Thursday, July 18, 2002
i can't wait to crawl out of my shell
it would appear that it's a good time for resurrection here on the blog front. if you haven't been already, visit she.speaks.good.english and have a wonderful time. and also become a member. last night i was awake for forever and ever after i went to bed. i hate that this keeps happening! it's probably a proven fact that people are happier when they stay up really late and then sleep really late rather than going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. my body just hates sleep that much, i guess. the whole bonfire madigan cd played, and i must have been delusional because i kept imaging that i heard noises coming out of my stereo. it was crazy. after a while i ended up putting on a tori cd (to venus and back) and i fell asleep before that was over, thank god. even though it didn't feel like it.
please note that i woke up this morning, looked at the clock, and thought it said 12 something. so i thought to myself, "wow thats pretty good, considering how late i was up." and i stared at the clock some more and decided that it said 10 something, which was even better. then the little digital numbers finally made themselves known to me, and why i woke up at 8:35am, no one will ever know. it's incredibly distressing. and it felt like i hadn't slept at all, so i tried to, but the cat KNEW I WAS AWAKE of course, as usual. so she came and sat on me and looked pitiful and i had to pet her. i'm truly starving. does anyone have any suggestions for people who ... can't eat? i'm going to live the rest of my life on cheesy alfredo.
today i have a check-up at the oral surgeon place so hopefully he'll tell me that everything is fine and i will never feel pain in my mouth area again. ever. but he will probably end up telling me that not only have i gotten an infection from not rinsing with enough salty water, but my mouth now supports several fungi. (somewhat like the fun guy on my mother's toe?) he's also going to prescribe me to some crazy medicine that makes my head bloat up like those fat-headed goldfish. but really he will just ask me where the hell that little thing that he put in my mouth is. and let me tell you, i don't really know. it came out while i was eating and i told dad and dad said "maybe we should keep it" so i gave it to him and i think he ate it or something. we decided that it was a suture. mom said, on the phone, that those were supposed to disintegrate or something? who knows. so i guess thats ok that it fell out.
as previously stated, i am supposed to go to that thing at overton square this evening with kevin and elise. i hope it goes well. i thought about taking the camera, but that will be a real burden, somewhat like at hunter's party, only that was kind of on purpose and most of the time i wasn't even the person holding it, so i guess that doesn't count. but uh. if you would like (green) pictures from the party email me. whaogiiaiaeooeaoie
alanna's brilliant (accidental) review of amélie
right. as i was saying, the extent of her shyness. at the beginning and stuff, just starting that whole 'quest' thing, it seems like if she was really so shy as they made her out to be near the very end, she wouldn't have actually done ANYTHING. and really, do you know any shy waitresses? so at the end, those two people, whats their names? joseph and georgette, from the bar. yes well, whoever they were, they didn't seem to end very happily. and another thing, everything (for the most part) did turn out all right, but it seemed to me that some of the things amélie did were not ... the best thing to do. she meant well and everything, and everyone turned out happy, but you know? like the thing with the gnome was hilarious, but when she first stole him it upset me greatly. her poor devestated father. actually, i got over that, especially when she brought him back. so that doesn't really count. but uh. the fake lettter, i found that to be kind of cruel. i guess i would though.
but anyway, i love the movie. i'm done now.
Wednesday, July 17, 2002
pull this thread as i walk away
other things alanna remembers about last night:
--thinking that if the cd (house tornado by throwing muses) ended before i fell asleep, i would get up and finish feed
--deciding to partially resurrect the cam archives, for lack of things to do
--reminding myself that i could musically link kristin hersh to frank black. like in the six degrees of kevin bacon. i think i fell asleep while i was doing it though, because i don't ever remember getting there. or maybe i got side-tracked trying to make it longer than four degrees.
