i love sonic milkshakes. mmmmmmm. oh my.

hweoiahhahahaha

hello to goodbye

01) babes in toyland - hello
02) kimya dawson - chemistry
03) kristin hersh - gut pageant
04) the cure - close to me
05) the dismemberment plan - you are invited
06) david grubbs - knight errant
07) bonfire madigan - swarm
08) sleater-kinney - get up
09) rainer maria - broken radio
10) the butchies - trouble
11) the raveonettes - cops on our tail
12) deerhoof - magic star
13) our lady peace - clumsy
14) 50 foot wave - dog days
15) pj harvey - meet ze monsta
16) veruca salt - loneliness is worse
17) interpol - NYC
18) chappaquiddick skyline - knights of the night vol. 1
19) the mountain goats - historiography
20) broken social scene - anthems for a seventeen year-old girl
21) the moldy peaches - goodbye song

sallis just dropped off some lovely soup to heal my cold. what a guy!
last night brock came over to watch the atom and his package live concert with me before we headed over to republic coffee to see bella sun's show, in which becca's band (now Minnie Proctor) played a short set in the middle. the turnout was way bigger than expected, and i thought the show sounded really good. we danced a bit, which i've never been able to do at one of becca's shows before. plus val talked to me a bit and was quite nice as always. brock took me home at 11, and i stayed up too late. i'll never get well.

listening to: lothar and the hand people - that's another story

i took two naps yesterday so i didn't go to bed until 3am, and then i slept horribly. i woke up about an hour ago feeling a little worse than yesterday. i think i'll go eat some of morgan's good ole chocolate cookies.

listening to: pj harvey - the sky lit up

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my cat is all stretched out in my lap as though she loves me again. le sigh.

listening to: throwing muses - snail head

cleaning again...

compounded with my cold, i'm incredibly tired and i might go try to take a nap. i really want to get out of the house tonight, though, if anyone wants to help.. or just a visit would be nice. i'm in my pajamas covered with soap and my hands are pruney. in other words, i'm not a happy girl right now. although i did just listen to "hair: debatable" by atom and his package, which is a live recording of his last show ever. it was nice to scrub the kitchen to, but it's over and it's also raining. it seems silly to be up to my elbows in water when there's plenty outside. for a minute there, i was honestly wondering why i couldn't just take the whole damn room outside and let it wash its damn self. too bad i don't know how to take the roof off...

i need to post, but in order to keep my parents happy, i MUST clean!

it is very early. oh my.

last night i smoked one of the strawberry cigars katherine gave as a going away gift. i had a lot of fun, and then i burned a lot of incense to cover up the smell. i've become quite the delinquent, it seems. ah well.
i ended up not going to senior pictures yesterday. so it goes... today is kathryn's birthday party, and that will be nice. she is such a sweet girl; i wish i knew her better. i am going to see LA very soon, and i'm excited about that. i miss her a lot. she is someone i love to see one-on-one and i never ever get to. maybe i can kidnap her one of these days.

listening to: the mountain goats - letter from belgium

i'm supposed to take my senior pictures today.

i'm debating whether or not i'm actually going to do it. i hate senior pictures because of those fake outfits you have to wear and how no one looks like themselves. i don't know. i have less than an hour to decide... help!

listening to: pj harvey - the darker days of me and him

as you can see, i'm playing around with these new blogger layout things. i'm also checking out the blogger comment system, so flex your wings, wiggle your toes, and let me know what you think of it. eileen's already told me she hates it, so we'll see. the plus about it is that the comments won't be fucking deleted after a month the way they would on the haloscan comments... i still have all the haloscan stuff and i can bring it back really easily, but you guys are the ones who are commenting so let me know which you prefer. also let me know about the layout. i'll probably be messing with it a bit this week. yes.
i saw trainspotting last night.

i can't stop looking at this site...

yesterday i woke up and went to the midtown food co-op where i volunteered for almost 3 hours and had WAY too much fun with the price gun. ahem.
around 5:30 i was lying in my tent listening to brandon's love mix when brock appeared, followed shortly by alice and lauren. we talked inside my fort for a while, but just ended up cuddling and being silly. do we ever do anything else? who would want to? at 6:30 we went to java cabana to see hunter play jazz drumz, but our little group has such bad feelings associated with that place that we didn't really enjoy ourselves. LA came around 8:30 and then lauren got picked up by some friends. afterwards we went to shnuck's where i was literally picked up and carried by the three of those crazy kids through the entire refrigerated section and dropped off in the meats. after that, alice and brock bought a tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream while me and LA ran off to starbucks where we stole some straws and wooden stirring sticks. we all trekked to peabody park where we sat on the playground equipment and attempted to eat the ice cream. we were all very silly last night, oh my. there was much licking and passing of chocolate. we ate sooo much of that tub of ice cream. alice got very thirsty and went to find a water fountain. she discovered one -- with the longest spurt of water shooting out of a fountain that has ever been known by mankind. it was insane. we took turns pressing down the button so that we could all play around and dance. in the WATER FOUNTAIN. it was pretty great. when hunter arrived, he saw such a sight-- brock pushing down the button while alice, LA, and i danced around topless in the watahs. it was too much fun, and i love water to death.
the rest of the night was also very nice. as stated many times previously, i love my boys.

last night was alyssa's party, which was fun for the most part. i loooove to swim. brock took me home; brandon called; brett called; william came through the window. it was a pretty average night. i love my boys. they're so good to me! i'm about to go out with brock and alice and whoever else wants to come. if you're free, call my cell and see me. i need people!
in other news, i finally have a new email address, which is elevatorlady@gmail.com -- praise god!

listening to: iggy pop - fall in love with me

saturday already?

well at least i'm no longer grounded. i'll soon be off to alyssa's party where i will see many kids from ergolytes. i took the SAT this morning, and that was okay. i get distracted really easily and i work very slowly. oh well. i can always take it again if i really messed up. i have a milkshake and i'm happy.
last night i watched dr. strangelove with my parents and immediately afterwards received a very very happy call from a tipsy brandon. we talked for longer than we should have on the night before a test, but i still got enough sleep. it was quite sweet, in all honesty. william visited a while after that, but i was so tired that i don't really remember if i said anything much at all to him. he's a good night-time companion though. we slept in my tent and i was happy aka 9 years old.
i really want to get out of the house and DO something.

I FINALLY GOT MY PERMIT!!!

thank god. six months from now.... i'll be a driving machine. (hweoiahhahahahwehoaiheahhaa). maybe by december, i'll at least have taken a class.
to celebrate, alice, brock, and hunter came over for a while. we sat around. you know. then alice, brock, and i went to evan w's house to play dance dance revolution with him, greg, boze, doug, and LA. we were crazy touchy like usual. we also danced around, played badly, and whipped people with *evan*'s belt. mmmm.
brock's parents wanted him home early, so i was home at about 8:45. now i'm hungry and aloooneeeee.

mr. green in the study with the candlestick

adam green (moldy peaches): you and adam are goofy
as hell. who mistakes her steak for chicken?
you do, dawg!


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hope everyone had a better day than i did.

farewell to everyone leaving town. have a safe journey and a smashing time, filled up to the brim with amazing experiences and life lessons... i'll miss you.

