yesterday was okay at school.

we all went to watch LA play in the softball game. woot woot!! the weather was great, and incredibly hot -- i love it, though, what can i say? after school, brock and i went to baskin-robbins where we met up with dan ying and jenny. we were kind of late after having to stop at brock's so that he could change clothes, and i felt bad about that. but it was cool, and we got to talk over ice creams. linley was there with her daughter, and i got to talk to her, which was awesome. she hadn't been notified about the show, so i hope that she calls alex and can join in late. she was really sad about missing the workshops. i had a 2-scoop sundae with jamoca and world class chocolate with hot fudge and whipped cream. mmmmmmm oh my. dan ying had to go home to practice piano, and she gave jenny a ride. brock and i sat in his car for a long time just talking and sticking our feet out the window. who on earth is better to just talk to? after a while, alice called and said that she and katherine would soon be on their way to my house, so we headed out too. we got there at the exact same time as alice, and promptly went to sonic. katherine was practicing keyboard in the comic room when we got back, and we commenced to recording scandaliz vandalistz songs for a prairie home companion contest that we started working on incredibly late. considering that it is due on saturday. katherine was all ready for playing all night, and taking the 5-song CD to fed-ex at midnight to get it to into mr. garrison keillor's hands by sunday. the four of us did what we could until hunter showed up, and lent his amazing talent to the SV cause. he then told us that his step-mom works for fed-ex, and could have it shipped for us for free, and that we wouldn't have to take it in by midnight. that was happy, and we didn't feel as rush. i'm talking "we" as if i do anything but i was just singing backup, hand clapping, dancing, and performing as co-taskmaster with katherine. in the end, we were pretty satisfied with how the takes came out. i want to upload them for your listening pleasure. soon, my pets. soon...
near the end of the recording session, william and becca showed up. i felt bad because we advertised the night as "The Who/Rock Star Party" night, but it became something totally different. so once they came, i hung out with them, since i wasn't really needed for SV. we listened to the new rasputina album, played dress up, and took many silly pictures. i love them, and i wish i saw them more. also, i really want to have a laylee/becca day soon. i'm so lonesome and disconnected from them. actually, i feel kind of disconnected from everyone lately, but i guess that's my own fault. anyway.
brock left about 11. he is beautiful, and was being very sweet yesterday. ohh brock i love ye. katherine left around 11:30, after making sure that everything was in place with the CD and the package for our hero garrison. william and becca discostumed at around 12:15 to get becca home on time. unfortunately we didn't have time to make the music video we wanted to. (i need new tapes, too.) hunter left almost directly afterwards, with promises to return back today to pick up the package. alice and i stayed up late being silly and listening to music. we fell asleep on the couch watching quadrophenia. and we never even saw the hot sting. tsk, tsk. we'll probably be watching it again very soon.
today has been mellow. mom got us la baguette thingies and we all sat around and listened to the scandaliz vandalistz songs. mom wants a mini-cd of her very own. aww. alice left at 12, and since then, i've just been hanging out and doing nothing in particular. katherine called to check up on the package, and i also talked to brock on the phone for a very little bit, but he had to leave to go to the zoo with wenli. hunter picked up the package a little while ago, and that is very exciting.
i am finally getting sort of stir-crazy being here. i will probably go organize some cds or something. i really need to get out though. i am free this afternoon, and after 8 tonight. pleeeeease.

i feel really crazy. i have to do some math and settle down before i explode. wish me luck.

why are mixes so hard to make.

have been staying up far too late.
have been starting homework way way way too late.
have been enjoying much too many lovely late night phone conversations with brandon.
oh my.

