future use, does anyone have tips on how to make shopping less painful? i can't think of anything.
on sunday, we are going to st. louis to see patti smith. i am going to die with excitement. brandon saw her a few days ago and said she was amazing. weeeeoooooo. after that, we are coming back to memphis for one night before we leave for orlando where the librarians of the world will unite for one week. i can just imagine playing spot the librarian as we surge up some themed rollercoaster at disneyworld... ah yes. that is the life for me. actually, i don't give a shit about the amusement parks. i need some books. plus i love visiting cities and people-watching and all of that. of all the library trips i've been on, my favorite cities were chicago, san francisco, and new orleans. take me baaaack...

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

hello to goodbye

01) babes in toyland - hello
02) kimya dawson - chemistry
03) kristin hersh - gut pageant
04) the cure - close to me
05) the dismemberment plan - you are invited
06) david grubbs - knight errant
07) bonfire madigan - swarm
08) sleater-kinney - get up
09) rainer maria - broken radio
10) the butchies - trouble
11) the raveonettes - cops on our tail
12) deerhoof - magic star
13) our lady peace - clumsy
14) 50 foot wave - dog days
15) pj harvey - meet ze monsta
16) veruca salt - loneliness is worse
17) interpol - NYC
18) chappaquiddick skyline - knights of the night vol. 1
19) the mountain goats - historiography
20) broken social scene - anthems for a seventeen year-old girl
21) the moldy peaches - goodbye song

sallis just dropped off some lovely soup to heal my cold. what a guy!
last night brock came over to watch the atom and his package live concert with me before we headed over to republic coffee to see bella sun's show, in which becca's band (now Minnie Proctor) played a short set in the middle. the turnout was way bigger than expected, and i thought the show sounded really good. we danced a bit, which i've never been able to do at one of becca's shows before. plus val talked to me a bit and was quite nice as always. brock took me home at 11, and i stayed up too late. i'll never get well.

listening to: lothar and the hand people - that's another story

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

i took two naps yesterday so i didn't go to bed until 3am, and then i slept horribly. i woke up about an hour ago feeling a little worse than yesterday. i think i'll go eat some of morgan's good ole chocolate cookies.

listening to: pj harvey - the sky lit up
Everyone go read this comic. Wait for the whole thing to load before scrolling or you'll miss the text.

Monday, June 14, 2004

my cat is all stretched out in my lap as though she loves me again. le sigh.

listening to: throwing muses - snail head

cleaning again...

compounded with my cold, i'm incredibly tired and i might go try to take a nap. i really want to get out of the house tonight, though, if anyone wants to help.. or just a visit would be nice. i'm in my pajamas covered with soap and my hands are pruney. in other words, i'm not a happy girl right now. although i did just listen to "hair: debatable" by atom and his package, which is a live recording of his last show ever. it was nice to scrub the kitchen to, but it's over and it's also raining. it seems silly to be up to my elbows in water when there's plenty outside. for a minute there, i was honestly wondering why i couldn't just take the whole damn room outside and let it wash its damn self. too bad i don't know how to take the roof off...

Sunday, June 13, 2004

i need to post, but in order to keep my parents happy, i MUST clean!

Friday, June 11, 2004

it is very early. oh my.

last night i smoked one of the strawberry cigars katherine gave as a going away gift. i had a lot of fun, and then i burned a lot of incense to cover up the smell. i've become quite the delinquent, it seems. ah well.
i ended up not going to senior pictures yesterday. so it goes... today is kathryn's birthday party, and that will be nice. she is such a sweet girl; i wish i knew her better. i am going to see LA very soon, and i'm excited about that. i miss her a lot. she is someone i love to see one-on-one and i never ever get to. maybe i can kidnap her one of these days.

listening to: the mountain goats - letter from belgium

Thursday, June 10, 2004

i'm supposed to take my senior pictures today.

i'm debating whether or not i'm actually going to do it. i hate senior pictures because of those fake outfits you have to wear and how no one looks like themselves. i don't know. i have less than an hour to decide... help!

listening to: pj harvey - the darker days of me and him

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

as you can see, i'm playing around with these new blogger layout things. i'm also checking out the blogger comment system, so flex your wings, wiggle your toes, and let me know what you think of it. eileen's already told me she hates it, so we'll see. the plus about it is that the comments won't be fucking deleted after a month the way they would on the haloscan comments... i still have all the haloscan stuff and i can bring it back really easily, but you guys are the ones who are commenting so let me know which you prefer. also let me know about the layout. i'll probably be messing with it a bit this week. yes.
i saw trainspotting last night.
i can't stop looking at this site...