if you remember, the reason it died in the first place (near the end of february) was because. well basically my parents heard from a friend that if you search for some things on google (like the name of the play my dad and sister were in) my blog would come up. so dad searched and found it and read, etc. he asked me to stop using and remove all previous obscene language from the premises, and i didn't want to, so i changed URLs and hoped that it wouldn't come up on google anymore. then i proceeded to fix all the links to wwf (ehehehehehe) from DOY and morgan's blog, etc, and dad FOUND IT AGAIN. and ASKED ME AGAIN. and i still didnt want to, so i deleted it. yeah, i've kinda been posting for the last couple months but it's mostly just quiz result thingies.
so anyway though. right now. brittany has left her heart with me in memphis. everyone on earth has seem amelie but me, and it would seem that kevin is in love with it. a lot. he saw it in the theatre six times. i think i'm suppposed to go someplace with kevin and elise on thursday, but who knows if it will actually happen. it would be really great to get out of the fucking house and do something. dad has forgotten yet again to bring my required reading home from the library, so here i am watching noggin and reading somewhat and resurrecting things that should still be dead.
alanna's tv schedule today:
pete and pete (times two)
kids say the darndest things (times two)
daria (times two)
clarissa explains it all
half of sessions at 54th on trio (the beth orton half.)
about ten seconds of the one-hour bjork thing i taped.
....... please someone. PLEASE someone come and take me away.
we take metaphors this far
Violet was off someplace talking to the doctor. I say “someplace” because we were using the examination room to blow needles at an anatomical guy’s basket.
Link and Calista were standing real close by the vibrating bath, and I realized that they had probably decided to hook up. It looked like Calista was getting over Link being so stupid, which was brag, because he’s a nice guy. Quendy sat there on the table, glaring at them.
Violet came back from the doctor. She was all intense looking. She said she’d found a place she wanted to show me. I said sure, and I went wit her. We went out into the hall. Now I could hear the lights again. The shouting from the examination room was more distant. We walked for a ways through some tubes and so on. People floated by automatically on gurneys.
She walked in front of me. Her slippers went fitik, fitik, sliss, fitik on the floors. They were soft sounds, like the sounds mouths make when they open and close. I watched here from behind. When we stopped to wait for an uptube, she lifted her ankle so her heel came out of the slipper, and with her toes she slid it back and forth on the tiles without thinking about it. She massaged the floor. When the uptube was free, she settled her foot back in, and walked, fitik, fitik, sliss, fitik, right on in.
She took me up to a huge window. We stood in front of it. Outside the window, there had been a garden, like, I guess you could call it a courtyard or a terrarium? But a long time ago the glass ceiling over the terrarium had cracked, and so everything was dead, and there was moon dust all over everything out there. Everything was gray.
Also, something was leaking air and heat out in the garden, lots of waste air, and the air was rocketing off into space through the hole, so all of the dead vines in the garden were standing straight up, slapping back and forth, pulled toward the crack in the ceiling where we could see the stars.
“Whoa,” I said.
“Isn’t it beautiful?”
“It’s like…,” I said. “It’s like a squid in love with the sky.”
She was only looking at me, which was nice. I hadn’t felt anything like that for a long time.
She rubbed my head, and she went, “You’re the only one of them that uses metaphor.”
She was staring at me, and I was staring at her, and I moved toward her, and we kissed. The vines beat against each other out in the gray, dead garden, they were all writhing against the spine of the Milky Way on its edge, and for the first time, I felt her spine too, each knuckle of it, with my fingers, while the air leaked and the plants whacked each other near the silent stars.
Tuesday, July 16, 2002
belly
lois
that dog
natalie macmaster
pogues
k's choice
black lab
dead milkmen
palomar
autoclave
solex
doves
drugstore
pj harvey
bodyjar
softies
missy elliott
kasey chambers
crzy britsih reefer song
blue citrus hearts
gore gore girls
amazing plaid
BECCA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
early punk
http://zlilo.com/~sammich/mp3/ this person has some cool stuff.
http://www.x96.com/music/downloads.asp
http://www.coolgrrrls.com
http://allofmp3.com
http://girlpunk.net
http://www.epitonic.com/
labels: http://killrockstars.com/soundvideo/
http://www.lookoutrecords.com/sounds/
http://www.kpunk.com/Audio_Video/index.html
http://www.hopelessrecords.com/sounds.php
Sunday, July 14, 2002
take the "what's my fault" quiz.