today was totally invaded by brandon. sneaky bastard.
i failed a couple tests. nothing big. ra ra ra.
i worked on lots of playlists for mixes, in every damn class. look out, kids. if you want one... let me know. i'm totally on a rampage.
after school, brock and i picked up alice, and they ate greek kwik shop delicacies while we rolled around the grass at overton park. sarah schweig's dog chunky attacked us. it was awesome. we swang on the lovely swings, and i was obnoxious and sang to myself while alice and brock talked about stuff. then we came to my house, where i got a reese's blast and we attempted to practice. it didn't go well. we talked for a while. me and alice had a mad cuddle fest on the living room sofa. it was supahott. lips and tits and hips everywhere. what can i say? brock wouldn't join, but he still hugged me a lot. also we wrestled at the park, and now i'm nothing but grass stains. oh what a world, in which my lovely sister makes organic alfredo for our own delight.

quoth alice, "we need to make a club dedicated to trios. we will discuss songs, movies, etc with trios. then we weill reenact them. you can be president, brock can be treasurer, and i will be in charge of milk and cookies. or should i say milkshakes and honey"

listening to: Peaches - I U She

today i have added about 54 new pictures to the visual section of this blog. good luck finding them all... some are from this week, and some are from spring break. my scanner pooped out a little while ago, and started giving me this error repeatedly, but i'm still amazed that i got as far as i did. thought i'd give the heads up if you were curious about those old march pictures. keep on the lookout for some more coming tomorrow and in the next week.
so sorry i haven't been updating as much as i'd like. i've been kind of crazy. plus it's 4am.

"i ask him why the grass is blue, why stray boys don't go home, why 4am's so screwy? he says, 'sleep through it.'" - kristin hersh

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

why do i insist on taking this test year after year? it makes me feel crazy. i guess that's the idea.

holy christ.

download this please. it's a live solo song by kimya dawson, the woman from the moldy peaches. and it's brilliant. (lyrics, bitch.)

my oh my what a day.

school actually went by really quickly, and then i sat around doing math with alice, katherine, and laylee at davis-kidd. it would be nice to always have friends there. we did work, too! genius. at home, i called brock for a little while, then went to this thing for the play which i will not go into detail about right now. an hour later, i was back home, getting ice cream and talking to brandon online. we got into a really good talk, which continued on the phone, and then back online once his phone died. i'm so glad that we had that conversation, although there were some kind of stressful bits. if that's the right word. i'm sure no one wants to hear about it. but at any rate, let me just say: i love that fucking boy.

listening to: the coasters - along came jones

today was marvelous! mostly because i was sort of feeding off the energy from the weekend. backwards:
-brandon called late last night. it was brilliant. i am full of love.
-we watched parts of our movie things on the computer, and i died laughing over and over.
-foot and mouse came over to watch a movie with morgan, and they were very very silly. i love them.
-morgan made lumpsy chocolate cookies. mmmm.
-ergolytes workshop was very good, although i couldn't remember my lines very well.
-i woke up very late on sunday.
-i nearly fell asleep on morgan's lap.
-brandon called me, but his phone died after like 2 minutes.
-me and brock drove around for forever, and ended up at shnuck's. we bought cake, and ate it across the street. then we got married.
-brock and i sat outside and talked in the heat.
-katherine and alice came over for a very brief scandaliz vandalistz recording session. brock came later, but i don't think he got to record any drum parts yet.
-forced to go to ergolytes workshop by my father, instead of ice cream cake with dan ying and jenny. it turns out they couldn't go anyway, and workshop wasn't so bad.
-mad series of phone calls between alice and brock trying to figure out what was going on.
-anti-SATs morning with LA featuring pastries and "the sword in the stone."
-LA came over and spent a wonderful night with me. we stayed up very late chattering and cuddling.
-after school on friday, alice and i picked up her guitars from her house, and came back here for a scandaliz vandalistz practice with brock and katherine.
-a week of things i've probably already forgotten.

why oh why am i awake.

i'd love to stay a while, but my homework is calling calling my name.

criss/cross mix for sallis

a lot of the songs are really long on this, i realized. also, it's very random. actually, this thing is really weird. i can't figure out what happened to it. but here it is.

