Tuesday, January 22, 2002
Tuesday, January 15, 2002
Monday, January 14, 2002
my dad is trying to sing like hte guy from moulin rouge (the one who sings the roxanne song.)
dad: *all crazy rough like* rahhhhhhxannnnne
alanna: *big evil noise*
dad: what are you laughing at?
alanna: you.
dad: why should i be tarred with the epithet looney
ten minutes later...
dad: *even raspier and crazy rough than before* RAAAAAHHHHHXANNNNNE
dad: *all crazy rough like* rahhhhhhxannnnne
alanna: *big evil noise*
dad: what are you laughing at?
alanna: you.
dad: why should i be tarred with the epithet looney
ten minutes later...
dad: *even raspier and crazy rough than before* RAAAAAHHHHHXANNNNNE
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hi all. i have had a little thing called "A Weekend" in which several things happened. amazing, eh?
saturday::: i woke up at like. i dont know. 10:30 or there abouts. and uhm. well. oh yeah i had a donut. then i washed some dishes and whatnot. and mom was playing really loud music -- laura nyro, leonard cohen, bruce springstein... i think that was about it. and one of dad's crazy mixes was in there but you know. so then dad drove morgan and i to rehearsal where we thereby finally finished the dance to beethoven's fifth. and i dont think we did anything else.... no. so then we came home and i nearly went insane because brittany and i were supposed to be making plans with katie and i couldnt get in touch with either of them for a while. but then i finally did. and after much 'planning' my family went and picked up brittany and we all went to borders and met katie. brittany and i gave her christmas presents and it was gorgeous. then we read such classics as everyone poops and once upon a potty and pass the gas which are all filed under 'nature.' and i had a quasi nosebleed and for once i bought absolutely nothing. dad got the moby cd and the moulin rouge dvd and mom got a winnie the pooh planner thing and a book about how to build robots out of legos. gahah we have no legos. and then we left (and poor katie was there for like another hour all alone!!) with brittany and we went to backyard burger and they were out of seasoned fries and it was sad. someone said backyard burger started in memphis. is that true? it's a very small chain, as it is. anyway. then we came home and ate and watched moulin rouge. and brittany said (in response to my question did she like it?) "i loved it. but it was so sad!!" and she thereby rolled over in bed. and said 'oooookkkk' and rolled over again and again and the bed went thuthunk and was a sex scene and there was much hot lesbian action. so then uhm. yeah after that brittany was like 'IM SOOOO TIRED' and we therby went to bed and took the quotes and whatnot. it was. good fun. ahaha.
sunday::: i wake up first, as usual, at like. 8am somethin. and i lie there and listen to tori amos and then i decide i have to go to the bathroom and check the clock and so i get up and trip over this glass of water (thankfully empty) and i scream and brittany rolls over and looks at me funny and i hop away to the bathroom. and no, the glass did not break. thank god. anyway so eventually everyone got up and i took a shower and during that period in time morgan managed to break my glasses. x_x so i was blind for a while until mom taped them togther ahahah until dad went to walgreens and got a little healie kit thing. even though now the screw is sticking up funny. and uhm. then we watched rock n roll high school even though brittany sucks because she refused to get up and dance. and then dad mentioned something about 'when are we gonna take brittany home' and she was GOING to have to come to rehearsal and read and watch us and laugh and doodles but instead she wanted to go home and thereby miss the horror of our dancing. so dad and brittany and i stopped by at cd warehouse only to discover that they were having a SALE for the month type thing. in which. if you bought two used cds for $8.99 you got one for $5.99. we took advantage of this. and there was a dvd sale of some kind, kind of like that only everything was a bit more expensive, but the point is. dad bought three dvds which were. the matrix, excalibor, and almost famous. and he got two cds. probably todddddd rungren and sting, but i cant remember. so i was just gonna get the murmurs but then i decided that i wanted hole so i picked up that too. and brittany decided she wanted the luscious jackson cd with 'deep shag' on it and she decided i had to pick out one more thing to take advantage of the sale thing and plus she owed me $6. so we ran ALL OVER and we had to be reeaallly fast because if we didnt leave soon it was going to make morgan and i late for rehearsal. so i grabbed cake for some reason, and it wasnt the album with the single (short skirt long jacket) OR the song that john kept singing (sheep go to heaven) so. x_x well we listened to some of it in the car and they covered 'i will survive' and it was hilarious. and then um. i didnt get to have lunch. just a couple crackers, really. but we rushed and we werent even late for rehearsal, really! then we danced beethoven's fifth a couple times and we had to teach sylvia, claire, and brad the parts we learned yesterday. today, though, katherine was still missing and sonja had to go to work. sad day. at least we had more people than yesterday and no one had to leave early. yes it went quite well. and then everyone had a break and she called back the fire tones (remember - morgan, mack, and sylvia) who worked on their dance to the moby song. i think linley was supposed to be there today, too, but she wasn't. so during that time zoe and i looked at magazines such as the new yorker, memphis, and redbook. whagha oh my horoscopes are funny creatures. anyway kimberly was sorta drilling them and we were like x_x ahhhhh because she seemed remotely stressed. and there song was really fast and ahhh oh my. and then at one point zoe and i were standing at the door and watching htem and they were doing this thing that looks like the push up position, in a little row, right after a roll. but when morgan rolled she did it funny or something because when she did the push up thing and she like diagonal and nearly running into sylvia and i started cracking up and then kimberly made us leave. hahhahah. and after they were done she called for "Dan and the Water Tones" and we thereby decided that we are a band. and for those of you lovely readers who do not remember who the water tones are, that is katherine, zoe, tracy, and moi. right so. when i came in bill was trying to find the track on the cd that we were going to be dancing to and reading the board for the name of the song hence he thereby said "ghost....." all absently and i thought he maybe meant from the movie. (oh i was one of the first people in from break, as well) and bill pushed play and i stood there and there was a woman singing and i was like "this is really familiar...." and said so, for once. and then i KNEW who it was!!
me: who is this
bill: kristin... kristin.... uh
me: hersh?!
bill: yeah
me: *nearly fallie leanie over thing* i LOVE kristin hersh!!
bill: tell kimberly that. *i think he wanted me to go far far away*
me: *floats away all happy to have MY GROUPS special dance be to KRISTIN HERSH!!!!!!!*
kimberly: *walks in*
bill: alanna likes kristin hersh.
me: *terribly happy* ;_;
[btw its a GORGEOUS GORGEOUS song called "your ghost" from the first album "hips and makers" and i intend to upload the mp3]
i am now going to discuss the dance itself. it's right after andy (our favorite synesthete) has painted a portrait of angela, thinking she was romantically interested in him, but she gives the painting to her boyfriend. and andy (thats not really his name, its just hte actor's name. i cant remember a thing.) is really. depressed. and if you didnt remember, the dancing bits of the play are what is going on in andy's MIND. so dan is playing andy as he wants to be in his mind. so, of course, as we are the sad colors, it is a saaaad dance. so through like the first half of it dan is sort of. curled. in the sort of corner. like on the floor in a little ball, poor thing. so then we come out and do this thing and then about halfway through the dance we have worked our way over towards him and we help him up (the colors do, that is.) and then we are sort of background, really now, because dan is what you are supposed to be watching. and the song says "i think last night you were driving circles around me" and we sort of encircle him and it's. just. gorgeous. only that i wish i could actually WATCH instead of BE. ok so the question is -- are we actually supposed to be helping dan/andy out and saying "it's gonna be ok" and doing the comfort thing? or are we like "we feel your pain. here we are. we are your pain. we exist here in your little head with you. let's dance." because i know that at some point after this we (all the colors) have to clean up the mess that the Terrors have made. and thats like healing. so i am not sure. the healing thing is supposd to happen while andy is at the therapist. oh well.