Monday, June 07, 2004

yesterday i woke up and went to the midtown food co-op where i volunteered for almost 3 hours and had WAY too much fun with the price gun. ahem.
around 5:30 i was lying in my tent listening to brandon's love mix when brock appeared, followed shortly by alice and lauren. we talked inside my fort for a while, but just ended up cuddling and being silly. do we ever do anything else? who would want to? at 6:30 we went to java cabana to see hunter play jazz drumz, but our little group has such bad feelings associated with that place that we didn't really enjoy ourselves. LA came around 8:30 and then lauren got picked up by some friends. afterwards we went to shnuck's where i was literally picked up and carried by the three of those crazy kids through the entire refrigerated section and dropped off in the meats. after that, alice and brock bought a tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream while me and LA ran off to starbucks where we stole some straws and wooden stirring sticks. we all trekked to peabody park where we sat on the playground equipment and attempted to eat the ice cream. we were all very silly last night, oh my. there was much licking and passing of chocolate. we ate sooo much of that tub of ice cream. alice got very thirsty and went to find a water fountain. she discovered one -- with the longest spurt of water shooting out of a fountain that has ever been known by mankind. it was insane. we took turns pressing down the button so that we could all play around and dance. in the WATER FOUNTAIN. it was pretty great. when hunter arrived, he saw such a sight-- brock pushing down the button while alice, LA, and i danced around topless in the watahs. it was too much fun, and i love water to death.
the rest of the night was also very nice. as stated many times previously, i love my boys.

Sunday, June 06, 2004

last night was alyssa's party, which was fun for the most part. i loooove to swim. brock took me home; brandon called; brett called; william came through the window. it was a pretty average night. i love my boys. they're so good to me! i'm about to go out with brock and alice and whoever else wants to come. if you're free, call my cell and see me. i need people!
in other news, i finally have a new email address, which is elevatorlady@gmail.com -- praise god!

listening to: iggy pop - fall in love with me

Saturday, June 05, 2004

saturday already?

well at least i'm no longer grounded. i'll soon be off to alyssa's party where i will see many kids from ergolytes. i took the SAT this morning, and that was okay. i get distracted really easily and i work very slowly. oh well. i can always take it again if i really messed up. i have a milkshake and i'm happy.
last night i watched dr. strangelove with my parents and immediately afterwards received a very very happy call from a tipsy brandon. we talked for longer than we should have on the night before a test, but i still got enough sleep. it was quite sweet, in all honesty. william visited a while after that, but i was so tired that i don't really remember if i said anything much at all to him. he's a good night-time companion though. we slept in my tent and i was happy aka 9 years old.
i really want to get out of the house and DO something.

Thursday, June 03, 2004

I FINALLY GOT MY PERMIT!!!

thank god. six months from now.... i'll be a driving machine. (hweoiahhahahahwehoaiheahhaa). maybe by december, i'll at least have taken a class.
to celebrate, alice, brock, and hunter came over for a while. we sat around. you know. then alice, brock, and i went to evan w's house to play dance dance revolution with him, greg, boze, doug, and LA. we were crazy touchy like usual. we also danced around, played badly, and whipped people with *evan*'s belt. mmmm.
brock's parents wanted him home early, so i was home at about 8:45. now i'm hungry and aloooneeeee.

mr. green in the study with the candlestick

adam green
adam green (moldy peaches): you and adam are goofy
as hell. who mistakes her steak for chicken?
you do, dawg!


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Wednesday, June 02, 2004

hope everyone had a better day than i did.

farewell to everyone leaving town. have a safe journey and a smashing time, filled up to the brim with amazing experiences and life lessons... i'll miss you.

lake arkabutla



Tuesday, June 01, 2004

well, i think brett's comment on my last post covers just about everything you need to know about yesterday. the only thing i can add is that i'm grounded for the rest of the week. hooray!

Monday, May 31, 2004

casey jones railroad village, here we come!