01) bikini kill - carnival
02) desaparecidos - manana
03) superchunk - the question is how fast
04) the beatles - rain
05) the gits - second skin (live)
06) the raveonettes - chains
07) the faint - call call
08) i am the world trade center - sounds so crazy
09) the cure - lullaby
10) portishead - biscuit
11) the yeah yeah yeahs - y control
12) pixies - gouge away
13) kristin hersh - sno cat
14) pj harvey - yuri-g (4-track version)
15) violent femmes - kiss off
16) the moldy peaches - nothing came out
17) andrew bird - weather systems (live)
18) reindeer section - last song on blue tape
19) smashing pumpkins - disarm
20) death cab for cutie - transatlanticism
21) discount - math won't miss you

i'm very sorry about the lack of updates. this is the hiatus i mentioned but did not call into effect, i guess. it's not a real one because it's not official. but... rehearsals have been almost every day, and homework is on overload right now. i'm sorry if you're all a little less connected to the amazing life of alanna. le sigh. but i hope to catch up next week, when there will be no theatre for me. mwahahaha.

today is quiiiite nice, mostly because it's thursday. although it feels like, as foot put it, wednesday of next week. which makes it sort of nicer. tomorrow will be pleasantly surprising for my silly brain.
after school, margaret, brock, katherine, and i went for a history study group at starbucks. we get so carried away, and talk like nobody's business. there was something a little off today, but i think it was just me. a mood thing maybe, but i didn't feel like i had a lot to contribute to the conversation. ah well.
around 5:15, william and morgan ambushed me, and stole me away to make organic waffles. it was beautiful. william is, again, the sweetest thing. it's proven this time. we made 2 giant waffles, one with bits of his favorite kind of dark chocolate. william drove morgan and i to play workshop, but could not convince him to come in. we were about 20 minutes late, but not as late as last night, and they still hadn't started when we came in. it was really relaxed tonight, i thought. zoe was there and that made me quite happy!! her hair has grown out so much. what a beautiful girl. there were some really interesting movement exercises, but, for my part, a lot of resting.

after school, we had a very short "band practice ha ha" at alice's house. instrumentation was two acoustic guitars made by her dad, one of which apparently wasn't made very well. brock and i sort of sat, and very much enjoyed the jamness of alice and katherine. they work very well together musically, and they have a lot of ideas. which they forget. very quickly. next time there will be a tape recorder and words on paper. friday, guys?
katherine had an oboe lesson and had to go after barely any time. alice, brock, and i went to wendy's, baskin robbins, and super 88. i'd left my cell phone at her house and hadn't been able to get in touch with my mom before that, so she was really mad at me tonight for going to davis-kidd and not finding me. the second time this week. i don't want to stop doing things on weekdays because it really brightens up my silly life, but i don't want her to be mad at me either. and i wish i could find my house key.
william is the sweetest thing. he showed up at our house to take me and morgan out for WAFFLES. unfortunately, we were about to leave for the second ergolytes workshop, though we did talk for a few minutes. it was still a very nice gesture.
workshops have been nice so far. i'm still working on brock to work on his parents to let him be in the show... everyone keep your fingers crossed. the play is already enveloping my life and we've been in it for half a week. i think i'll die. that is not to say i haven't been enjoying the time, but homework is a real hassle. i was up till 2 last night. i feel very guilty posting. i'm going to go now. i hope everyone is having a lovely week.
spring break... what?? that was years ago.

today has become horrible, i want to die, and i ache terribly.
i only want to sleep.
play stuff starts tomorrow, and i am stupid. gahepoiahiei.
this blog might take a hiatus.

thanks a fucking lot for all the kids who DIDN'T audition with me today! gewiowhpaih. brock and william came, but neither of them is going to do the play. i can feel it.
well, to make up for your sorry selves, i beg that you come to at LEAST one of the workshops. it's purely for fun, and it doesn't mean you're in the play or anything, or commit you to the schedule. although if you were interested, i'm sure alex would let you in. i'll try to give some more head's up as the week goes along, but seriously guys. it's a great experience, whether or not you're into acting, dance, or theatre. no joke. you will never do anything like it. come out. support. play.