anyway so we worked on it QUITE a bit -- kimberly finished choreographing the whoooooole thing today. it is only 3:16 or something but still. i think its going to go quite well except me. poor katherine missed a good bit. but in this dance and in beethoven's fifth i'm sort of her partner, in a lot of times, so we're doing the same thing and that makes it good because she sees me more than anyone else in the cast and i can help her out! ^^ yay for that. next rehearsal is. wednesday, i hope katherine can make it!!!!
and uhm. then kimberly made us perform it for my dad... x_x oh but i'm veeerrryy proud of morgan, she recognized kristin hersh. ^^ i have raised a good chalt. so after rehearsal we came home and sat around for a few mintues and then we went to see the royal tenenbaums which i thorougly enjoyed. a lot. ahhhaha. and then we came back here and uhm. i'm talking to nick and listening to kristin hersh. it's a good thing.
saturday::: i woke up at like. i dont know. 10:30 or there abouts. and uhm. well. oh yeah i had a donut. then i washed some dishes and whatnot. and mom was playing really loud music -- laura nyro, leonard cohen, bruce springstein... i think that was about it. and one of dad's crazy mixes was in there but you know. so then dad drove morgan and i to rehearsal where we thereby finally finished the dance to beethoven's fifth. and i dont think we did anything else.... no. so then we came home and i nearly went insane because brittany and i were supposed to be making plans with katie and i couldnt get in touch with either of them for a while. but then i finally did. and after much 'planning' my family went and picked up brittany and we all went to borders and met katie. brittany and i gave her christmas presents and it was gorgeous. then we read such classics as everyone poops and once upon a potty and pass the gas which are all filed under 'nature.' and i had a quasi nosebleed and for once i bought absolutely nothing. dad got the moby cd and the moulin rouge dvd and mom got a winnie the pooh planner thing and a book about how to build robots out of legos. gahah we have no legos. and then we left (and poor katie was there for like another hour all alone!!) with brittany and we went to backyard burger and they were out of seasoned fries and it was sad. someone said backyard burger started in memphis. is that true? it's a very small chain, as it is. anyway. then we came home and ate and watched moulin rouge. and brittany said (in response to my question did she like it?) "i loved it. but it was so sad!!" and she thereby rolled over in bed. and said 'oooookkkk' and rolled over again and again and the bed went thuthunk and was a sex scene and there was much hot lesbian action. so then uhm. yeah after that brittany was like 'IM SOOOO TIRED' and we therby went to bed and took the quotes and whatnot. it was. good fun. ahaha.
sunday::: i wake up first, as usual, at like. 8am somethin. and i lie there and listen to tori amos and then i decide i have to go to the bathroom and check the clock and so i get up and trip over this glass of water (thankfully empty) and i scream and brittany rolls over and looks at me funny and i hop away to the bathroom. and no, the glass did not break. thank god. anyway so eventually everyone got up and i took a shower and during that period in time morgan managed to break my glasses. x_x so i was blind for a while until mom taped them togther ahahah until dad went to walgreens and got a little healie kit thing. even though now the screw is sticking up funny. and uhm. then we watched rock n roll high school even though brittany sucks because she refused to get up and dance. and then dad mentioned something about 'when are we gonna take brittany home' and she was GOING to have to come to rehearsal and read and watch us and laugh and doodles but instead she wanted to go home and thereby miss the horror of our dancing. so dad and brittany and i stopped by at cd warehouse only to discover that they were having a SALE for the month type thing. in which. if you bought two used cds for $8.99 you got one for $5.99. we took advantage of this. and there was a dvd sale of some kind, kind of like that only everything was a bit more expensive, but the point is. dad bought three dvds which were. the matrix, excalibor, and almost famous. and he got two cds. probably todddddd rungren and sting, but i cant remember. so i was just gonna get the murmurs but then i decided that i wanted hole so i picked up that too. and brittany decided she wanted the luscious jackson cd with 'deep shag' on it and she decided i had to pick out one more thing to take advantage of the sale thing and plus she owed me $6. so we ran ALL OVER and we had to be reeaallly fast because if we didnt leave soon it was going to make morgan and i late for rehearsal. so i grabbed cake for some reason, and it wasnt the album with the single (short skirt long jacket) OR the song that john kept singing (sheep go to heaven) so. x_x well we listened to some of it in the car and they covered 'i will survive' and it was hilarious. and then um. i didnt get to have lunch. just a couple crackers, really. but we rushed and we werent even late for rehearsal, really! then we danced beethoven's fifth a couple times and we had to teach sylvia, claire, and brad the parts we learned yesterday. today, though, katherine was still missing and sonja had to go to work. sad day. at least we had more people than yesterday and no one had to leave early. yes it went quite well. and then everyone had a break and she called back the fire tones (remember - morgan, mack, and sylvia) who worked on their dance to the moby song. i think linley was supposed to be there today, too, but she wasn't. so during that time zoe and i looked at magazines such as the new yorker, memphis, and redbook. whagha oh my horoscopes are funny creatures. anyway kimberly was sorta drilling them and we were like x_x ahhhhh because she seemed remotely stressed. and there song was really fast and ahhh oh my. and then at one point zoe and i were standing at the door and watching htem and they were doing this thing that looks like the push up position, in a little row, right after a roll. but when morgan rolled she did it funny or something because when she did the push up thing and she like diagonal and nearly running into sylvia and i started cracking up and then kimberly made us leave. hahhahah. and after they were done she called for "Dan and the Water Tones" and we thereby decided that we are a band. and for those of you lovely readers who do not remember who the water tones are, that is katherine, zoe, tracy, and moi. right so. when i came in bill was trying to find the track on the cd that we were going to be dancing to and reading the board for the name of the song hence he thereby said "ghost....." all absently and i thought he maybe meant from the movie. (oh i was one of the first people in from break, as well) and bill pushed play and i stood there and there was a woman singing and i was like "this is really familiar...." and said so, for once. and then i KNEW who it was!!
me: who is this
bill: kristin... kristin.... uh
me: hersh?!
bill: yeah
me: *nearly fallie leanie over thing* i LOVE kristin hersh!!
bill: tell kimberly that. *i think he wanted me to go far far away*
me: *floats away all happy to have MY GROUPS special dance be to KRISTIN HERSH!!!!!!!*
kimberly: *walks in*
bill: alanna likes kristin hersh.
me: *terribly happy* ;_;
[btw its a GORGEOUS GORGEOUS song called "your ghost" from the first album "hips and makers" and i intend to upload the mp3]
i am now going to discuss the dance itself. it's right after andy (our favorite synesthete) has painted a portrait of angela, thinking she was romantically interested in him, but she gives the painting to her boyfriend. and andy (thats not really his name, its just hte actor's name. i cant remember a thing.) is really. depressed. and if you didnt remember, the dancing bits of the play are what is going on in andy's MIND. so dan is playing andy as he wants to be in his mind. so, of course, as we are the sad colors, it is a saaaad dance. so through like the first half of it dan is sort of. curled. in the sort of corner. like on the floor in a little ball, poor thing. so then we come out and do this thing and then about halfway through the dance we have worked our way over towards him and we help him up (the colors do, that is.) and then we are sort of background, really now, because dan is what you are supposed to be watching. and the song says "i think last night you were driving circles around me" and we sort of encircle him and it's. just. gorgeous. only that i wish i could actually WATCH instead of BE. ok so the question is -- are we actually supposed to be helping dan/andy out and saying "it's gonna be ok" and doing the comfort thing? or are we like "we feel your pain. here we are. we are your pain. we exist here in your little head with you. let's dance." because i know that at some point after this we (all the colors) have to clean up the mess that the Terrors have made. and thats like healing. so i am not sure. the healing thing is supposd to happen while andy is at the therapist. oh well.