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well, i think brett's comment on my last post covers just about everything you need to know about yesterday. the only thing i can add is that i'm grounded for the rest of the week. hooray!

casey jones railroad village, here we come!

weird day.

that's about all i have to say so far. if you're in the mood to be faux-afraid, come over and watch old b-rate horror movies with the kids.

went to the mutant space bats show tonight.

danced like a maniac machine with the brock. afterwards, he, alice, lauren, and hunter all came over. they didn't stay long because i guess everyone was kind of tired.
spent a large portion of the night on the phone with selected kids from The AP Crew. apparently, they didn't know we wanted to play main street. in fact, they didn't even know we wanted to play tomorrow, and they can't make it... sorry to everyone who has made a place in their schedule for the game tomorrow because it's not happening. and we have to find a new location. so please help and please volunteer to be on our fucking team. thanks to everyone and sorry for the inconvenience.
you know, they hung up on my when i told them they had no lust for life. go figure. they were being really stupid and childish all night. we are silly goofballs, not 3rd grade idiots. it made me remember how much i hate some people and love some others. i love my kids. fuck da AP.

i have a headache, and i have chegroes embedded in my belly. but i'm in a very good mood! beat that.

yesterday brock came over to hang out, and then katherine over to edit. in short, the night fluctuated from me being really irritated to being really stressed to being really upset/sad/freaked out to being really calm to being really happy. katherine and i had a long, great talk in my yard until 2am, and i really really appreciate that. we then stayed up al night editting, and the first version of "much finer" is FINALLY DONE!!! pleeeease watch it and give us some feedback. we are still trying to work out some kinks, and you can help! anyway. around 7:30 brett showed up and we ate biscuits, watched the end of "party monster" and invited alice over. the four of us headed downtown for a fun-filled day at mud island. i completely soaked my skirt, so katherine wore it like a cape or a skirt for the rest of the day, and i wore her extra pants. we ate lunch in court square with the pigeons, squirrels, and wide array of insects, with a great view of brett's favorite abandoned building. he proposed that we try to get into the tower it has, so he and i decided to climb up while katherine and alice waited for brock to arrive. it was very impromptu so we really weren't prepared –– i was in sandals, we had no flashlight, we knew very little about the building. plus my fear of heights kicked in a good bit. we couldn't get into the little tower thing because the door was locked, but we were RIGHT there. it was kind of cool, but i was pretty nervous nonetheless. we did get to wave to katherine, alice, and brock from a very high window, in any case. after that we went back to my house to make some plans for our game of capture the flag against the AP Crew on sunday afternoon/evening. PLEASE come join our team! it's (probably) going to happen on main street around 2pm, but that's tentitive since the opposing team hasn't confirmed yet. but oh they will... but honestly, we have a much smaller team than we realized, so we urge you to come support us. call me for more information, and come to our team meeting on sunday morning. i'm very excited!!

listening to: hypofixx - bright yellow gun (throwing muses cover)

doing inventory at the library was nice.

i shelved misplaced books, checked the placing of the entire nonfiction section, put stickers on some easy reader spines, and scanned about 1000 books into the computer. i had a good time. morgan, i believe, was miserable. oh well. brandon called for a few minutes and made me very happy. alice also called to make plans for the rest of the week. that reminds me -- when are we capturing the flag? and by the way, morgan had a GREAT idea for our team, but i won't reveal it here... take that, snicker bitches!

listening to: belly - red

so i accidentally stayed up all night last night talking to brett and later william. i got really hungry so william offered to treat me to breakfast. william picked me up a little before 7am, adorable in overalls, and we went to brother juniper's. he couldn't eat anything because he's fasting until friday, but i had some very good french toast. i had to rush a little because he needed to get the car home so that his mothe could take it to get the tires rotated. at his house, we talked for an hour or so before falling asleep until 1pm when my mom called and told me to go home. william got up to get ready and blacked out for about 2 seconds. he collapsed for a minute and scraped up his back. it worried me. william took me back home, and i invited him in. "i'll stay for a minute" -- such fateful words. in simple terms, he was there for the rest of the day, and i was very happy. we talked and played around for a while. paul f. rode over on his bike, and william drove him and morgan over to the zoo. i wasn't allowed to leave the house so i made a fluffernutter sandwich and danced around to PFFR in the kitchum. when william came back, we sat at the table in my backyard and made lists of short-term and long-term goals. later, brock came over and joined in. mom came home from work, armed with large bandaids for william's hurt, which i doctored. we picked up morgan and paul from the zoo and sat in the front yard for a little while. paul went home, and we got some dinner at sonic. mmmm oreo blast.... william was starving so he took me and brock back to his house so that he could make some fast-juice. i fell asleep for a few minutes, and when i woke up, the three of us had a lovely cuddlefest in ye olde bedd'de. we were really silly, and it was quite nice. those boys make me soooooo happy. then we made a fort on the couch and squished inside to watch donnie darko which i enjoyed a lot. it put me in a really weird mood. we didn't say anything through the whole credits, which i like. those guys know how to watch a movie right, which i also like. they were both very cuddly with me, and it was actually a very good group of three. i was so happy. now i am home, and i should be in bed since i have to get up early and go to work with mom. we will be doing inventory of the john p. freeman school library, and i'm actually looking forward to it. also i think katherine is going to come over tomorrow and have edit-fest all night... i hope i hope!!!! it'll be a good day. this summer is off to a great start, and i'm very glad that all of you are a part of it. if you ever want to hang out or you ever need me for anything, call me, email me, IM me, leave a comment, knock on my bedroom window, scream at me, do ANYTHING because i neeeeeeed you.
in other news, alyssa left her CDs here on sunday. a little while ago i went through them and found one thing i wanted. i am the luckiest woman i the world because of what i now own. hell yes.

listening to: 2 unlimited - get ready for this

i'm wholesome!

ahhhh what a (mostly) great weekend. saturday was spent with william looking for estate sales. we got started a little late, and didn't really find anything too great. then we met up with alice, brock, and brett for dinner at jasmine, where LA and alyssa eventually found us. we walked over to peabody park where we swang, climbed up to the railroad tracks, and smashed coins on the tracks. we climbed back down the weird way, and i felt bad alice, LA, and alyssa had sandals... and alyssa had a skirt too. then again, i had sandals too and i did okay. we had a game of tag to take us back to our cars, and drove topless to the full moon club for a show by becca's band, angry bank romance. she was full of charisma and shrieks, and i love the sound of the full band. after the show, we spent far too long trying to decide what to do, but brett, alyssa, LA, katherine, and i ended up going down to the old railroad bridge and sort of scuttling about for a while. we didn't really have a lot of time, though, because mom wanted me home early (12:30am). LA, katherine, and alyssa spent the night, and we had a heaping mess of girly fun. it was the first time i hung out with just girls in a long long while, so i remembered how to do that and it was nice. even though brett was on the phone a bit, that doesn't really count. sunday was alyssa's birthday, so we went to ihop for a celebratory breakfast. our waitress was very very nice. she sat down with us a couple times. people can be so lovely. after that, LA and katherine headed home. alyssa and i hung out alone for a bit before brock and mouse came over, and we rented "party monster" although alyssa had to leave in the middle. we turned it off before the end because mom wouldn't stop making fun of us for wasting our time, etc. she then chastised me for being selfish, a bad hostess, and a terrible friend, and went on and on about how i do nothing productive. in the middle of all that, william called and invited me to a pool party which mom wouldn't let me go to because "what's the point?" well i was very upset. she graciously allowed me to go out for a damn hour with brock, mouse, and morgan to get milkshakes at a place that turned out to be closed on sundays of course. brock was nice and the night got better back at home. after he left, i talked to william and then brandon on the phone for a little while. both of them are such good, comforting late-night friends. i even got them to talk to each other on the phone for a minute, and that was amusing. i'm not sure what time i fell asleep, but i woke up a bit after 10. i today cleaning the bathroom with morgan, and working on making mp3s of the angry bank romance show. eventually, i started to make plans simultaneously with brett and brock, but i REALLY didn't want a group of 3 day, so i invited some other people. we ended up with a very nice group of 7 -- me, brock, brett, alice, hunter, katherine, and leah. the best part was how many IDEAS we had for things to do. it's such a great example of how i feel about this summer. there's soooo much to do, and i can do it all. we ended up going downtown to the river to martyrs park for a picnic and some pathetic kite-flying. we also tried to film a little for "much finer" and also planned out some things for the game of capture the flag we will be having against The AP Crew. i'm very irritated with them for copying so many things we do since they have no originality and no LUST FOR LIFE. i can't say it enough. i'm sure they're very nice, but you know me. i hate nice. it means nothing. opwaehopiawheg. eventually, we walked down this awesome little path that went straight to the river. we sat there for a few minutes admiring the view. i went off by myself exploring the side of the bluff, which was so cool. i had some honeysuckles, climbed around barefoot, saw many interesting bugs, and enjoyed myself in general. eventually, brock and brett caught up to me, and the three of us climbed up to, surprise surprise, the old railroad bridge. we ended up walking across, which took like. an hour. partly because i was so nervous about it. i'd heard that it was abandoned, which it is not, proven to us by a train going by and a nice conductor waving at us. that was a really great moment, with the bridge shaking and the three of us holding raised hands and sweating into the wind... sigh. if only all days could hold moments like those. even still, i was nervous after that. i mean come on. with a choice of walking on rickety old metal grates or on decaying wooden boards and being either miles above the unswimmable mississippi river or a crazy forest and the addition of amy lovely fear of heights, you wouldn't think it'd make for too great of a time. but brock held my hand to help me keep my balance, and the view was sooooo beautiful. i was really irritated that i'd left my camera with katherine. although the bulk of it would've really irritated me. so that's okay. maybe i'll go back some day. we got to the other side, and the sun was nearly setting so we didn't really have as much time in arkansas as we'd anticipated. i think brett was irritated with me for taking so long. but that's his fault for bringing me, i guess. anyway it was pretty on the other side. i enjoyed myself. better than last time. we called katherine and asked her to come pick us up in arkansas. they were actually about to walk across the bridge, but we talked them out of it. it would've taken them an hour or longer as well and it was already getting dusky. i can't even imagine walking that thing in the dark. so we waited just off the highway, rolling in the grass and getting attacked by massive beetles. we crammed 7 kids into katherine's car and drove a bit farther into arkansas. we tried to get into the dog races but a nice security guard noticed we were way under 21 and made us leave. which sucks, because admission is free. ah well. such is the life. the guard actually told us a place to go watch from outside the fence, but we hightailed it outta arkansas and went to pick up brock's car. we ended up getting some liquid refreshment and a cigar. after that, katherine took me home where i talked to brandon on the phone, then brett. i'm very itchy. i think i rolled in too much grass.