(and then browse around mewing.net. because laura is cool.)
take the non-offensive quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
take the nyu type quiz.
and then browse around mewing.net. because laura is cool.
take the antisocial test.
and go to mewing.net. because laura's feeling social.
what's your battle cry? |
mewing.net | merchandise!
take the death quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.
Friday, July 12, 2002
2. What do you wish your name was, instead: alanna's fine. but if i changed it, i would make it something totally weird. like skank zero.
3. How old are you:15
4. Would you ever eat sushi? probably not
5. Would you ever eat sushi off a naked body? why would i want to do that? no.
6. Have you ever considered homosexuality? yes
7. What's your sexual preference? i dont know
8. What were you in a past life? an apple haghal
9. I punch you. Quick, what do you do? lose conciousness
10. When confronted with Britney Spears, you...? suck her bone marrow
11. What's your favorite coffee? i like starbucks fraps
13. Are you my Angel? no
14. Do you consider yourself a poet? not really. i try
15. What do you wanna be when you grow up? i dont know.
16. There's a naked man in your living room. What do you do? call the police
17. How stupid do you think you are? pretty stupid. everyone's stupid.
18. How stupid do other people think you are? incredibly
19. Who do you think you are? i dont know
20. Is the Wonderbra good or bad? bad i guess. i've never owned one
22. What's your favorite fruit? apple
23. Can you feel the love tonight? definitely not
24. On a nude beach, you would...? leave
25. Make up a story with yourself, a bridge, and a rabbit: once upon a time alanna attempted to walk over the bridge but the evil rabbit troll underneath hopped out and snarled and alanna thought it was the monty python rabbit so she screamed and lost conciousness and was eaten alive.
26. What do you think about contemporary art? it depends. how contemorary is contemporary?
27. Do you like being naked? no
28. If we had proof God didn't exist, what would happen? chrisitans would freak out
29. Do you enjoy cheeze whiz? yeah
30. What's your position on virginity? some people know when the time is right. and it's different for everybody. but some people are idiots. i think i could be quite happy being a virgin forever.
31. On civil unions? yep
32. On RuPaul? you go, girl.
33. On mosquito bites? i hate them
34. On old sitcoms? i dont like sitcoms.
35. On Fran Drescher? who
36. Are you left handed or right handed? right
37. Are you smart? i dont know.
38. What's your middle name? rae
39. How many personalities do you have? a zillion
40. How many piercings do you have? two. one in each ear.
41. What was your first word? chocolate
42. Are you superstitious? it depends
43. Do you read your horoscope? if i'm bored, and it's right there.
44. Do you believe in that stuff? i dont know. it depends.
45. Can you do a cartwheel? no. i suck.
46. Do you have contact lenses? no. fucking glasses kill me half the time though.
47. Do you have a retainer or braces? braces
48. Can you drive? no
49. Do you snore? i dont know. i've never been able to ask anyone.
50. Do you drool in your sleep? i dont know
51.Do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge? i either lick them or lick my finger and rub it along the thing.
52. Do you keep a journal? kind of. not really right now.
53. Do you like onions? no
54. Do you like cotton candy? yes
55. What instruments can you play? oboe. recorder hahhah. the xylophone algsdhklg
56. Do you like to dance? it depends on whose company i am keeping
57. Do you like to sing? again, it depends who i'm with. i like to sing in the shower really loudly, but only when no one's home.
58. Are you any good at it? no
59. Do you like to talk on the phone? usually not.
60. Do you like where you live? yeah, but not forever.
61. Are you organized? it depends. some stuff yes. some stuff... not yes.
62. Do you sleep with socks on? no
63. Are you shy? a lot of the time. it depends.
64. Do you talk to yourself? not really.
65. Are you a morning person? no
66. Are you a virgin? yes
67. Are you proud of that? i guess so
68. Do you believe in reincarnation? yes
69. Do you believe in God? it depends
70. Do you believe in ghosts? yes
71. Do you believe in bigfoot? not really. i never thought about it.
72. How old do you wish you were? older
73. What will you name your kid(s)? i dont intend to have kids
75. Have you ever thought you were gonna die? i think so but i cant really remember. is this the same thing as thinking about suicide? i've done that plenty.