anyway so we worked on it QUITE a bit -- kimberly finished choreographing the whoooooole thing today. it is only 3:16 or something but still. i think its going to go quite well except me. poor katherine missed a good bit. but in this dance and in beethoven's fifth i'm sort of her partner, in a lot of times, so we're doing the same thing and that makes it good because she sees me more than anyone else in the cast and i can help her out! ^^ yay for that. next rehearsal is. wednesday, i hope katherine can make it!!!!
and uhm. then kimberly made us perform it for my dad... x_x oh but i'm veeerrryy proud of morgan, she recognized kristin hersh. ^^ i have raised a good chalt. so after rehearsal we came home and sat around for a few mintues and then we went to see the royal tenenbaums which i thorougly enjoyed. a lot. ahhhaha. and then we came back here and uhm. i'm talking to nick and listening to kristin hersh. it's a good thing.
Saturday, January 12, 2002
holy shit i have a huge craving for circus peanuts.
morgan and i watched rock 'n' roll high school which is hereby dubbed the best movie ever created. we also taped it so brittany and laylee and katie, you guys HAVE TO COME OVER TOMORROW AND WATCH IT WITH ME AGAIN AND DANCE ROUND THE DEN, OK!??! yes. good.
morgan and i also picked our five favorite lines in the movie and they are as follows.
5. "i thought she was splitting protons in the basement!"
4. "he's tall and handsome and he looks like a poem" (thats about joey ramone right after morgan had been commenting on his ugliness)
3. "those ramones are ugly, ugly people."
2. "i'm allergic to violence; i break out in blood"
1. "DO YOUR PARENTS KNOW YOU'RE RAMONES?!"
I WANNA BE YOUR JOEY RAMONE!!!
Friday, January 11, 2002
I am a Thrust-ship.I am small and tricky - where you think I am, I probably am not. I can work very fast, but I tend to go about things in a round about way, which often leaves me effectively standing still. I hate rocks. Bloody rocks. What Video Game Character Are You?
i asked my mom if she could drive me someplace because brittany and katie and i went to go see LOTR *again*
mom: *lying/sitting in bed in a weird way so that only her head is propped up and she has no neck* i'm not in the car. can we get there in the bed?
me: o.o
mom: RRRRR *makes engine noises and huge massive steering wheel motions*
dad and i: *stand there and crack up*
mom: i'm gonna run over you RRRRRRRRRRRR
and uhm. she did it for a long time and it was funny shit.
aLittleStarlight:my mother is insane
aLittleStarlight:and its fucking hilarious
A mere Statistic:what is she doing
aLittleStarlight:shes trying to drive her bed
A mere Statistic:oh of course she is
mom: *lying/sitting in bed in a weird way so that only her head is propped up and she has no neck* i'm not in the car. can we get there in the bed?
me: o.o
mom: RRRRR *makes engine noises and huge massive steering wheel motions*
dad and i: *stand there and crack up*
mom: i'm gonna run over you RRRRRRRRRRRR
and uhm. she did it for a long time and it was funny shit.
aLittleStarlight:my mother is insane
aLittleStarlight:and its fucking hilarious
A mere Statistic:what is she doing
aLittleStarlight:shes trying to drive her bed
A mere Statistic:oh of course she is
Thursday, January 10, 2002
*please note that doodles is elijah wood*
Atea Diosa:hahahah doodles thats hilarious why do they call him that whats he a fucking rooster
Atea Diosa:no no one day elijah wood is going to come to our Very Kwiki Mart
Atea Diosa:cause he's going to have to pee
Atea Diosa:really bad
Atea Diosa:cause he's a rock star and he's on tour
aLittleStarlight:(we wont have a bathroom)
Atea Diosa:NO we will shh
Atea Diosa:but its locked cause we don't like people stealing our toiletpaper
Atea Diosa:and so im going to yell DOODLES YOU NEED THE KEY
aLittleStarlight:and he's going to wet his pants adnw w're going to say DOOOODLES
Atea Diosa:and he's going to run to us and hold himself and go THANKS and scuttle away the best he can
Atea Diosa:and the keys not going tow ork
Atea Diosa:and we're going to get annoyed and kick him out and go. YOU CANNOT HAVE BURRITO, NO SQUEEZIN THA JOO OOCE IN HERE DOODLES
Atea Diosa:so he's going to go next door
Atea Diosa:to our arch rival
Atea Diosa:the ... Very Very Kwiki Mart
Atea Diosa:and he'll pee on their floor
Atea Diosa:and we'll go
aLittleStarlight:NO SQUEEZIN THA JOO OOOCE
Atea Diosa:HAHAHAHAHA DOODLES HATES YOU
Atea Diosa:and then we'll laugh at doodles
Atea Diosa:and go back to our daily work of making/eating jojos
aLittleStarlight:and then he'll sue
Atea Diosa:hahahahah and we'll go to court and go "HE TRIED TO SQUEEZA THE JOO OOCE ON OUR FLOOR" and they'll throw him away and lock him up
aLittleStarlight:and they'll expell us from the kwiki mart business
aLittleStarlight:and then we'll be broke and bums
Atea Diosa:and then we'll go around stealing other kwiki mart's toilet paper
Atea Diosa:and we'll sell it on the black market
aLittleStarlight:and we'll beg the gas station for jojos every night
Atea Diosa:hahahhah we rule
aLittleStarlight:of course we do
aLittleStarlight:fucker
A mere Statistic: ::gets high on gatorade::
Atea Diosa:hahahah doodles thats hilarious why do they call him that whats he a fucking rooster
Atea Diosa:no no one day elijah wood is going to come to our Very Kwiki Mart
Atea Diosa:cause he's going to have to pee
Atea Diosa:really bad
Atea Diosa:cause he's a rock star and he's on tour
aLittleStarlight:(we wont have a bathroom)
Atea Diosa:NO we will shh
Atea Diosa:but its locked cause we don't like people stealing our toiletpaper
Atea Diosa:and so im going to yell DOODLES YOU NEED THE KEY
aLittleStarlight:and he's going to wet his pants adnw w're going to say DOOOODLES
Atea Diosa:and he's going to run to us and hold himself and go THANKS and scuttle away the best he can
Atea Diosa:and the keys not going tow ork
Atea Diosa:and we're going to get annoyed and kick him out and go. YOU CANNOT HAVE BURRITO, NO SQUEEZIN THA JOO OOCE IN HERE DOODLES
Atea Diosa:so he's going to go next door
Atea Diosa:to our arch rival
Atea Diosa:the ... Very Very Kwiki Mart
Atea Diosa:and he'll pee on their floor
Atea Diosa:and we'll go
aLittleStarlight:NO SQUEEZIN THA JOO OOOCE
Atea Diosa:HAHAHAHAHA DOODLES HATES YOU
Atea Diosa:and then we'll laugh at doodles
Atea Diosa:and go back to our daily work of making/eating jojos
aLittleStarlight:and then he'll sue
Atea Diosa:hahahahah and we'll go to court and go "HE TRIED TO SQUEEZA THE JOO OOCE ON OUR FLOOR" and they'll throw him away and lock him up
aLittleStarlight:and they'll expell us from the kwiki mart business
aLittleStarlight:and then we'll be broke and bums
Atea Diosa:and then we'll go around stealing other kwiki mart's toilet paper
Atea Diosa:and we'll sell it on the black market
aLittleStarlight:and we'll beg the gas station for jojos every night
Atea Diosa:hahahhah we rule
aLittleStarlight:of course we do
aLittleStarlight:fucker
A mere Statistic: ::gets high on gatorade::
Wednesday, January 09, 2002
Tuesday, January 08, 2002
pj harvey, tori amos, bjork, radiohead, and some shitheads were nominated for grammys.