listening to: angry bank romance - the waltzing song

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listening to: broken social scene - stars and sons

SCHOOL IS SO VERY OUT. WPOEIHAPOIWEHIPOAW HEPOIIHAWPEOHIPOAWHPIOHAWGWOEHOASHDP OHIAOGWE.
i'm in a great mood. yesterday was really good, and it was a great way to start off the summer. we stopped by ye olde grahamwoode, thrifted, honked at the pedestrians with a bike horn, hung out at chris's/ima's/katherine's party where i got thrown into the pool about 10 times in my clothes, snuck into the drive-in, and had great car talk with LA, who i hadn't seen in forever. i got home around 12:45am insanely happy and feeling slightly smutty. no comment.
tonight is becca and hunter's show at the full moon club! 10pm, the upstairs of zinnie's east on madison! be there, you sick fucks!! and bring a couple spare dollars. if i get becca's permission i'll film it. i think she should sell CDs with the recordings of her shows if she isn't going to record any time soon, because people would love it. anyway i'm REALLY excited for it. also, since it's such a late show, i'm inviting kids to spend the night at my house afterwards so that they'll all still be allowed to go. so you've got no reason not to come! wooooot.

listening to: patti smith - jubilee

woooooo i'm going to see patti smith in june!!!!!

LIFE IS SO GOOD. CAN'T WAIT TILL SCHOOL'S OUT. AWPOIEHGPAOWHEI.

i really need to sleep, but i'm trying to wait for night time so that i don't throw myself off... gahh!! i got only one hour last night, and this has really got to stop. you know who i'm talking to...

listening to: pedal steel transmission - i only got 1 hour of sleep

ERGOLYTES

last show today at 3pm... hope you will come out. support community theatre. because it exists.

i'm having an amazing weekend. yayyyyy! it already feels like school is out, though, and i need to get over that, and hunker down for exams. i'm debating whether or not to go to school on thursday, since i have no exams that day (AP, bitch!) but i probably shouldn't miss another day of school. whatever. i hope i get more sleep this week than i have in the last couple ones. this should be easier with my brand new jersey-knit sheets. mmmmmmmm. very quickly--
friday i had to walk to davis-kidd in the rain which was really really unpleasant. even more unpleasant was the cold temperature kept by most bookstores which i had to deal with. i did not WANT to deal with it, so i went to sleep on one of the YA benches, even though i wasn't tired. it made my legs and arm fall asleep, and i wasn't pleased. when i woke up, i went to call brock because we were supposed to do something, and there he was reading a french newspaper. asshole. he took me home where i put on some dry clothes and we proceeded to snuggle in my bed listening to the cranberries. then morgan came home, and the three of us went to quizno's where i was overwhelmed by choices and made brock order for me. he then dropped us off and left for home. the play went pretty well-- i was worried we'd be rusty after no rehearsals all week, but the audience was really receptive and we were hyper, so it was good. afterwards, me, morgan, zoe, eileen, foot, and kathryn went over to bosco's squared for dessert. kathryn and i shared a creme brulee. hmeemoagiheaoeixg.e. we were all in character, and i was bambi. yeah you heard me. take that. when i got home, i talked to brett on the phone for 40 minutes so he could tell me about his day. then brandon called and we talked for three hours because he got his new phone in the mail. it was an event. so basically, i went to bed at 3:30am and got none of my highly-anticipated sleep because brock called at 11:30am. after rushing around and attempting to plan, brock and brett picked me up and we headed to the flea market. we pet some rabbits, met the hosts of Junkin' and met up with the other kids. i had a really good time, despite several really depressing incidents. brett knew everything on the planet about the flea market world; i was incredibly impressed. we got a lot of free food, too. we bought a watermelon, and everyone ate it on my kitchen floor listening to liz phair. except me. i had a fluffernutter sandwich. brock had to be home at 5, so he and brett left. then i was treated to a cinnamon milkshake at java cabana, and headed to rehearsal. dominic didn't show, so kimberly had to learn his whole part 5 minutes before we went on. it was very nerve-wracking, but she did a really good job. the first third of the play felt really off for my group, at least, but we got into the swing and i got a lot more confident. afterwards, part of the cast and their friends walked across the parking lot and had dinner at pizza cafe, which was very nice. then a couple people went to zoe's to have a piece of chocolate raspberry cheesecake.... jesus christ. i orgasmed multiple times. after that we went home, changed my bedsheets, listened to nice music, and had a 1am nap which turned into an all-night sleep for me. i am in a very good mood, i have to leave for the play soon, and i hope to see you there.

listening to: patti smith - trampin'

sorry everyone.

i'm covered in work lately and haven't had time to post. thanks for all those little moments this week, like the trip to the grotto or the lovely chopsticks (thanks eileen). things have really been dragging, and i'm exhausted as usual. today was tolerable, despite the rain, thanks to a wonderful piece of white chocolate raspberry cheesecake *melt*. it's late as usual and i haven't even started my work. i swear guys, when school's out we need to have a sleeping party.

listening to: Rasputina - My Captivity By Savages

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i've really been wanting to blog lately, and it really hasn't been working out. we'll see. right now i'm trying to write english essays, so i'm going to try that. it's not going too well. is it ever? school sucks ass.

listening to: the decemberists - the tain

WHY AM I AWAKE.

listening to: rasputina - if your kisses can't hold the man you love

ahahah i love that i'm still awake. oh man.

wow

i think i like this new blogger. what do you kids think? i'm enjoying myself.

yesterday was awesome.

although i got sunburned and also got in trouble, i still got to go to anti-prom, which was pretty great. i stayed up way too late, though, and i just got up. mom is very unhappy with me. i've got to figure out how to make her happy.

listening to: rasputina - doomsday averted

play went well, but was not-so-well recieved. i have changed my mind, and i don't want anyone to come see it.
history test was better than expected. go figure.
i want someone to eat ice cream with.

my mom made me stay home today to catch up on sleep. which i did. quite well, i might add.
rehearsals are driving me crazy. classes are driving me crazy. i'm going to explode. if i can just get through tomorrow, it'll be okay.