Workshops at the University of Memphis
Communication & Fine Arts Building, Room CFA 126

Tues, Wed & Thurs, March 16-18 -- 7:00-9:00pm
Sat & Sun, March 20 & 21 -- 2:00-5:00pm
Tues, Wed & Thurs, March 23-25 -- 7:00-9:00pm
Sat & Sun, March 27 & 28 -- 2:00-5:00pm

I HATE BEING BEHIND. FUCK THIS STUPID SHIT.
friday: fuck if i remember anything. oh yeah. margaret called me at like 11:30 and wanted to hang out. i hadn't seen her all break, and i was ecstatic. she came over, we grabbed a bunch of cds, and took off into the wild blue yonder. we drove around and around and around, all through the downtown. there were many colorful and beautiful houses, which we admired. i was hungry, and she was low on gas, so we went to eat at the arcade. we got a 12inch pizza with mozarella, feta, and cheddar cheese with pepperoni. it was quiiiiite good. margaret and i were on a fake date, so i paid for us. it was sweet. then we came home, but i've lost my house key. so i broke in through the back door, and we grabbed the camera and took off to overton park. we met up with alice, brock, tarah, and mary w to film the pro bono recycling promotion video. my camera was wildly low on batteries, so we worked super fast. margaret, brock, and i went over to tarah's house to recharge the camera, watch the footage, and possibly film some more. but after we watched our stuff, we watched all of tarah's spring break documentary footage for a long time. it was pretty funny, but we didn't really know what we were doing there. ahhaha. margaret left for work, and the rest of us hung out around tarah's BEAUTIFUL house, and sat on the roof, and explored her room. it was nice. alice came back from her violin lesson eventually and sat around with us. people kept randomly appearing at the house: mary w, linton, frannie, some girl. it was nutz. alice and brock were very hungry, so we finally left for cafe ole where they ordered the same thing, and didn't enjoy it. kind of sad. we skipped that joint and went to black lodge where we rented "help!" and "lolita." the beatles are fucking awesome, as you know. we had great fun watching it. when it was over, brock still did not have a favorite beatle, which is very upsetting. (for the record, mine is george, and alice's is ringo. hell yes. they're all amazing, though, of course. POLL: name your favorite of the fab four. in comments, bitch.) afterwards, we put on "lolita" but we were way too talkative, and after a while, realized that it would be no use in trying to go back and watch things and figure out what we'd missed because there wasn't time to finish the whole thing anyway. anyone up for lolita party tomorrow or tuesday night? call. i'm not kidding. so we put on michel gondry videos because that's what always ends up happening, and it was very nice. i'll never be sick of them. i love the man. plus with music videos, we could talk more while we watched them and it was more mood-suiting. i can't remember what we talked about, though. anyway. they went home at some point. i probably got online for a little while. i can't really remember.
saturday: dad woke me up 11ish, i took a shower, and went to the library at 12 to meet my english group. only allison was there and we sat around for a few minutes. i was really annoyed. i bought a caffe mocha. finally, shana got there. she and allison had done the same damn part of the project, and i wanted to suicide. i'm not going to go into detail. i was only there for about an hour and a half, but christ, that was enough. when it was over, i talked to brock on the phone for a few minutes, and we tried to make plans to do something. but we suck. so dad came and picked me up, and for the next hour or so i was on the phone with alternately katherine, brock, and alice, trying to make plans but getting wrapped up in talking. like always. brock and alice got here at 4ish, sallis arrived shortly after, and katherine after that. we watched parts of the beatles anthology. (update -- katherine's favorite beatle is paul, and sallis' favorite beatle is also ringo.) we spent forever trying to make plans for a second time. alice had said she just wanted to go somewhere to talk, and some people were hungry, so we decided a cheap dinner would be nice. it took forever, but around 6 we split into 2 cars and set out for pyrtle's chicken. i was not amused. sallis