Sunday, May 30, 2004

weird day.

that's about all i have to say so far. if you're in the mood to be faux-afraid, come over and watch old b-rate horror movies with the kids.

Saturday, May 29, 2004

went to the mutant space bats show tonight.

danced like a maniac machine with the brock. afterwards, he, alice, lauren, and hunter all came over. they didn't stay long because i guess everyone was kind of tired.
spent a large portion of the night on the phone with selected kids from The AP Crew. apparently, they didn't know we wanted to play main street. in fact, they didn't even know we wanted to play tomorrow, and they can't make it... sorry to everyone who has made a place in their schedule for the game tomorrow because it's not happening. and we have to find a new location. so please help and please volunteer to be on our fucking team. thanks to everyone and sorry for the inconvenience.
you know, they hung up on my when i told them they had no lust for life. go figure. they were being really stupid and childish all night. we are silly goofballs, not 3rd grade idiots. it made me remember how much i hate some people and love some others. i love my kids. fuck da AP.
i have a headache, and i have chegroes embedded in my belly. but i'm in a very good mood! beat that.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

yesterday brock came over to hang out, and then katherine over to edit. in short, the night fluctuated from me being really irritated to being really stressed to being really upset/sad/freaked out to being really calm to being really happy. katherine and i had a long, great talk in my yard until 2am, and i really really appreciate that. we then stayed up al night editting, and the first version of "much finer" is FINALLY DONE!!! pleeeease watch it and give us some feedback. we are still trying to work out some kinks, and you can help! anyway. around 7:30 brett showed up and we ate biscuits, watched the end of "party monster" and invited alice over. the four of us headed downtown for a fun-filled day at mud island. i completely soaked my skirt, so katherine wore it like a cape or a skirt for the rest of the day, and i wore her extra pants. we ate lunch in court square with the pigeons, squirrels, and wide array of insects, with a great view of brett's favorite abandoned building. he proposed that we try to get into the tower it has, so he and i decided to climb up while katherine and alice waited for brock to arrive. it was very impromptu so we really weren't prepared –– i was in sandals, we had no flashlight, we knew very little about the building. plus my fear of heights kicked in a good bit. we couldn't get into the little tower thing because the door was locked, but we were RIGHT there. it was kind of cool, but i was pretty nervous nonetheless. we did get to wave to katherine, alice, and brock from a very high window, in any case. after that we went back to my house to make some plans for our game of capture the flag against the AP Crew on sunday afternoon/evening. PLEASE come join our team! it's (probably) going to happen on main street around 2pm, but that's tentitive since the opposing team hasn't confirmed yet. but oh they will... but honestly, we have a much smaller team than we realized, so we urge you to come support us. call me for more information, and come to our team meeting on sunday morning. i'm very excited!!

listening to: hypofixx - bright yellow gun (throwing muses cover)

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

doing inventory at the library was nice.

i shelved misplaced books, checked the placing of the entire nonfiction section, put stickers on some easy reader spines, and scanned about 1000 books into the computer. i had a good time. morgan, i believe, was miserable. oh well. brandon called for a few minutes and made me very happy. alice also called to make plans for the rest of the week. that reminds me -- when are we capturing the flag? and by the way, morgan had a GREAT idea for our team, but i won't reveal it here... take that, snicker bitches!