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BAD DAY.

except for a couple fleeting happy moments. but yeah. today is the suck.
i want to thank all the people who've kept my life interesting this last week –– william, brett, brandon, cast of ergolytes - you have been my breath of fresh air. thanks also to all the usuals who keep me in check. and no thanks to you bastards who've put me in a terrible mood! fuck this! i'm sick of being angry and tired.

plug this bitch

i feel like i have a lot to say about the past few days but very little time to do so. i don't think i'll be posting much at all in the near future either because it's Week Of Doom –– tech week for ergolytes, and AP exams week. i know i've mentioned in 30 times but i'm just reminding you. also i'm bitching. that (and DOY turning 3 years old) is why i'm about to go have a triple chocolate vanilla coke float. oh jesus. *orgasm*

ahhhhhh i hate ap exams. man oh man.

although most of today was hellish, it took a surprising turn and now i'm in a lovely mood! too bad i have to squash it with pounds of homework.

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errr...?

what exactly are thick cut sea salted natural lays'. they don't say "chips" anywhere on the package, anyway. they just have pictures of potatoes. so here's hoping.
today is simultaneously bad and good, so i can't make my mind up about it. this irritates me.
i have a rehearsal at 5, so i should be running lines with morgan right now but i am the suck, and here i be. we have our girls' sleepover on friday night after rehearsal, and it's really surprising that i'm looking forward to it as much i am, i think. i guess it's not weird that i should want to do something new every once and a while, but i didn't expect to be excited, exactly, about not hanging out with my good friends. i think i really need a change of pace though. and i'm doing pretty good with it. last night was quite nice, and i mean to talk about that when i get a chance but for now i'm going to eat sea salt and mope.
someone remind me to study at some point in the next couple weeks.

today started off very nicely.

i slept late, and managed to get ready for school in five minutes. robin and i went around recycling and i even had time to study some history very quickly because of an extended homeroom. then i had to take the end of course history test, which was incredibly easy. although we missed two whole periods, the actual test took maybe an hour. i was sitting at table with brock, margaret, and william, which was really nice because we got to talk and doodle and make merry. i always forget how much i like william since i only see him very rarely. i want to hang out with that kid some time soon. anyway, after that i had study hall with allison, where i attempted to translate some latin. in latin, miranda, jenny, and i worked on a good luck card for someone about to take the AP latin test. at lunch, i was in a really good mood except for being really restless. i'd thought we would all come over here after school to watch the battle of the bands footage today, but katherine was absent. so i figured we could at least hang out, but brock had something to do after school anyway. hopes falling, i continued to history where we had a miraculously boring lecture and i recieved a deficiency. my day got steadily worse when i was late for 7th period, i realized i had only done half of my math homework (and i was even more annoyed that i would've had time to do it in study hall, if i had remembered), and we were informed that our next test will be may 7 –– opening night of ergolytes as well as the AP U.S. history exam. i dropped into a pretty bad state for the rest of class thinking about all the shit i have to do, and how bad i am at getting it done. after school, alice dragged me to the international fair thingie where we tried to eat some food, but mostly it was gone before we could get to it. although i did have some nice things, and the whole thing put me into a much better mood. we ran into brett, who was was stealing his own nutella from the french booth, which we, of course, stole. sorry for eating half of that stuff, brett. but it was damn good. once in the car, dad dashed all my dreams of seeing anyone later today by reminding me of our 6-9pm rehearsal. funny because i'd also finally decided to catch up on all my shit today... great great great. i want to die. i need more nutella.

anybody know what i was supposed to do on the math homework?

accidental four-hour naps can suck it. fuck.

i just hung up from an hour and 20 minute long phone call with brandon, and i have done no homework. god damn it all. why do i keep doing this?

i have so much shit to do today. sorry i haven't had any real posts this weekend. maybe tomorrow? school and rehearsals have been driving me nuts.

listening to: the simpsons theme song

she is real okay: ho ho ho
Lordpook1: shut up santa clause

best link ever thanks to alice!

listening to: christopher walken on SNL - more cowbell

white cheddar popcorn! oh my god!!

hope all of you will be at battle of the bands. wooooo.

happy earth day, everyone.

i am irritated because last night's post had more written on it at some point, about my day and all. i swear to god. grrrrr.
aside from fucking up three tests, today was chaotic because last night billy backed out of drumming for the battle of the bands, and we spent all day trying to find a new drummer. also, alice wasn't at school because she's sick -- dizzy, feverish, and sore-throated from a terrible cold.
i will skip to the end, and tell you that sean lisner agreed to drum for us tomorrow night, and we had an interesting practice in which he came to my house, along with katherine, alice, and laylee, and we did what we could. alice couldn't really sing so i had to do her parts, and i really hope she's feeling better tomorrow because i think i'll die if i had to do them on stage. i'm bad enough with the handclaps and "do-do-do"s. morgan and laylee worked on the groupie shirts, which are actually just pieces of pillowcase with nice writing that we are going to pin to the clothing of our supporters. please everybody come, wear one, and dance.
after everybody else went home, laylee stayed at my house for a while. i haven't seen that girl in forever, it feels like! we hung out on saturday, but i suck. and it's always different to be with someone outside of a group. at any rate, we cuddled like mad dogs. that's a bad analogy, but fuck it. because oh my. she makes me so happy and comfortable. there is nobody on the planet like laylee. after she went home, brandon called three times. what a boy! with a brilliant laugh and much to say. this is love.

HAHahahahahahhaahhahaha

BOBB! .....or.....
BATTLE OF THE BANDS, BITCH!
white station high school auditorium
7:30pm -- 6 bands
for the price of 3 canned goods
sponsored by the pro bono club
and chucks's checkered ass
i'm really just promoting scandaliz vandalistz because they/we are obviously going to win. please come support!!!! we need dancers.

listening to: throwing muses - pretty or not

today was up and down.

i'm really mad at mr. munter for making fun of scandaliz vandalistz and saying we were a joke band. that was really pointless. asshole. at least give constructive criticism. he didn't HAVE to let us in the battle of the bands, but he did, and now he's whining. get the fuck over it. so we (katherine and alice) had a band practice from 4:30 to 6:30 so that we feel better about the music and all. i'm still not sure what my purpose is for being on the stage. i hope we get time to practice with billy soon.
after school (before practice) margaret, brock, and i stayed to read history essays. exhilirating. i'm so sure. brock read my essay, and when we left, he punched me and said i was never allowed to say that i'm a bad history student again. the punch hurt, too. maybe i need to start eating. we went to wendy's to get a frosty, but brock had to go home after that. margaret came over to lie in the bed, and we just got to talk and listen to music for a little, which was very nice. she went home a little after alice and katherine got here. the practice went pretty well. we played "yr 2 kewl" over and over, and "cinnamon" a few times before we drove away to the honors society inductions buisness thingie. and that shit was horrible. when we got there, i felt dressed really wrong and out of place in with my indie kid/feminist shit. no comment on that. depression ensues, etc. the usual. but once my name got called, and i was walking up the aisle thing, that awful bronzer faux-black girl was reading my blurby thing and it made me laugh, because the thing i wrote was very silly. after that it was all gravy train, except for that we were squished onto the stage like sardines. not a good idea when we've got our damn symbolic candles lit up all over the place. i was afraid i was going to light somebody's hair on fire, but it only resulted in me dripping wax all over my fingers. and then i got a piece of cake.
brandon called me expecting to find a lonely voicemail box awaiting, so he was surprised when i picked up around 10. i really liked talking to him tonight, even if it only was for about 40 minutes. i think we both needed it today. i planned to talk about all of the everything yesterday, but... it's late.