and i arrived there, and moments later received a call from brock saying that katherine had a flat tire. we drove back to help them, and everyone (except me) assisted in changing the tire. it was quite an adventure. i filmed the whole thing. the best part was katherine being her usual movie self. she thought we could add it in as a scene in our cinderella parody, and made everyone act their character. she is pretty great. i'm glad that i got to see her at least once over spring break!! at any rate. we split back into our 2 cars, and drove back down poplar toward home. sallis and i got to my house, and again, our comrades were nowhere to be seen. seconds later, we recieved a call from brock saying that they'd stopped at the smart mart. i think i was sort of bothered that we're such fucking awful planmakers by then, and i don't know what had come over my mood but i sort of hung up on brock. i'm very sorry, brock. i didn't get the chance to apologize yet. i'm such a ho bag sometimes. anyway, the point is that we decided to get a totally SHIT dinner. everyone bought one item of shit like ramen noodles, pringles, hot fries, popcorn, sticky bun thing. it was really gross. we got that done, and went back home where we took great delight in noting the arrival of mom, morgan, and 2 pizzas. we hung around the kitchen preparing our feast and then went to the den to watch more beatles documentaries. i've really been hoping something would pop out at brock to help him find his favorite beatle, but nothing has worked so far. also, katherine and sallis, though they do have a favorite beatle, can't tell them apart, and aren't that familiar with their off-record personalities. so that was an adventure. i tried very hard to coach sallis which one was which. my parents got excited too and came in and whatnot. (update 2 -- dad's favorite beatle is paul, mom's favorite beatle is george, and morgan's favorite beatle is also ringo.) hunter arrived to pick up alice for the memphis symphony orchestra concert, and he watched a little of the documentary too. (update 3 -- hunter's favorite beatle is john.) it was kind of funny because when he came in, we were watching this music video-esque thing for "rain" which is apparently one of his favorite beatles songs. he, alice, and sallis all left at the same time, and after that we all got more mellow, i think. we put on baz luhrman's "romeo and juliet" because katherine and brock had never seen it. so that was very nice. brock cuddled with me. that boy is beautiful. i told him how much i love his nose, and i think i made him self concious about it. which was not the idea. god damn. i think they enjoyed the movie, except for that brock was falling asleep at the end. poor love. around 11ish, his mom came and picked him up. katherine spent the night, partially because she was worried about driving on the spare, but mostly so that we could edit. and somehow we did not edit a single cent! it was amazing, the way we got absolutely nothing accomplished. never have i been more impressed. we came in to edit, and somehow started talking and talking, and just couldn't stop. we moved to morgan's room, where we eventually fell asleep -- at 5am. it was absolutely insane. i was really really really really glad that we did that though. i never get to talk to katherine these days, so it was just very nice. conversation is my absolutely favorite thing, and it makes me sad that some people don't like to hold conversations like that. i would go crazy if i didn't. but who knows. maybe i'm already crazy, and that is the issue. anyway. we went to bed eventually.
sunday: katherine woke up at 11 something this morning, and was going to leave me a note to say goodbye because she had to get home, but i woke up as she was leaving and i am shit for going back to sleep. i've just sort of hung out with morgan so far. lalala. ergolytes auditions today... come on kids. i need you.


the server is back! hallelujah and thank you kevin. i WOULD urge you to check out some eye candies but there's not really anything new yet. the only pictures we've taken over spring break, really, have not been digital and are not developed yet. oh, but you might want to take a look, since i don't think you guys ever got to see the pono nite stuff, or the drums day. but keep an eye out in the future for some additions...