best female rock vocal performance -- TORI (slg) melissa ethridge, PJ (this is love) stevie nicks, lucinda willliams
best rock album -- ryan adams, aerosmith, PJ HARVEY, linkin park, u2 [i hope linkin park and aerosmith dont win. thank GOD for polly jean, getting the women in there.]
alternative music album -- TORI, BJORK, coldplay, fatboy slim, RADIOHEAD. [i hope fatboy slim doesnt win. coldplay wouldnt bother me too badly]
best new artist -- indie arie, nelly furtado, david gray, alicia keys, linkin park [i hope linkin park doesnt win. alicia keys wouldnt bother me too badly but you know shes gonna win.]
best soundtrack -- bridget jones's diary, moulin rouge!, o brother, where art thou?, shrek, the sopranos. [i liked all those movies. except the sopranos which i never saw thank god. so i wont mind if they win. but the best soundtrack wise is moulin rouge and i LOVE that movie so yeah.]
radiohead was also nominated for 'best recording package' but i dont know what that means. dave matthews band (space between) was nominated for 'best vocal rock performance by group' and btw the category is ALL men. ryan adams (x_x) is nominated for 'best male rock vocal performance' doing 'new york, new york' which is a song i dont like. but you know. at least hes slightly unknown. AAHAHAHHA and he's nominated for 'best male country vocal' which is more appropriate i would say. ahghhaha. but holy shit you KNOW he's not gonna win because he's up against johnny cash, lyle lovett, tim cgraw, willie nelson, and some other guy. well at least he can say he was nominated.
i hope enya wins for new age.
'best rock song' is ALL men, as usual. u2 was nominated twice there. and coldplay, train, and aerosmith. whats with all the same people. it sucks. indie arie was nominated for quite a few things and i liked her single/video so.
i've haven't heard ANY of the songs nominated for pop vocal performance. except for like. REM.
HAHAAHAHAHS Holy shit daft punk was nominated. for SEVERAL things.
the music video nominations suck ass. where are MY favorite damn music videos. flushed away down the toliet, let me tell you.
and of course my favorite album of 2001 ('sunny border blue' by kristin hersh) was not nominated.
sad day. but! you can still download such classics from the album as "ruby" and "your dirty answer" so you should thereby enjoy them. oh or you could always listen to "echo" which isn't from this album but its still good.
Carrie Brownstein's (Sleater-Kinney) Top 5 of 2001 (in no particular order)
1) missy ellliot-miss e....so addictive
2) 'superflat' exhibit at the henry art gallery seattle, wa
3) gillian welch live at the showbox in seattle, wa
4) books by joan didion
5) the langley schools music project
best female rock vocal performance -- TORI (slg) melissa ethridge, PJ (this is love) stevie nicks, lucinda willliams
best rock album -- ryan adams, aerosmith, PJ HARVEY, linkin park, u2 [i hope linkin park and aerosmith dont win. thank GOD for polly jean, getting the women in there.]
alternative music album -- TORI, BJORK, coldplay, fatboy slim, RADIOHEAD. [i hope fatboy slim doesnt win. coldplay wouldnt bother me too badly]
best new artist -- indie arie, nelly furtado, david gray, alicia keys, linkin park [i hope linkin park doesnt win. alicia keys wouldnt bother me too badly but you know shes gonna win.]
best soundtrack -- bridget jones's diary, moulin rouge!, o brother, where art thou?, shrek, the sopranos. [i liked all those movies. except the sopranos which i never saw thank god. so i wont mind if they win. but the best soundtrack wise is moulin rouge and i LOVE that movie so yeah.]
radiohead was also nominated for 'best recording package' but i dont know what that means. dave matthews band (space between) was nominated for 'best vocal rock performance by group' and btw the category is ALL men. ryan adams (x_x) is nominated for 'best male rock vocal performance' doing 'new york, new york' which is a song i dont like. but you know. at least hes slightly unknown. AAHAHAHHA and he's nominated for 'best male country vocal' which is more appropriate i would say. ahghhaha. but holy shit you KNOW he's not gonna win because he's up against johnny cash, lyle lovett, tim cgraw, willie nelson, and some other guy. well at least he can say he was nominated.
i hope enya wins for new age.
'best rock song' is ALL men, as usual. u2 was nominated twice there. and coldplay, train, and aerosmith. whats with all the same people. it sucks. indie arie was nominated for quite a few things and i liked her single/video so.
i've haven't heard ANY of the songs nominated for pop vocal performance. except for like. REM.
HAHAAHAHAHS Holy shit daft punk was nominated. for SEVERAL things.
the music video nominations suck ass. where are MY favorite damn music videos. flushed away down the toliet, let me tell you.
and of course my favorite album of 2001 ('sunny border blue' by kristin hersh) was not nominated.
sad day. but! you can still download such classics from the album as "ruby" and "your dirty answer" so you should thereby enjoy them. oh or you could always listen to "echo" which isn't from this album but its still good.
Carrie Brownstein's (Sleater-Kinney) Top 5 of 2001 (in no particular order)
1) missy ellliot-miss e....so addictive
2) 'superflat' exhibit at the henry art gallery seattle, wa
3) gillian welch live at the showbox in seattle, wa
4) books by joan didion
5) the langley schools music project
Laylee2000: hey hunter! whats goin on?
HuntERt121: oh my god i have been waiting for you to get on!
HuntERt121: for like 3 dayz!
Laylee2000: lol wow, why?
Laylee2000: i havent seen you in forrrrrever!
HuntERt121: i know!
Laylee2000: what have you been up to all break?
HuntERt121: nothing
Laylee2000: lol sucks for you
HuntERt121: but listen
HuntERt121: to
HuntERt121: me
HuntERt121: young lady
Laylee2000: yeah? im listening!
HuntERt121: i was looking on the internet
HuntERt121: for things about my band
HuntERt121: and guess what i found
Laylee2000: what?
HuntERt121: .....think
HuntERt121: think
HuntERt121: think laylee
Laylee2000: what the hell
Laylee2000: lol
HuntERt121: think!
Laylee2000: no.....fucking....clue
HuntERt121: well
HuntERt121: i found some little like some little
Laylee2000: hmmmm.....
Laylee2000: just tell me boy!
HuntERt121: like chat room site
HuntERt121: of you and like 2 of your friends
Laylee2000: what the hell
Laylee2000: hahaha
Laylee2000: what are you talking about?
HuntERt121: yeah!