listening to: prance - exotic city

"Dear she is real okay,
i was treated with great hasteation concerning the explaination of a most inexplicable phrase. seeing as how i check for blog updates often enough to be called 'obsessive' or 'a stalker', i expect better treatment. please break alanna's shoulder blades with a golf club so that she can never ice skate in the olympics tommorrow. also, steal some money from her and send it to Brett Hanover, PO box 1, Jamestown, VA. also hire a squad of disgusting but morbidly sexy goons to lick her hair thouroughly, which will provide momentary sexual pleasure but will lead to rather uncomfortable matting. replace her hair conditioner with an air conditioner, watching carefully for any rhymes or puns which might be derived. then get her to explain what groping for luna is. with much electrons, brett"

"whatcha call it when you look at the sky in a poetic kinda way? you know, when you grope for luna?" -- frank black of the pixies, "subbacultcha"

COW-PRINT PANTIES

listening to: ani difranco - the million that you never made

this site seems very exciting. i haven't gotten to mess with it too much yet, i just set up my profile but i look forward to making it.. beautiful. and i really encourage all of you to do it because it seems like a lot a lot of fun. and i want to know what you're listening to. wpoiahwgeih.
today was pretty good. i have to go eat so i can't really talk.
just first have to *plug* becca's new livejournal. check this shit.

listening to: john wilkes booze - sweetback's gonna make it

fuck so pretty you and me

standard love mix made for me by brandon. i got it in the mail today, and it's the sweetest thing anyone's ever done for me. i'll be listening to it a lot so i'm posting the track list for easy access. you don't have to pay attention.

01) garbage - #1 crush
02) peaches - lovertits
03) prance - exotic city
04) the cardigans - happy meal II
05) bjork - come to me
06) nirvana - love buzz
07) morphine - you speak my language
08) pixies - cactus
09) yeah yeah yeahs - cold light
10) richard hell - hey sweetheart
11) rusty santos - demon
12) x - i'm coming over
13) t.rex - jeepster
14) dead milkmen - punk rock girl
15) bright eyes - one straw (please)
16) throwing muses - tar kissers
17) necro - fuck you to the track
18) moldy peaches - anyone else but you
19) beck - girl dreams
20) eels - beautiful freak
21) iggy pop - fall in love with me
22) marianne faithful - don't forget me

2:33 -- 2 minute 33 second songs

made at 2:33am. least amount of effort i've ever put into a mix. strangest combination ever.

01) andrew bird's bowl of fire - the idiot's genius
02) anti-flag - captain anarchy
03) apples in stereo - you said that last night
04) bodyjar - is it a lie
05) the butchies - more rock more talk
06) cursive - the road to financial stability
07) dead prez - be healthy
08) eels - my beloved monster
09) the faint - there's something not as valid when the scenery is a postcard
10) free kitten - oh bondage up yours (x-ray spex cover)
11) the gossip - fire / sign
12) green on red - gravity talks
13) guided by voices - back to the lake
14) the hives - main offender
15) the impressions - talking about my baby
16) james kochalka superstar - oceans of girls
17) kristin hersh - shake
18) the ladybug transistor - the great british spring
19) le tigre - much finer
20) lunachicks - heart of glass (blondie cover)
21) lush - single girl
22) pixies - river euphrates
23) pj harvey - joe
24) the pogues - streams of whiskey
25) polaris - hey sandy
26) the queers - psycho over you
27) smashing pumpkins - tribute to johnny
28) super furry animals - something for the weekend
29) tattle tale - a girl's toolbox
30) x - soul kitchen
31) yo la tengo - here comes my baby (some crazy cover)

listening to: pixies - cactus

hand claps, anyone?
alice, this mix is dominating my life.
(that's an exaggeration. but come on.)

ENFP - "Journalist". Uncanny sense of the motivations of others. Life is an exciting drama. 8.1% of total population.

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does that seem right? i don't think so.

listening to: death cab for cutie - title and registration

today was very very nice, surprisingly, and filled with grass. practice AP english exam? fuck that! i didn't finish the multiple choice, and i wrote 3 terrible essays, but whatever. after it was over, me, sallis, brock, LA, katherine, and laylee hung out at u of m for a few hours, rolling around in the grass and talking about pono. we were there seriously all day. the ap thing ended around 4, and we stayed on campus until 6:30. after LA left, we wanted to leave and get some food or something, but only sallis and brock had money, so we spent forever trying to get out of there. i played in a fountain and very wet. eventually, sallis said he had to go because he didn't think anyone would want him to drive him around, even though we said we would. then katherine went home because she had to be home by 7 anyway. so laylee, brock, and i drove around for a little while, starving to death and saddened by the lack of music in brock's car since his radio and shit are broken. we finally decided to go back to my house to make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for a picnic. but of course, we were out of bread. i mean come on. bread. jesus christ. i didn't want to beg for money, so mom gave us this memphis pizza cafe coupon which we spent on a beautiful ultimate cheese pizza with pepperoni added. we ran into that adorable girl. oh my. after that, we wanted to go to a movie, so we went back home so that i could... beg for money. which i got. then laylee remembered that she was supposed to buy her mom a birthday present today. my plan: we go get laylee's mom a present and see "kill bill" at 10. but laylee admitted after a while that she didn't want to see that, and brock waited so long to call his mom and ask if he could be out later that laylee had already called her mom to get picked up. and of course brock wasn't allowed to go anyway, so everything broke. we tried to find presents for laylee's mom around the house, but had no luck. by the time she got picked up, brock and i had decided we should go drive around and sit outside somewhere. but then he sat there playing with katherine's bass forver and it was 9:45 and driving someplace would be pointless. we just got a quilt and lay in my front yard. i think there was a new moon last night, and no stars, but i didn't mind. brock is such a beautiful boy. we rolled all over the place. morgan came out after a while and lay with us. i love putting my head on brock's chest/back and listening to that damn hum. i could live forever there. i got him to spoon with me for about two minutes and then he had to go home. FOILED AGAIN!!!! it's all cool, though. i had a nice time in the grass today. obviously.

listening to: 50 foot wave - petal

today is crazy. thanks to all of you who showed up at my house, and i'm sorry if it was awkward. i, at least, had a good time.

listening to: the yeah yeah yeahs - rich

today has been a really really really really weird up and down. i got about an hour of sleep last night, and i was surprisingly untired. i only hope i can get to bed relatively early tonight, or die tomorrow. then again it should be a short day. don't we have some kind of assembly?
yesterday i left my cell phone in brock's car, and today when we went to go pick up morgan, i got to listen to two new voicemails from brandon. i mean, shit, the boy is beautiful, and that's all there is to say about that. who else would read frank o'hara to me long distance after 9pm? i melted right there in the car, and i swear it was not just the sun's fault.
i'm incredibly hungry. mmm cheez-its.
brock, morgan, brett, and i hung out at davis-kidd after school today, and that was nice. i really think brett should go into the music business.
i wish i didn't spend all my money in 3 days.

mom told me that i got mail today, so i opened it up just now and it's brandon's graduation invitation. i'd totally go if that wasn't the weekend that the whole world was being invented (AP U.S. exam the day before, garrison keillor contest day, ergolytes openings, prom haha). but now i'm being distracted by his froggy little class picture oh my. and the shrek government stamp and my name on a sticker. eheoehehehe. giggling.

i went back to school today, and was sort of hyper. it turned out to be a good kind of day. for some reason i manage to make monday-esque days okay. lately i've been having weeks that start up, then go down, and then back up. today was very nice because i spent a LOT of time talking to brandon, and the couple hours i wasn't talking to him were spent on the phone with brock. also brock came with me to davis-kidd after school today for a couple hours, which was also very nice. it was an okay day, considering that i failed the history test. i wrote this very stream-of-concious thing during math, which was very nice because i haven't written that kind of thing in.. oh forever. i don't think i'll show it to anyone, but it was funnish. well, kids, i've done zero work, for school or for the play, so i really must run.
oh, by the way... if you guys who use the comments could check your recent posts because i've gotten a LOT of anonymous stuff, and i am positive that not all of it was on purpose. so if you find that you posted something without remembering to put your name on it, please let me know. thank youuuu. sweet dreams.