listening to: belly - red
so i accidentally stayed up all night last night talking to brett and later william. i got really hungry so william offered to treat me to breakfast. william picked me up a little before 7am, adorable in overalls, and we went to brother juniper's. he couldn't eat anything because he's fasting until friday, but i had some very good french toast. i had to rush a little because he needed to get the car home so that his mothe could take it to get the tires rotated. at his house, we talked for an hour or so before falling asleep until 1pm when my mom called and told me to go home. william got up to get ready and blacked out for about 2 seconds. he collapsed for a minute and scraped up his back. it worried me. william took me back home, and i invited him in. "i'll stay for a minute" -- such fateful words. in simple terms, he was there for the rest of the day, and i was very happy. we talked and played around for a while. paul f. rode over on his bike, and william drove him and morgan over to the zoo. i wasn't allowed to leave the house so i made a fluffernutter sandwich and danced around to PFFR in the kitchum. when william came back, we sat at the table in my backyard and made lists of short-term and long-term goals. later, brock came over and joined in. mom came home from work, armed with large bandaids for william's hurt, which i doctored. we picked up morgan and paul from the zoo and sat in the front yard for a little while. paul went home, and we got some dinner at sonic. mmmm oreo blast.... william was starving so he took me and brock back to his house so that he could make some fast-juice. i fell asleep for a few minutes, and when i woke up, the three of us had a lovely cuddlefest in ye olde bedd'de. we were really silly, and it was quite nice. those boys make me soooooo happy. then we made a fort on the couch and squished inside to watch donnie darko which i enjoyed a lot. it put me in a really weird mood. we didn't say anything through the whole credits, which i like. those guys know how to watch a movie right, which i also like. they were both very cuddly with me, and it was actually a very good group of three. i was so happy. now i am home, and i should be in bed since i have to get up early and go to work with mom. we will be doing inventory of the john p. freeman school library, and i'm actually looking forward to it. also i think katherine is going to come over tomorrow and have edit-fest all night... i hope i hope!!!! it'll be a good day. this summer is off to a great start, and i'm very glad that all of you are a part of it. if you ever want to hang out or you ever need me for anything, call me, email me, IM me, leave a comment, knock on my bedroom window, scream at me, do ANYTHING because i neeeeeeed you.
in other news, alyssa left her CDs here on sunday. a little while ago i went through them and found one thing i wanted. i am the luckiest woman i the world because of what i now own. hell yes.

listening to: 2 unlimited - get ready for this

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

i'm wholesome!

ahhhh what a (mostly) great weekend. saturday was spent with william looking for estate sales. we got started a little late, and didn't really find anything too great. then we met up with alice, brock, and brett for dinner at jasmine, where LA and alyssa eventually found us. we walked over to peabody park where we swang, climbed up to the railroad tracks, and smashed coins on the tracks. we climbed back down the weird way, and i felt bad alice, LA, and alyssa had sandals... and alyssa had a skirt too. then again, i had sandals too and i did okay. we had a game of tag to take us back to our cars, and drove topless to the full moon club for a show by becca's band, angry bank romance. she was full of charisma and shrieks, and i love the sound of the full band. after the show, we spent far too long trying to decide what to do, but brett, alyssa, LA, katherine, and i ended up going down to the old railroad bridge and sort of scuttling about for a while. we didn't really have a lot of time, though, because mom wanted me home early (12:30am). LA, katherine, and alyssa spent the night, and we had a heaping mess of girly fun. it was the first time i hung out with just girls in a long long while, so i remembered how to do that and it was nice. even though brett was on the phone a bit, that doesn't really count. sunday was alyssa's birthday, so we went to ihop for a celebratory breakfast. our waitress was very very nice. she sat down with us a couple times. people can be so lovely. after that, LA and katherine headed home. alyssa and i hung out alone for a bit before brock and mouse came over, and we rented "party monster" although alyssa had to leave in the middle. we turned it off before the end because mom wouldn't stop making fun of us for wasting our time, etc. she then chastised me for being selfish, a bad hostess, and a terrible friend, and went on and on about how i do nothing productive. in the middle of all that, william called and invited me to a pool party which mom wouldn't let me go to because "what's the point?" well i was very upset. she graciously allowed me to go out for a damn hour with brock, mouse, and morgan to get milkshakes at a place that turned out to be closed on sundays of course. brock was nice and the night got better back at home. after he left, i talked to william and then brandon on the phone for a little while. both of them are such good, comforting late-night friends. i even got them to talk to each other on the phone for a minute, and that was amusing. i'm not sure what time i fell asleep, but i woke up a bit after 10. i today cleaning the bathroom with morgan, and working on making mp3s of the angry bank romance show. eventually, i started to make plans simultaneously with brett and brock, but i REALLY didn't want a group of 3 day, so i invited some other people. we ended up with a very nice group of 7 -- me, brock, brett, alice, hunter, katherine, and leah. the best part was how many IDEAS we had for things to do. it's such a great example of how i feel about this summer. there's soooo much to do, and i can do it all. we ended up going downtown to the river to martyrs park for a picnic and some pathetic kite-flying. we also tried to film a little for "much finer" and also planned out some things for the game of capture the flag we will be having against The AP Crew. i'm very irritated with them for copying so many things we do since they have no originality and no LUST FOR LIFE. i can't say it enough. i'm sure they're very nice, but you know me. i hate nice. it means nothing. opwaehopiawheg. eventually, we walked down this awesome little path that went straight to the river. we sat there for a few minutes admiring the view. i went off by myself exploring the side of the bluff, which was so cool. i had some honeysuckles, climbed around barefoot, saw many interesting bugs, and enjoyed myself in general. eventually, brock and brett caught up to me, and the three of us climbed up to, surprise surprise, the old railroad bridge. we ended up walking across, which took like. an hour. partly because i was so nervous about it. i'd heard that it was abandoned, which it is not, proven to us by a train going by and a nice conductor waving at us. that was a really great moment, with the bridge shaking and the three of us holding raised hands and sweating into the wind... sigh. if only all days could hold moments like those. even still, i was nervous after that. i mean come on. with a choice of walking on rickety old metal grates or on decaying wooden boards and being either miles above the unswimmable mississippi river or a crazy forest and the addition of amy lovely fear of heights, you wouldn't think it'd make for too great of a time. but brock held my hand to help me keep my balance, and the view was sooooo beautiful. i was really irritated that i'd left my camera with katherine. although the bulk of it would've really irritated me. so that's okay. maybe i'll go back some day. we got to the other side, and the sun was nearly setting so we didn't really have as much time in arkansas as we'd anticipated. i think brett was irritated with me for taking so long. but that's his fault for bringing me, i guess. anyway it was pretty on the other side. i enjoyed myself. better than last time. we called katherine and asked her to come pick us up in arkansas. they were actually about to walk across the bridge, but we talked them out of it. it would've taken them an hour or longer as well and it was already getting dusky. i can't even imagine walking that thing in the dark. so we waited just off the highway, rolling in the grass and getting attacked by massive beetles. we crammed 7 kids into katherine's car and drove a bit farther into arkansas. we tried to get into the dog races but a nice security guard noticed we were way under 21 and made us leave. which sucks, because admission is free. ah well. such is the life. the guard actually told us a place to go watch from outside the fence, but we hightailed it outta arkansas and went to pick up brock's car. we ended up getting some liquid refreshment and a cigar. after that, katherine took me home where i talked to brandon on the phone, then brett. i'm very itchy. i think i rolled in too much grass.