76. Where do you wanna go? somewhere
77. Where do you see yourself going? nowhere
Wednesday, July 10, 2002
The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz
Find your emotion!
Find your emotion!
You're smart, shy, and often nonsensical. You have dreams of being famous, and you're quirky enough that you just might pull them off. Some would call you a genius, others would call you insane, but in reality you're pretty well-adjusted. Take a vacation once in a while- it'll help take your mind off of your troubles. |
Sunday, July 07, 2002
kat09987: i think ill wear sweater vests to school next year, over my snazzy white polo shirt
Saturday, July 06, 2002
Laylee2000: like your dog. only in pillow form
Friday, July 05, 2002
again i can't stop thinking about suicide.
about the perfect timing.
about who will find me first and i can see their faces.
i know they'd get over it.
i have planned sixteen different set-ups.
but i still don't have that kind of courage
and i'm already disappointing them enough.
no, it's not your fault
really
that the subject has even come up in my head again.
it's me.
my need for someone.
it doesn't even matter
really
that you brought forth a few tears
hidden for so long.
or that you think it's funny
how upset i get
over something that you can't see.
don't worry though.
right now i'm too tired to be dangerous.
good night.
you won't remember anything tomorrow.
Saturday, June 29, 2002
Thursday, June 27, 2002
Saturday, June 22, 2002
brittany's new number is 662-893-3342
GleeRainstar: they're telling me i have to wear a bra to tai chi or i can't go
Wednesday, June 19, 2002
What Pattern Are You?
Which Rock Chick Are You?
Which John Cusack Are You?
Take the Which They Might Be Giants member are you? Quiz!
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How Gay Are YOU? [?]
You've got a lot to say, and you'll talk until it's all out, and for some reason, no one tries to shut you up. I guess you actually make sense most of the time. Almost everyone likes you, and it's not just because you're cheap. Haha. Cheap as in thrifty, of course. You get a bit depressed now and then, but who doesn't? You seem to have a little anger built up inside, but who doesn't? You like to stare at people through their bedroom window while they're changing, but who doesn't? You sick bastard. |
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
Tuesday, May 14, 2002
in a speeding man-made oven
We were roasting
cooking toasty
well done in our seats
Sun full of fierce fire
burning through our skins
boiling all our blood and
bringing beads of sweet to sighing foreheads
She sang out
giving me chills
under my skin
and I was less and more
and I was so cold
Thursday, May 09, 2002
under an umbrella made of a tree
and let me just tell you:
never use a tree for an umbrella
if you want to stay dry,
but if you want the water
in your hair and over your eyes
filtered through the leaves
cascading
and sliding dored to your mouth.
when i got home i was so cold
it was love
i refused to be made dry
Tuesday, May 07, 2002
Angry, sad, and disillusioned, you are Heavy Metal. You are the embodiment of the darkness of the human heart. Your main themes are sadness, anger, and hopelessness. You are frequently misunderstood by others and many link you to devil worship. However, those willing to look through the shell of darkness and anger find you to be very intelligant, poetic, and artistic. Too bad your inclination to look for the beauty in darkness and your general attitude of frustration with humanity as a whole tends to send most people running for the nearest exit. But despite that, you wouldn't have it any other way. |
Sunday, April 21, 2002
Friday, April 19, 2002
Thursday, April 18, 2002
Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz
Tuesday, April 16, 2002
which "monty python and the holy grail" character are you?