listening to: mum - the ghosts you draw on my back

home sick with a stomachache. blegh yucksy me.

morgan is also home sick, with a cold. she's working on her portfolio to get into art 2, and i am trying to encourage and be a good coach. i already threw a bunch of crayons at her, and told her a few different things she should paint. in a minute, i'm going to go put on some mood music for inspiration. i love my role in this mess.
hope school is going well, everyone. wex will kill me for missing the poisonwood test...

happy easter, everyone.

i am not ready for the weekend to be over, although it has been very full and good. i'm currently trying to fix morgan's camera, which is very hard because i don't know what exactly is wrong with it. this happened before, but no one can remember how we fixed it the first time. oh my.
last night was very very fun. i posted some pictures, but i'm hoping that eileen, foot, and becca will send me some more to upload since morgan didn't take all that many. by the way, she dressed up as Belle from Beauty and the Beast, because we have a the ballgown dress that we wore when we were like 8. she knew that it would rip when she put it on, so she just ripped it up to pieces and tied a stuffed wolf to it so that she would look like she was being chased. it was hysterical. anyway, the only whole movie i watched was "aladdin" which is funny since no one dressed up as anyone from there. LA drove herself over for the first time, and that was exciting, but it meant that she had to leave at 9. everyone was dressed up and adorable. guest list:
morgan as Ravaged Belle
me as Madame Mim
lauren as Ariel
alice as Mulan
foot as Mulan's lucky cricket
sallis as Prince Charming
LA as Alice in Wonderland
brock as Lumiere
eileen as Tinkerbell
becca as one of the 101 Dalmations
william as a dognapper of the dalmations
laylee as Merlin
daniell as Pocahontas
hunter as a blue Brontosaurus

alice spent the night again, and i love her. she and hunter watched "a little princess" while i talked to brett online and brandon on the phone. i feel bad for abanonding them, but... yeah. hunter left at 3:30am, and alice and i stayed up wayyy too long making hard boiled eggs and eating sallis's delicious cookies. we had a nice talk, also. i love talking. wooooo. alice and i woke up at 12:15 this afternoon, and alice had to leave almost right away. i made 3 more hardboiled eggs for breakfast, and found my easter basket which had mint shampoo and beautiful chocolates in it. i got to talk to brock on the phone for the first time in a while, and told him a bit about my week that i haven't really been talking about. that was very nice, although i felt all emo and dumb. it's okay though, i guess it needed to happen. then i put on a nice flowy blue skirt and my worker worm shirt to be festive, although mom laughed at me. i went with the family went to molly's la casita for dinner and had chicken quesadillas. we had an interesting talk. now i have lots of homework to do. why am i crazy and posting. oh my.

disney/childhood movie party tonight! open invitation! come the fuck over!

brandon, why do you evade me so? i want to talk to you tonight. or early in the morning. over waffles.

yesterday was okay at school.

we all went to watch LA play in the softball game. woot woot!! the weather was great, and incredibly hot -- i love it, though, what can i say? after school, brock and i went to baskin-robbins where we met up with dan ying and jenny. we were kind of late after having to stop at brock's so that he could change clothes, and i felt bad about that. but it was cool, and we got to talk over ice creams. linley was there with her daughter, and i got to talk to her, which was awesome. she hadn't been notified about the show, so i hope that she calls alex and can join in late. she was really sad about missing the workshops. i had a 2-scoop sundae with jamoca and world class chocolate with hot fudge and whipped cream. mmmmmmm oh my. dan ying had to go home to practice piano, and she gave jenny a ride. brock and i sat in his car for a long time just talking and sticking our feet out the window. who on earth is better to just talk to? after a while, alice called and said that she and katherine would soon be on their way to my house, so we headed out too. we got there at the exact same time as alice, and promptly went to sonic. katherine was practicing keyboard in the comic room when we got back, and we commenced to recording scandaliz vandalistz songs for a prairie home companion contest that we started working on incredibly late. considering that it is due on saturday. katherine was all ready for playing all night, and taking the 5-song CD to fed-ex at midnight to get it to into mr. garrison keillor's hands by sunday. the four of us did what we could until hunter showed up, and lent his amazing talent to the SV cause. he then told us that his step-mom works for fed-ex, and could have it shipped for us for free, and that we wouldn't have to take it in by midnight. that was happy, and we didn't feel as rush. i'm talking "we" as if i do anything but i was just singing backup, hand clapping, dancing, and performing as co-taskmaster with katherine. in the end, we were pretty satisfied with how the takes came out. i want to upload them for your listening pleasure. soon, my pets. soon...
near the end of the recording session, william and becca showed up. i felt bad because we advertised the night as "The Who/Rock Star Party" night, but it became something totally different. so once they came, i hung out with them, since i wasn't really needed for SV. we listened to the new rasputina album, played dress up, and took many silly pictures. i love them, and i wish i saw them more. also, i really want to have a laylee/becca day soon. i'm so lonesome and disconnected from them. actually, i feel kind of disconnected from everyone lately, but i guess that's my own fault. anyway.
brock left about 11. he is beautiful, and was being very sweet yesterday. ohh brock i love ye. katherine left around 11:30, after making sure that everything was in place with the CD and the package for our hero garrison. william and becca discostumed at around 12:15 to get becca home on time. unfortunately we didn't have time to make the music video we wanted to. (i need new tapes, too.) hunter left almost directly afterwards, with promises to return back today to pick up the package. alice and i stayed up late being silly and listening to music. we fell asleep on the couch watching quadrophenia. and we never even saw the hot sting. tsk, tsk. we'll probably be watching it again very soon.
today has been mellow. mom got us la baguette thingies and we all sat around and listened to the scandaliz vandalistz songs. mom wants a mini-cd of her very own. aww. alice left at 12, and since then, i've just been hanging out and doing nothing in particular. katherine called to check up on the package, and i also talked to brock on the phone for a very little bit, but he had to leave to go to the zoo with wenli. hunter picked up the package a little while ago, and that is very exciting.
i am finally getting sort of stir-crazy being here. i will probably go organize some cds or something. i really need to get out though. i am free this afternoon, and after 8 tonight. pleeeeease.

i feel really crazy. i have to do some math and settle down before i explode. wish me luck.

why are mixes so hard to make.

have been staying up far too late.
have been starting homework way way way too late.
have been enjoying much too many lovely late night phone conversations with brandon.
oh my.

today was totally invaded by brandon. sneaky bastard.
i failed a couple tests. nothing big. ra ra ra.
i worked on lots of playlists for mixes, in every damn class. look out, kids. if you want one... let me know. i'm totally on a rampage.
after school, brock and i picked up alice, and they ate greek kwik shop delicacies while we rolled around the grass at overton park. sarah schweig's dog chunky attacked us. it was awesome. we swang on the lovely swings, and i was obnoxious and sang to myself while alice and brock talked about stuff. then we came to my house, where i got a reese's blast and we attempted to practice. it didn't go well. we talked for a while. me and alice had a mad cuddle fest on the living room sofa. it was supahott. lips and tits and hips everywhere. what can i say? brock wouldn't join, but he still hugged me a lot. also we wrestled at the park, and now i'm nothing but grass stains. oh what a world, in which my lovely sister makes organic alfredo for our own delight.

quoth alice, "we need to make a club dedicated to trios. we will discuss songs, movies, etc with trios. then we weill reenact them. you can be president, brock can be treasurer, and i will be in charge of milk and cookies. or should i say milkshakes and honey"

listening to: Peaches - I U She

today i have added about 54 new pictures to the visual section of this blog. good luck finding them all... some are from this week, and some are from spring break. my scanner pooped out a little while ago, and started giving me this error repeatedly, but i'm still amazed that i got as far as i did. thought i'd give the heads up if you were curious about those old march pictures. keep on the lookout for some more coming tomorrow and in the next week.
so sorry i haven't been updating as much as i'd like. i've been kind of crazy. plus it's 4am.