listening to: angry bank romance - the waltzing song

Sunday, May 23, 2004

MOTHERUCKIN HAOT SS NO AIR CONDITIONGIEHE.E.E.E.HE.

listening to: broken social scene - stars and sons

Saturday, May 22, 2004

SCHOOL IS SO VERY OUT. WPOEIHAPOIWEHIPOAW HEPOIIHAWPEOHIPOAWHPIOHAWGWOEHOASHDP OHIAOGWE.
i'm in a great mood. yesterday was really good, and it was a great way to start off the summer. we stopped by ye olde grahamwoode, thrifted, honked at the pedestrians with a bike horn, hung out at chris's/ima's/katherine's party where i got thrown into the pool about 10 times in my clothes, snuck into the drive-in, and had great car talk with LA, who i hadn't seen in forever. i got home around 12:45am insanely happy and feeling slightly smutty. no comment.
tonight is becca and hunter's show at the full moon club! 10pm, the upstairs of zinnie's east on madison! be there, you sick fucks!! and bring a couple spare dollars. if i get becca's permission i'll film it. i think she should sell CDs with the recordings of her shows if she isn't going to record any time soon, because people would love it. anyway i'm REALLY excited for it. also, since it's such a late show, i'm inviting kids to spend the night at my house afterwards so that they'll all still be allowed to go. so you've got no reason not to come! wooooot.

listening to: patti smith - jubilee

Thursday, May 20, 2004

woooooo i'm going to see patti smith in june!!!!!

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

LIFE IS SO GOOD. CAN'T WAIT TILL SCHOOL'S OUT. AWPOIEHGPAOWHEI.

Monday, May 17, 2004

i really need to sleep, but i'm trying to wait for night time so that i don't throw myself off... gahh!! i got only one hour last night, and this has really got to stop. you know who i'm talking to...

listening to: pedal steel transmission - i only got 1 hour of sleep