Laylee2000: whaaaaat
HuntERt121: haha
HuntERt121: fine i will have to find it then
Laylee2000: okayyy? haha
HuntERt121: http://cs.tcgn.net/Alanna/wings/archives/2001_10_21_firewings_archive.html Laylee2000: WHOIA
Laylee2000: you found alanna's blog
Laylee2000: hahahahahhah ahng on\
HuntERt121: I SURE DO LOVE DELUDED PRINCESS OH MY GOD AND THEYRE SUCH HOT ASS PUNKS YOU KNOW THEY ARE AND THEIR SCREECHING WAILING MUSIC IS THE MOST INSPIRATIONAL SHIT I HAVE EVER HEARD IN MY LIFE OH MY GOD I GOT KICKED OUT OF NEW DAISY THEATRE FOR ALL FUCKING ETERNITY BECAUSE I ATTACKED THE BAND DONT THEY KNOW WHAT GRATITUTE IS...... ????? PLEASE HELP ME SNEAK IN I LOVE THEM I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STAND IT IF I GO ANOTHER .6769234086 SECONDS WITHOUT HEARING THEM OH MY GOD
HuntERt121: hahaha
HuntERt121: wah the hell is this?
Laylee2000: hahahah that wasnt me
HuntERt121: wait is that like some really big sacrasm or do we have a fan?
Laylee2000: uhh whats written is sarcasm, sorry baby
HuntERt121: well damn
Monday, January 07, 2002
on friday i babysat holly, rebekah, and david wilson and i got $30 and it was great fun. when i got home it was discovered that aunt jenny, rachel, luke, and morgan had all appeared in the night. it was also great fun.
on saturday we went to nomadic notions and cosmic closet because moondance was closed. we also went to some other places (bookstar, starbucks) but hardly anything was open so. and we forgot to go to maggie's farm. we came home and i had a stomach ache (as i have had for like a million years, refer to previous posts) but dad physically forced me to go to our first rehearsal for Synesthaesisa.a.aga. however it happens to be spelled. anyway it was a good time. katherine and zoë were there. so we all introduced ourselves (yes. AGAIN!) with kimberly's name game thing and uhm. we stretched and warmed up and did some improv (my very very LEAST favorite part, along with katherine's) and then we actually started the dance. kimberly sort of does things as she goes along and makes things up and. well i guess how choreographers do their thingie isnt it. the point is. i am a WATER TONE THINGIE which means i am in a group with katherine (silver) zoë (royal blue) and tracy and no one told her what color she was so kimberly made up that she is light blue. and i was just told your plain old generic 'green' and really i dont think i even fit in that category but i couldnt go with the fire tones (morgan, who is pink, mac, who is red, and sylvia who is yellow) or the stone color thingies (claire who is emerald, sonja who is purple, and brad who is chocolate brown) so really there was nowhere else for me to go. and kimberly is just pretending that i am sea foam green type so that i will blend with them but i dont feel like that really. akhgaha katherine said i'm like the green at our school and kimberly was like 'no i dont think she's Spartan Green' and it was funny. and uhm. yes. so we get to dance round with scarves even though theyre not completey accurate. like katherine had to use a bright blue scarf and i had to use this horrifying neon green. it's kind of funny because our group is like pretty pale blue, bright blue, dark blue, BIG EVIL NEON GREEN. and anyway. rehearsal went well. and it even made my stummy stop hurting. so uh. then we came home. and uh. after like 15 minutes we went to turtle's and we spent a while (dad said it was an hour but i dont think it was that long) looking around and i hadnt even GOTTEN to the used section yet but they made me stop. and i was so terribly confused, i'd picked up a few things but i wanted a case so i put back the cds and just got a new case. i was going to get the case and a $10 cd by the start but i went asdkglkshaoeihagskl and i couldnt remember if i liked the song suddenly. anyway. after that we came home and uhm. i made mom, dad, and jenny go out to eat so they did and we ordered pizza and watched buffy the vampire slayer (the movie) and buffy the musical (the tv show) and in the middle of that the parentals came home and then we put on mallrats and then dogma and oh my it was a lot of movies. at some point mom and jenny went to bed. and i was of course rearranging my cds in their little cases. and luke went to bed as SOON as dogma ended but morgan and rachel and i watched the special features.
and meanwhile dad was (apparently) attacking my blog and being an evil evil little man.
holy crap morgan just stole my cheez-its.
on sunday dad wakes me up at like... 1pm something because we have a 2:30 rehearsal. i swear during a show, the show is ALL he worries about. look look this happened on friday::
dad: *calls me from work* how are you feeling
me: ungood.
dad: are you gonna be able to make it to rehearsal tomorrow?
me: ... DAD! YOU HAVE BAD PRIORITIES
dad: no i dont i'm just concious!
me: you didnt even mention my babysitting thing tonight
dad: i forgot about that.
and thereby i probably hung up or something and mutterd somethign along the lines of 'concious my ass.'
anyway i had a piece of leftover pizza and i got dressed and then we left. rehearsal was basically the same thing except that claire wasnt there this time but sonja and brad were. which is kinda funny because theyre all in the same group. and uh. we warmed up on the bar that time and it felt like we did more improvisation than the first time but maybe thats just me. kimberly added on to the dance and we got to go swoosh swoosh with our scarves. she told us a little bit about how the performance is going to go. one part of the stage (fairly small, i think, considering) is going to be the 'reality area' where the actors do their acting. theres only like. 4 or 5 characters. the main character guy (a synesthete) is played by andy and the rest of the stage portrays his mind. so like when he's seeing certain colors we will be doing stuff on the rest of the stage. and then dan is playing andy in his mind. so like when andy sees himself in his mind he'll be dan, more graceful and dancing and whatnot. and the Terrors (of which my father is one. and some more older men) will be tormenting andy guy in his mind. right.
and the colors will be wearing all black and we're supposed to wear one little piece of our color that we can take off. like a bandana or piece of cloth something attached to like our leg or something. ahagha as long as we can get it off. and then when we're not on stage i think we're supposed to sort of melt into the audience and i guess they arent supposed to be sure who is who because we'll be without our colors. you know it'll be like we're sort of anonymous.
so the dance we're working on right now has all the colors in it but we stay in our groups and do seperate things in the dance with our group. and we get to dance around with scarves that are (supposed to be) our color. i think i mentioned that a moment ago. anyway the point is we're supposed to be dancing and making this big show with our scarf color and people will obviously say 'oh that person is spartan green' or whatever and then we're going to rid ourselves of the scarves and keep dancing and then they'll see that we are not JUST the scarves and we have that little piece of whatever on us someplace. anyway. it's cool so far. except for the damn improv. (which is kind of funny because OOV is eternally known for improvisation greats)
on saturday we went to nomadic notions and cosmic closet because moondance was closed. we also went to some other places (bookstar, starbucks) but hardly anything was open so. and we forgot to go to maggie's farm. we came home and i had a stomach ache (as i have had for like a million years, refer to previous posts) but dad physically forced me to go to our first rehearsal for Synesthaesisa.a.aga. however it happens to be spelled. anyway it was a good time. katherine and zoë were there. so we all introduced ourselves (yes. AGAIN!) with kimberly's name game thing and uhm. we stretched and warmed up and did some improv (my very very LEAST favorite part, along with katherine's) and then we actually started the dance. kimberly sort of does things as she goes along and makes things up and. well i guess how choreographers do their thingie isnt it. the point is. i am a WATER TONE THINGIE which means i am in a group with katherine (silver) zoë (royal blue) and tracy and no one told her what color she was so kimberly made up that she is light blue. and i was just told your plain old generic 'green' and really i dont think i even fit in that category but i couldnt go with the fire tones (morgan, who is pink, mac, who is red, and sylvia who is yellow) or the stone color thingies (claire who is emerald, sonja who is purple, and brad who is chocolate brown) so really there was nowhere else for me to go. and kimberly is just pretending that i am sea foam green type so that i will blend with them but i dont feel like that really. akhgaha katherine said i'm like the green at our school and kimberly was like 'no i dont think she's Spartan Green' and it was funny. and uhm. yes. so we get to dance round with scarves even though theyre not completey accurate. like katherine had to use a bright blue scarf and i had to use this horrifying neon green. it's kind of funny because our group is like pretty pale blue, bright blue, dark blue, BIG EVIL NEON GREEN. and anyway. rehearsal went well. and it even made my stummy stop hurting. so uh. then we came home. and uh. after like 15 minutes we went to turtle's and we spent a while (dad said it was an hour but i dont think it was that long) looking around and i hadnt even GOTTEN to the used section yet but they made me stop. and i was so terribly confused, i'd picked up a few things but i wanted a case so i put back the cds and just got a new case. i was going to get the case and a $10 cd by the start but i went asdkglkshaoeihagskl and i couldnt remember if i liked the song suddenly. anyway. after that we came home and uhm. i made mom, dad, and jenny go out to eat so they did and we ordered pizza and watched buffy the vampire slayer (the movie) and buffy the musical (the tv show) and in the middle of that the parentals came home and then we put on mallrats and then dogma and oh my it was a lot of movies. at some point mom and jenny went to bed. and i was of course rearranging my cds in their little cases. and luke went to bed as SOON as dogma ended but morgan and rachel and i watched the special features.