"i ask him why the grass is blue, why stray boys don't go home, why 4am's so screwy? he says, 'sleep through it.'" - kristin hersh

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

why do i insist on taking this test year after year? it makes me feel crazy. i guess that's the idea.

holy christ.

download this please. it's a live solo song by kimya dawson, the woman from the moldy peaches. and it's brilliant. (lyrics, bitch.)

my oh my what a day.

school actually went by really quickly, and then i sat around doing math with alice, katherine, and laylee at davis-kidd. it would be nice to always have friends there. we did work, too! genius. at home, i called brock for a little while, then went to this thing for the play which i will not go into detail about right now. an hour later, i was back home, getting ice cream and talking to brandon online. we got into a really good talk, which continued on the phone, and then back online once his phone died. i'm so glad that we had that conversation, although there were some kind of stressful bits. if that's the right word. i'm sure no one wants to hear about it. but at any rate, let me just say: i love that fucking boy.

listening to: the coasters - along came jones

today was marvelous! mostly because i was sort of feeding off the energy from the weekend. backwards:
-brandon called late last night. it was brilliant. i am full of love.
-we watched parts of our movie things on the computer, and i died laughing over and over.
-foot and mouse came over to watch a movie with morgan, and they were very very silly. i love them.
-morgan made lumpsy chocolate cookies. mmmm.
-ergolytes workshop was very good, although i couldn't remember my lines very well.
-i woke up very late on sunday.
-i nearly fell asleep on morgan's lap.
-brandon called me, but his phone died after like 2 minutes.
-me and brock drove around for forever, and ended up at shnuck's. we bought cake, and ate it across the street. then we got married.
-brock and i sat outside and talked in the heat.
-katherine and alice came over for a very brief scandaliz vandalistz recording session. brock came later, but i don't think he got to record any drum parts yet.
-forced to go to ergolytes workshop by my father, instead of ice cream cake with dan ying and jenny. it turns out they couldn't go anyway, and workshop wasn't so bad.
-mad series of phone calls between alice and brock trying to figure out what was going on.
-anti-SATs morning with LA featuring pastries and "the sword in the stone."
-LA came over and spent a wonderful night with me. we stayed up very late chattering and cuddling.
-after school on friday, alice and i picked up her guitars from her house, and came back here for a scandaliz vandalistz practice with brock and katherine.
-a week of things i've probably already forgotten.

why oh why am i awake.

i'd love to stay a while, but my homework is calling calling my name.

criss/cross mix for sallis

a lot of the songs are really long on this, i realized. also, it's very random. actually, this thing is really weird. i can't figure out what happened to it. but here it is.

01) bikini kill - carnival
02) desaparecidos - manana
03) superchunk - the question is how fast
04) the beatles - rain
05) the gits - second skin (live)
06) the raveonettes - chains
07) the faint - call call
08) i am the world trade center - sounds so crazy
09) the cure - lullaby
10) portishead - biscuit
11) the yeah yeah yeahs - y control
12) pixies - gouge away
13) kristin hersh - sno cat
14) pj harvey - yuri-g (4-track version)
15) violent femmes - kiss off
16) the moldy peaches - nothing came out
17) andrew bird - weather systems (live)
18) reindeer section - last song on blue tape
19) smashing pumpkins - disarm
20) death cab for cutie - transatlanticism
21) discount - math won't miss you

i'm very sorry about the lack of updates. this is the hiatus i mentioned but did not call into effect, i guess. it's not a real one because it's not official. but... rehearsals have been almost every day, and homework is on overload right now. i'm sorry if you're all a little less connected to the amazing life of alanna. le sigh. but i hope to catch up next week, when there will be no theatre for me. mwahahaha.

today is quiiiite nice, mostly because it's thursday. although it feels like, as foot put it, wednesday of next week. which makes it sort of nicer. tomorrow will be pleasantly surprising for my silly brain.
after school, margaret, brock, katherine, and i went for a history study group at starbucks. we get so carried away, and talk like nobody's business. there was something a little off today, but i think it was just me. a mood thing maybe, but i didn't feel like i had a lot to contribute to the conversation. ah well.
around 5:15, william and morgan ambushed me, and stole me away to make organic waffles. it was beautiful. william is, again, the sweetest thing. it's proven this time. we made 2 giant waffles, one with bits of his favorite kind of dark chocolate. william drove morgan and i to play workshop, but could not convince him to come in. we were about 20 minutes late, but not as late as last night, and they still hadn't started when we came in. it was really relaxed tonight, i thought. zoe was there and that made me quite happy!! her hair has grown out so much. what a beautiful girl. there were some really interesting movement exercises, but, for my part, a lot of resting.

after school, we had a very short "band practice ha ha" at alice's house. instrumentation was two acoustic guitars made by her dad, one of which apparently wasn't made very well. brock and i sort of sat, and very much enjoyed the jamness of alice and katherine. they work very well together musically, and they have a lot of ideas. which they forget. very quickly. next time there will be a tape recorder and words on paper. friday, guys?
katherine had an oboe lesson and had to go after barely any time. alice, brock, and i went to wendy's, baskin robbins, and super 88. i'd left my cell phone at her house and hadn't been able to get in touch with my mom before that, so she was really mad at me tonight for going to davis-kidd and not finding me. the second time this week. i don't want to stop doing things on weekdays because it really brightens up my silly life, but i don't want her to be mad at me either. and i wish i could find my house key.
william is the sweetest thing. he showed up at our house to take me and morgan out for WAFFLES. unfortunately, we were about to leave for the second ergolytes workshop, though we did talk for a few minutes. it was still a very nice gesture.
workshops have been nice so far. i'm still working on brock to work on his parents to let him be in the show... everyone keep your fingers crossed. the play is already enveloping my life and we've been in it for half a week. i think i'll die. that is not to say i haven't been enjoying the time, but homework is a real hassle. i was up till 2 last night. i feel very guilty posting. i'm going to go now. i hope everyone is having a lovely week.
spring break... what?? that was years ago.

today has become horrible, i want to die, and i ache terribly.
i only want to sleep.
play stuff starts tomorrow, and i am stupid. gahepoiahiei.
this blog might take a hiatus.

thanks a fucking lot for all the kids who DIDN'T audition with me today! gewiowhpaih. brock and william came, but neither of them is going to do the play. i can feel it.
well, to make up for your sorry selves, i beg that you come to at LEAST one of the workshops. it's purely for fun, and it doesn't mean you're in the play or anything, or commit you to the schedule. although if you were interested, i'm sure alex would let you in. i'll try to give some more head's up as the week goes along, but seriously guys. it's a great experience, whether or not you're into acting, dance, or theatre. no joke. you will never do anything like it. come out. support. play.


