you can see the shape of the fist in the wall 

and the twist of your wrist in my hair that's your call 

how can I not respond 

how can I not try to touch you 

when all you want is the silence of the highway jump 

when all you want is no response 

when all you want is get the fuck off

after the pulling pushing difference 

I have to remind you it's a meeting 

the door is open 

how you shove and show 

you can see the fists that you fit between the frames that we fixed on this old dirty name 

what could we have done 

how do we stop it 

donotdie

do not die 

donut die 

(( why can't you write 

why does everything feel permanent when it's typed 

why can't you say here ! it is ! I called it now ! and how ! 

it's time to die and die and die ))

it kills that sound and you can't with that sound and you can't begin 

how they sit and try but it's pretend