and meanwhile dad was (apparently) attacking my blog and being an evil evil little man.
holy crap morgan just stole my cheez-its.
on sunday dad wakes me up at like... 1pm something because we have a 2:30 rehearsal. i swear during a show, the show is ALL he worries about. look look this happened on friday::
dad: *calls me from work* how are you feeling
me: ungood.
dad: are you gonna be able to make it to rehearsal tomorrow?
me: ... DAD! YOU HAVE BAD PRIORITIES
dad: no i dont i'm just concious!
me: you didnt even mention my babysitting thing tonight
dad: i forgot about that.
and thereby i probably hung up or something and mutterd somethign along the lines of 'concious my ass.'
anyway i had a piece of leftover pizza and i got dressed and then we left. rehearsal was basically the same thing except that claire wasnt there this time but sonja and brad were. which is kinda funny because theyre all in the same group. and uh. we warmed up on the bar that time and it felt like we did more improvisation than the first time but maybe thats just me. kimberly added on to the dance and we got to go swoosh swoosh with our scarves. she told us a little bit about how the performance is going to go. one part of the stage (fairly small, i think, considering) is going to be the 'reality area' where the actors do their acting. theres only like. 4 or 5 characters. the main character guy (a synesthete) is played by andy and the rest of the stage portrays his mind. so like when he's seeing certain colors we will be doing stuff on the rest of the stage. and then dan is playing andy in his mind. so like when andy sees himself in his mind he'll be dan, more graceful and dancing and whatnot. and the Terrors (of which my father is one. and some more older men) will be tormenting andy guy in his mind. right.
and the colors will be wearing all black and we're supposed to wear one little piece of our color that we can take off. like a bandana or piece of cloth something attached to like our leg or something. ahagha as long as we can get it off. and then when we're not on stage i think we're supposed to sort of melt into the audience and i guess they arent supposed to be sure who is who because we'll be without our colors. you know it'll be like we're sort of anonymous.
so the dance we're working on right now has all the colors in it but we stay in our groups and do seperate things in the dance with our group. and we get to dance around with scarves that are (supposed to be) our color. i think i mentioned that a moment ago. anyway the point is we're supposed to be dancing and making this big show with our scarf color and people will obviously say 'oh that person is spartan green' or whatever and then we're going to rid ourselves of the scarves and keep dancing and then they'll see that we are not JUST the scarves and we have that little piece of whatever on us someplace. anyway. it's cool so far. except for the damn improv. (which is kind of funny because OOV is eternally known for improvisation greats)
Saturday, January 05, 2002
sarah rushakoff told zoë etkin who told me that if you look up 'ecstatic disco nights' on google my blog comes up. bahahhhah that's evil.
Laylee2000: im going to starbucks witha buhca peeeeople tonnniggggght
Laylee2000: becca, daniell, michelle, kyle
Laylee2000: muahahahahahahha
Laylee2000: id invite you too but youd hate all of them probably, seeing as you hate all people and these people are certainly people
Laylee2000: byeebyeeee my lovelrrrry!!!!
Laylee2000: becca, daniell, michelle, kyle
Laylee2000: muahahahahahahha
Laylee2000: id invite you too but youd hate all of them probably, seeing as you hate all people and these people are certainly people
Laylee2000: byeebyeeee my lovelrrrry!!!!
Thursday, January 03, 2002
this better fucking work.
Wednesday, January 02, 2002
Tuesday, January 01, 2002
anyway the whole 'Brian Molko Escapade' as it has been dubbed by myself, took place last night. obviously. it all started when. i dont even remember why we were there but we went to sweetcherrie.com and we decided to look at the boyfriend test and i was thinking we should take it and pretend we were laylee and see how the hell she got kurt cobain but instead we saw the fiendish picture. 
and i said 'LETS GET THAT GUY' so we took the quiz and we got him and we were like WHO THE HELL IS HE and he is BRIAN MOLKO of placebo. .....and they sing the song that goes 'a friend in need is a friend indeed but a friend with weed is better' and thereby we praise brian molko because he is god.
and i said 'LETS GET THAT GUY' so we took the quiz and we got him and we were like WHO THE HELL IS HE and he is BRIAN MOLKO of placebo. .....and they sing the song that goes 'a friend in need is a friend indeed but a friend with weed is better' and thereby we praise brian molko because he is god.
BRIAN MOLKO IS MY HERO. AND MY NEW ROCK STAR BOYFRIEND.
a gorgeous song by briano molko:
"EVIL DILDO"
Hey motherfucker, I'm after you. I know where you live.
I will fuck you up the ass and I will sneak into your room and cut your cock off
and stuff it in my mouth and chew it up with my little teeth.
commentary of Ye Brittany: 'he looks like bilbo' and she is thereby praising the quar'an.
Monday, December 31, 2001
Sunday, December 30, 2001
right now people just really bother me. i don't like them. at all. i am going to end up like aunt ella.
she is actually my great aunt. i think.. something like that. yeah.
anyway aunt ella is my mom's mom's sister. she never got married, you know. it's actually pretty tragic. (she is more lucky than i am in this sense) her.. fiance? i think he was. maybe just boyfriend. anyway the point is he died in WWII and ella never got married. poor thing. anyway now she's living with grandma and papa in their house in remote south georgia.
so the point is i am going to end up like aunt ella, living with morgan and her husband and they'll have this huge mass hilarious family and i will have a terribly bad back and when my great neice hugs me i will fall over and i'll end up a christian addict and give out jesus cards for christmas.
except i won't be like aunt ella at all because she is far far far too sweet and nice and i will be a mean old grouch aunt. and i will never have almost gotten married.
anyway i am just sitting around thinking about the friends i do not have.
she is actually my great aunt. i think.. something like that. yeah.
anyway aunt ella is my mom's mom's sister. she never got married, you know. it's actually pretty tragic. (she is more lucky than i am in this sense) her.. fiance? i think he was. maybe just boyfriend. anyway the point is he died in WWII and ella never got married. poor thing. anyway now she's living with grandma and papa in their house in remote south georgia.