Workshops at the University of Memphis
Communication & Fine Arts Building, Room CFA 126

Tues, Wed & Thurs, March 16-18 -- 7:00-9:00pm
Sat & Sun, March 20 & 21 -- 2:00-5:00pm
Tues, Wed & Thurs, March 23-25 -- 7:00-9:00pm
Sat & Sun, March 27 & 28 -- 2:00-5:00pm

I HATE BEING BEHIND. FUCK THIS STUPID SHIT.
friday: fuck if i remember anything. oh yeah. margaret called me at like 11:30 and wanted to hang out. i hadn't seen her all break, and i was ecstatic. she came over, we grabbed a bunch of cds, and took off into the wild blue yonder. we drove around and around and around, all through the downtown. there were many colorful and beautiful houses, which we admired. i was hungry, and she was low on gas, so we went to eat at the arcade. we got a 12inch pizza with mozarella, feta, and cheddar cheese with pepperoni. it was quiiiiite good. margaret and i were on a fake date, so i paid for us. it was sweet. then we came home, but i've lost my house key. so i broke in through the back door, and we grabbed the camera and took off to overton park. we met up with alice, brock, tarah, and mary w to film the pro bono recycling promotion video. my camera was wildly low on batteries, so we worked super fast. margaret, brock, and i went over to tarah's house to recharge the camera, watch the footage, and possibly film some more. but after we watched our stuff, we watched all of tarah's spring break documentary footage for a long time. it was pretty funny, but we didn't really know what we were doing there. ahhaha. margaret left for work, and the rest of us hung out around tarah's BEAUTIFUL house, and sat on the roof, and explored her room. it was nice. alice came back from her violin lesson eventually and sat around with us. people kept randomly appearing at the house: mary w, linton, frannie, some girl. it was nutz. alice and brock were very hungry, so we finally left for cafe ole where they ordered the same thing, and didn't enjoy it. kind of sad. we skipped that joint and went to black lodge where we rented "help!" and "lolita." the beatles are fucking awesome, as you know. we had great fun watching it. when it was over, brock still did not have a favorite beatle, which is very upsetting. (for the record, mine is george, and alice's is ringo. hell yes. they're all amazing, though, of course. POLL: name your favorite of the fab four. in comments, bitch.) afterwards, we put on "lolita" but we were way too talkative, and after a while, realized that it would be no use in trying to go back and watch things and figure out what we'd missed because there wasn't time to finish the whole thing anyway. anyone up for lolita party tomorrow or tuesday night? call. i'm not kidding. so we put on michel gondry videos because that's what always ends up happening, and it was very nice. i'll never be sick of them. i love the man. plus with music videos, we could talk more while we watched them and it was more mood-suiting. i can't remember what we talked about, though. anyway. they went home at some point. i probably got online for a little while. i can't really remember.
saturday: dad woke me up 11ish, i took a shower, and went to the library at 12 to meet my english group. only allison was there and we sat around for a few minutes. i was really annoyed. i bought a caffe mocha. finally, shana got there. she and allison had done the same damn part of the project, and i wanted to suicide. i'm not going to go into detail. i was only there for about an hour and a half, but christ, that was enough. when it was over, i talked to brock on the phone for a few minutes, and we tried to make plans to do something. but we suck. so dad came and picked me up, and for the next hour or so i was on the phone with alternately katherine, brock, and alice, trying to make plans but getting wrapped up in talking. like always. brock and alice got here at 4ish, sallis arrived shortly after, and katherine after that. we watched parts of the beatles anthology. (update -- katherine's favorite beatle is paul, and sallis' favorite beatle is also ringo.) we spent forever trying to make plans for a second time. alice had said she just wanted to go somewhere to talk, and some people were hungry, so we decided a cheap dinner would be nice. it took forever, but around 6 we split into 2 cars and set out for pyrtle's chicken. i was not amused. sallis and i arrived there, and moments later received a call from brock saying that katherine had a flat tire. we drove back to help them, and everyone (except me) assisted in changing the tire. it was quite an adventure. i filmed the whole thing. the best part was katherine being her usual movie self. she thought we could add it in as a scene in our cinderella parody, and made everyone act their character. she is pretty great. i'm glad that i got to see her at least once over spring break!! at any rate. we split back into our 2 cars, and drove back down poplar toward home. sallis and i got to my house, and again, our comrades were nowhere to be seen. seconds later, we recieved a call from brock saying that they'd stopped at the smart mart. i think i was sort of bothered that we're such fucking awful planmakers by then, and i don't know what had come over my mood but i sort of hung up on brock. i'm very sorry, brock. i didn't get the chance to apologize yet. i'm such a ho bag sometimes. anyway, the point is that we decided to get a totally SHIT dinner. everyone bought one item of shit like ramen noodles, pringles, hot fries, popcorn, sticky bun thing. it was really gross. we got that done, and went back home where we took great delight in noting the arrival of mom, morgan, and 2 pizzas. we hung around the kitchen preparing our feast and then went to the den to watch more beatles documentaries. i've really been hoping something would pop out at brock to help him find his favorite beatle, but nothing has worked so far. also, katherine and sallis, though they do have a favorite beatle, can't tell them apart, and aren't that familiar with their off-record personalities. so that was an adventure. i tried very hard to coach sallis which one was which. my parents got excited too and came in and whatnot. (update 2 -- dad's favorite beatle is paul, mom's favorite beatle is george, and morgan's favorite beatle is also ringo.) hunter arrived to pick up alice for the memphis symphony orchestra concert, and he watched a little of the documentary too. (update 3 -- hunter's favorite beatle is john.) it was kind of funny because when he came in, we were watching this music video-esque thing for "rain" which is apparently one of his favorite beatles songs. he, alice, and sallis all left at the same time, and after that we all got more mellow, i think. we put on baz luhrman's "romeo and juliet" because katherine and brock had never seen it. so that was very nice. brock cuddled with me. that boy is beautiful. i told him how much i love his nose, and i think i made him self concious about it. which was not the idea. god damn. i think they enjoyed the movie, except for that brock was falling asleep at the end. poor love. around 11ish, his mom came and picked him up. katherine spent the night, partially because she was worried about driving on the spare, but mostly so that we could edit. and somehow we did not edit a single cent! it was amazing, the way we got absolutely nothing accomplished. never have i been more impressed. we came in to edit, and somehow started talking and talking, and just couldn't stop. we moved to morgan's room, where we eventually fell asleep -- at 5am. it was absolutely insane. i was really really really really glad that we did that though. i never get to talk to katherine these days, so it was just very nice. conversation is my absolutely favorite thing, and it makes me sad that some people don't like to hold conversations like that. i would go crazy if i didn't. but who knows. maybe i'm already crazy, and that is the issue. anyway. we went to bed eventually.
sunday: katherine woke up at 11 something this morning, and was going to leave me a note to say goodbye because she had to get home, but i woke up as she was leaving and i am shit for going back to sleep. i've just sort of hung out with morgan so far. lalala. ergolytes auditions today... come on kids. i need you.


the server is back! hallelujah and thank you kevin. i WOULD urge you to check out some eye candies but there's not really anything new yet. the only pictures we've taken over spring break, really, have not been digital and are not developed yet. oh, but you might want to take a look, since i don't think you guys ever got to see the pono nite stuff, or the drums day. but keep an eye out in the future for some additions...

i got brandon's latest package and i'm now wearing mardi gras beads. hoo boy!
at 12, i had to meet with my english group at the library, and only allison was there. stupid english group. how i hate thee.
katherine is back in town from her college tour trip and i'm supposed to see her, brock, and alice today. i should be seeing them at this very second, but i'm um. not. i really want to get out of the fucking house, but i have no idea when anyone is coming and what we're doing. the past couple days, we've had ideas to go downtown but alice isn't really allowed to drive there, so it doesn't work out. which is too bad. plus i paid for a pizza yesterday and now i'm pretty moneyless, except for the money i need to save to buy cds with. yes, i NEED the cds. they are essential to my happiness, health, and wellbeing. bitch.

THE ERGOLYTES
…a theatrical exploration into the ascent of technology, the loss of our humanness, and the impending consequences.

Auditions at TheatreWorks
2085 Monroe in Overton Square
Sat, March 13 2:30-4:30pm
Sun, March 14 4:00-6:00pm



is anyone up for doing this with me? please? at least come audition. that just means we'll do workshoppy kind of stuff, nothing painful. it will be nice. i promise.

MY STUPID PICKY FRIENDS HAVE GONE TO THE GROCERY TO BUY THEIR PICKY FOOD AND LEFT ME HERE EATING FROZEN REESE'S PIECES.
brock wants earl grey tea because our flavorous kind is not good enough for him, and alice wants fruity ice cream because she sucks.

listening to: portishead - biscuit