this quiz was made by colleen
before i go out to play
i get my church dress all messy
covered with dirt and sun drops
i can keep you safe
though my hands are pink and blistered
and my nails are not that clean
you might just forgive me
i take you from my pocket
before i plant you in the sky
you get my church mess all dressy
and i don't even mind
i can keep you safe in here
though you'll have to save yourself
Sunday, April 14, 2002
Wednesday, April 03, 2002
aMereStatistic:strangely enough I don't consider myself a crazy cute rock dancing girlie
Saturday, March 30, 2002
Friday, March 29, 2002
You are Rowlf! | |
Monday, March 18, 2002
aMereStatistic: shit kills me
aMereStatistic: shit kills you
aMereStatistic: I hate everyting
Tuesday, March 12, 2002
Thursday, February 28, 2002
Monday, February 25, 2002
Sunday, February 24, 2002
i have been ordered to remove 'obscene language' from my blog by my parents. because the internet 'is in public' and i'm not supposed to talk that way in public when they're around. but jesus they're not SUPPOSED to be around. they're not SUPPOSED to read my blog. YOU HEAR THAT? GO AWAY. you're not welcome.
anyway i doubt they are ever going to read that lol. i have changed the url for the blog. yes AGAIN. i figure that they got the new link from morgan's blog.... anyway i am only telling select souls. wahahaha how elite.
Friday, February 22, 2002
come to me ready and rude, bring me angel food
Thursday, February 21, 2002
Which My So-Called Life Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty
What is YOUR Highschool label?
I am Ludo! People just don't understand me. I'm a sweetheart who loves making friends - even with rocks, but I seem like a monster. Once people get to know the real me, they just can't help but love me.
Take the "Which Labyrinth character are you most like?" quiz by smarmy
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
leaning to the right
You like flexible structure. You use your deep insight and logic to solve problems. You enjoy experiencing many new things. You have at least one area of expertice that allows you to demonstrate your creativity.
test yourself at geekykid.net
this quiz was fun to take but i have no idea what it is about. HA.
Laylee2000:im sorry
Laylee2000:? wait. no im not. i didnt do anythign
Laylee2000:a;lksjdf;laksjf
Laylee2000:hahah i loe oyu alanna
slide down your reciever, sprint across the wire
aLittleStarlight:lol really
AmereStatistic:lol yeah
aLittleStarlight:i'm not surprised
Monday, February 18, 2002
I am bad. So bad. I absolutely hate people and animals. In fact, I probably sacrifice them. No one likes me, but of course it isn't my fault. I should just go back to New York because I am a corrupt Jesus.
Take the What Jesus Would You Be? Quiz
[well this is wonderfully inaccurate. aghsdhag. i would have rather gotten 'george christ' like nick and morgan. but nooooo. and sarah rushakoff got this one too! jesus. this must be really inaccurate.]
Which Rocky character are you?
HAHAHAHAHAH. oh you guys, sorry i haven't blogged about how the play turned out. i had this huge-ass one on friday but i tried to post it and it broke. so that's sad and i'm not up to resaying it yet.
Thursday, February 14, 2002
Tuesday, February 12, 2002
this massively massively sucks. i am going to FAIL like a three pound bean.
Friday, February 08, 2002
metal heart, you're not worth a thing
i hope to do something with katie and brittany and laylee this weekend. so you guys we neeeed to make plans and you have to come over and watch ghost world. yay. get in touch with me, peoples. bye bye.
Wednesday, February 06, 2002
I may look funny, but I’m one of the best penguins under the sun! Yes, that’s right, the sun! I can’t stand hanging around in freezing weather, keep it away! I’m a nice sized bird, about medium weight and height. My population is globaly increasing!
Take the What Penguin am I? Quiz by Krysten!
Tuesday, February 05, 2002
Laylee2000:I AM GOD'S GIFT TO WOMEN.
Monday, February 04, 2002
I'm an Onion! Sour, spicy, nasty tasting, and the ability to make people cry all come natural to me. I'm really an evil person who's not much of a social butterfly but rather a loner who sits and writhes in my pool of solutide all day, which I love.
Take the Vegetable Quiz by Krysten!
well yay. that's nice to know. they had incubus too and that would have been nice as well.
Wowie! You are Tfu Tfu! You're the odd one out, there are few places you fit in. Others don't understand you very well and tend to treat you indifferently and take you for granted. But then again, you don't really give a damn about them anyway.
well i dont blame people.
Sunday, February 03, 2002
Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz
haghdsahga i have the same one as brittany here. that's amusing.