so the point is i am going to end up like aunt ella, living with morgan and her husband and they'll have this huge mass hilarious family and i will have a terribly bad back and when my great neice hugs me i will fall over and i'll end up a christian addict and give out jesus cards for christmas.
except i won't be like aunt ella at all because she is far far far too sweet and nice and i will be a mean old grouch aunt. and i will never have almost gotten married.
anyway i am just sitting around thinking about the friends i do not have.
agsdhgahhah my mom just called me phyllis.
you know i had a really good talk with her the other day about. oh things. lol. music, yeah. as i said on 'i left my heart', she made me a tape of an older luscious jackson album and we listened to it and talked about it and music and a bunch of friends she has/had who are/were musicians. phyllis knows soooo many people! is that just something that happens when you are a dancer who lives in new york? well not IS a dancer, more WAS a dancer. i love phyllis. i want to be phyllis. and my mom. and ani difranco.
you know i had a really good talk with her the other day about. oh things. lol. music, yeah. as i said on 'i left my heart', she made me a tape of an older luscious jackson album and we listened to it and talked about it and music and a bunch of friends she has/had who are/were musicians. phyllis knows soooo many people! is that just something that happens when you are a dancer who lives in new york? well not IS a dancer, more WAS a dancer. i love phyllis. i want to be phyllis. and my mom. and ani difranco.
brittany and laylee went to see kate and leopold and apparently it was fucking hilarious. and i just called brittany's house and some strange child answered the phone and said that brittany was at starbucks with laylee. gee they seem to be getting along well....
Sunday, December 23, 2001
Saturday, December 22, 2001
today is "Family Christmas" which means that everyone in my immediate family (sister, father, mother) gives each other presents today. because we're going to Georgia for Real Christmas and that is when santa happens and we give gifts to outer relative types. today is a beautiful day.
mom got the best gifts. morgan gave her this statue of a faery for the garden. it's really beautiful and she was like 'i dont know if i can bear to put it outside!' and dad gave her this alan lee print which is (suppposedly) exactly like the one they saw in england a million years ago and dad refused to buy for her. and mom is always going on about that and how you cant even get them anymore (which she made up because it is a better story) and dad found it for her on ebay and had a long conversation with the guy from the company that sold it to him about the san diego comic con (which is THE comic con) and how he was BRINGING ALAN LEE AND THE FROUDS!!! so dad was like 'we have to go' hence two posts ago.
and dad also gave her this great huge poetry book with three audio CDs of the poets reading their work. it was amazing. and my gift (HORRIBLY anti-climactic) was the 'soul music' terry pratchet dvd which is "a tale of sects, dwarfs and rock 'n' roll". but mom really liked it and she was surprised apparently and she was like 'i'm gonna OD on christmas excitement' and it was funny beans.
dad got three DVDs. ahhagha. mom gave him dogma and morgan gave him crouching tiger, hidden dragon which has "over 100 minutes of deleted scenes" and i find that very cool and i gave him monty python and the holy grail and that has the coolest feature thingies such as "how to use your coconuts properly" and then the knights are legos. gahdslkhga.
and morgan and i's presents were sort of matching as they usually are. i gave her boys for pele by tori amos and a tori poster. she gave me the green world by dar williams (which i dont even remember having said i wanted lol) and the self-titled le tigre album. (SO EXCITING!!! WEE!!!)
and dad gave morgan the plushie Delirium doll (who came with a little fishie) and i got Death which is great and morgan says we look alike? then mom gave morgan little setsuma smelling thingies which is lovely because setsuma is a kind of japanese orange and its lovely and she gave me a vanilla travel candle and vanilla lotion thingies.
oh and now that we're on the subject. brittany gave me a vanilla candle as well (you guys know me too well.) and she gave me a little photo album thing (which i desperately needed) and a bag of recee's (but her brother ate one and i forgive him) and frankenberry (which turns your milk pink.) and i am going now.
mom got the best gifts. morgan gave her this statue of a faery for the garden. it's really beautiful and she was like 'i dont know if i can bear to put it outside!' and dad gave her this alan lee print which is (suppposedly) exactly like the one they saw in england a million years ago and dad refused to buy for her. and mom is always going on about that and how you cant even get them anymore (which she made up because it is a better story) and dad found it for her on ebay and had a long conversation with the guy from the company that sold it to him about the san diego comic con (which is THE comic con) and how he was BRINGING ALAN LEE AND THE FROUDS!!! so dad was like 'we have to go' hence two posts ago.
and dad also gave her this great huge poetry book with three audio CDs of the poets reading their work. it was amazing. and my gift (HORRIBLY anti-climactic) was the 'soul music' terry pratchet dvd which is "a tale of sects, dwarfs and rock 'n' roll". but mom really liked it and she was surprised apparently and she was like 'i'm gonna OD on christmas excitement' and it was funny beans.
dad got three DVDs. ahhagha. mom gave him dogma and morgan gave him crouching tiger, hidden dragon which has "over 100 minutes of deleted scenes" and i find that very cool and i gave him monty python and the holy grail and that has the coolest feature thingies such as "how to use your coconuts properly" and then the knights are legos. gahdslkhga.
and morgan and i's presents were sort of matching as they usually are. i gave her boys for pele by tori amos and a tori poster. she gave me the green world by dar williams (which i dont even remember having said i wanted lol) and the self-titled le tigre album. (SO EXCITING!!! WEE!!!)
and dad gave morgan the plushie Delirium doll (who came with a little fishie) and i got Death which is great and morgan says we look alike? then mom gave morgan little setsuma smelling thingies which is lovely because setsuma is a kind of japanese orange and its lovely and she gave me a vanilla travel candle and vanilla lotion thingies.
oh and now that we're on the subject. brittany gave me a vanilla candle as well (you guys know me too well.) and she gave me a little photo album thing (which i desperately needed) and a bag of recee's (but her brother ate one and i forgive him) and frankenberry (which turns your milk pink.) and i am going now.
Friday, December 21, 2001
Wednesday, December 19, 2001
today i am sick and i am staying home. i am also eating cocoa krispies.
so last night chuck zimmer called and talked to dad about the play. katherine dohan as been cast as Silver. my dad is the 'lead terror', morgan is Pink, and i am Green (though i do not feel very green)
it has been decided that pink is a lovely morgan color and that silver is a lovely katherine color and that my father is not a terror.
but apparently "it's called acting"
so last night chuck zimmer called and talked to dad about the play. katherine dohan as been cast as Silver. my dad is the 'lead terror', morgan is Pink, and i am Green (though i do not feel very green)
it has been decided that pink is a lovely morgan color and that silver is a lovely katherine color and that my father is not a terror.
but apparently "it's called acting"
Tuesday, December 18, 2001
my granny cracks me up. to death and pieces!!! my dad picked me up from school today and when i was putting my bag in the car i noticed a blockbuster bag.
me: why'd you go to blockbuster
dad: to get granny's present.
me: what is it.
dad: 'princess diaries'
me: why!!
dad: because she didnt get to see it in the theatre and she heard it was good. and it has julie andrews in it.
and i thereby died of laughter.
the end.
me: why'd you go to blockbuster
dad: to get granny's present.
me: what is it.
dad: 'princess diaries'
me: why!!
dad: because she didnt get to see it in the theatre and she heard it was good. and it has julie andrews in it.
and i thereby died of laughter.
the end.
Monday, December 17, 2001
yesterday afternoon, dad, morgan, and i went to theatreworks to 'audition' for their new play Synesthesia. katherine asked me to inform her when the next play would be happening so i did and she came and it was good times. chuck zimmer is directing this one (his first with our own voice, i think) but dad and morgan were like 'how is gonna direct? he never even talks!' and it was funny. so some time in the last month or so when no one was looking he got married to a nice woman named robin. (robyn???) they have nice smiles.
point: 'auditions' consisted of filling out this form. it had question thingies on it like. 'what can you bring to this show' and so i didnt know so katherine wrote on mine 'I can bring happiness to all !! :)' and i scratched out happiness and wrote 'death and pain' and scratched out that and wrote 'cheese' and scratched out the whole thing altogether. and then morgan wrote something about how i can be their guinea pig and i just left it like that. and then i said something about how it would be a new and different experience.
so after that we went upstairs (i didnt even know there was an upstairs except for the little lighting box!!) and its like a dance studio with a mirror wall and the floor and all that.
ok now would be the time to tell you that it's not regular auditions. it's more like. acting exercises and seeing who's interested and telling people what the show is about. right.
so robin had us stand in a circle and bill baker (zak's dad, kimberly's husband) sort of introduced new people such as katherine and tracy, who have not been in OOV shows before. and then he introduced me (and butchered my name) as morgan's sister and dad's daughter so you know. thats kind of the bad thing is that i am eternally a limb. have you noticed? i always seem to be tacked on to someone else's name because i'm not really ever doing anything for myself. and anyway i was basically just going to this audition so that katherine wouldn't be alone and to make my sister happy because it's not really my thing, i guess. actually it might be and i just really don't know. i don't really have a thing. at all. the point is that i went and i was the fifth wheel.
ok so then bill went to sit down next to chuck and they had clipboard things and it was really intimidating the whole time how they were always looking at you, and i guess that was the point, but they would like take notes and gahgalkhd. i mean i know they weren't like 'ok well we shouldnt put HER in this play' but it was like. kind of skary. anyway.
so most of it was exercise things and it involved colors. like robin told us to imagine a color we really really didnt like and imagine a weapon and then we had to go around the room and destroy plants of this horrid color which were all over the place. (my color was orange and i had a rock. morgan had a ruler aghaha.) and let's see i can't remember what else.
at one point they had people read lines for the speaking parts. there's only like. four or so? so most people will be cast as colors, i think. dad and katherine read. dad read the part for this character joel, and good lord it was hilarious. he was like this sci-fi guy and nearly everything he said was quoted from some movie and dad did it really well of course and bill was like smiling to death and pieces which is so funny because he's never smiling to death and pieces.
then we got back into a circle and robin would say a color and we passed the color around the circle by doing some thing that represented it to us. i'm really uncomfortable doing things like that and i dont know if i'm going to be in the show because of that. then we were put into pairs and given a word emotion thing and we had to act it out sort of and tracy and i got 'exasperated' so i was supposed to be like her little sister or something and i wanted everything and she went insane.
morgan and dan are so damn cute.
you remember dan. the one who is getting kicked out of choir for being gay. yes.
this would be a good time to tell you that sarah rushakoff uploaded pictures from ecstatic disco nights to their site thing and they can be attacked here. and i have to go clean out the van.
Friday, December 14, 2001
A mere Statistic:::goes to get more mountain dew::
aLittleStarlight:fun day
A mere Statistic:gkdjsaklgjasdklg
A mere Statistic:lol
A mere Statistic:I HATE WHEN I POUR A CUP
A mere Statistic:OF MOUNTAIN DEW
A mere Statistic:AND FUCKING LEAVE IT OUT ON THE TABLE
A mere Statistic:GKJSDAGKJASKLGJKLSJG
A mere Statistic:SDGKLSDJGKJDG
A mere Statistic:GKLJKGJ;SDGJKSLG
A mere Statistic:::runs out to get it::
aLittleStarlight:fun day
A mere Statistic:gkdjsaklgjasdklg
A mere Statistic:lol
A mere Statistic:I HATE WHEN I POUR A CUP
A mere Statistic:OF MOUNTAIN DEW
A mere Statistic:AND FUCKING LEAVE IT OUT ON THE TABLE
A mere Statistic:GKJSDAGKJASKLGJKLSJG
A mere Statistic:SDGKLSDJGKJDG
A mere Statistic:GKLJKGJ;SDGJKSLG
A mere Statistic:::runs out to get it::
Take the What Cat Are You? test by
webkin!ahhahahah no. this is SO terribly inaccurate. i'm going to take it again. but i do have a cd case/jacket/thing with this picture on it. (it's the one full of ani cds. C-Di) the image is quite cute but i'm getting sick of it.
Take the What Cat Are You? test by
webkin!phhhhhh now i've got the same one as brittany. and this one is ALSO terribly inaccurate. where the hell is the grouch cat. where is the grail!?
Take the What Cat Are You? test by
webkin!HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHH they just keep getting ... 'better'
less accurate dammit.
anyway it would seem there are only five choices, none of which are me and none of which are grail. i loathe this test.
today was the band concert and it was one of these black dress or skirt/blouse deals. so i didnt have a black dress or any of that. so we went all over and ended up getting this AMAZINGLY COOL skirt at moondance (my favorite place i swear) and i needed black shoes. so mom took me to chinatown imports and i got some little $6 chinese shoes there but theyre rather small, actually...
point: i needed new shoes. and i actually TOLD mom so, which wasnt very smart, let me tell you. the point is we went to oak court mall and mom attacked the shoes and i was like 'nooo' and i made her take me to journeys because its reasonable there. i like it there, sometimes. so the point is we went and i got new black converse shoes (just the same as my old ones) except that theyre kinda... big. i should let you know now i have THE tiniest feet ever. ok maybe not. but they are damn small. and the smallest that anyone has is a 6 and mine are like 5 and a half, usually. or something along those lines. or smaller.
point: i forgot that my old converse shoes were in mens sizes!! and they fit just fiiiine, it was like a 4 or something. so the new ones are going to be large, once i start wearing them around...
point: mom made me try on a million and one pairs of shoes (boots, really) because i wanted some sort of. i was like 'i wish i had some of those big clunky black boots' and then mom was like 'ok' and before i knew it she was asking the evil man at journeys and i went alksdhglashg. i am not going to get into it.
point: i ended up getting clunky black boots and i love them to death.
also, the reason for all these shoes was that today was the varsity band concert (of which i am a part of) it was also the orchestra, jv band, jazz band, choirs' concert. (why is it that there are like four choirs)
did you know that zak baker was in the jazz band.
the jazz band is amazing amazing amazing wondrously good. theyre always the last to perform, as they are the finale and whatnot. and it was discovered and noted by katherine dohan and i that the guitarists and bassists of the jazz band all look the same from the back row of the auditorium when they are all wearing tuxedos and top hats. because they all have fluffy shaggy hair. well actually you can tell patrick (katherine said that was his name? well it's rather suiting. he looks like a damn leprechaun. a tall one, too.) apart from the other ones because his hair is deliriously long. it looks like. crimp n style barbie's: massively blond (dyed, i'm sure) and remotely wavy and as long as jingle bells.
point: he frightens me. A LOT.
another point: he looks very funny in a top hot.
yet another point: zak had hat hair today.
and another: you'll notice that all the guys in jazz band wore their tuxes and hats (and carried their canes) all day long, while the lesser, uncool beings of the other bands/orchestras/choirs, removed theirs.
jazz band members have mass pride. (no one else does) they know they are loved. like beans.
and anyway there are only three girls in the damn jazz band. (i think..... don't quote me!) and one is robin's sister acacia and she is quite cool because i say so.
anyway i have gotten horribly off-topic. it would be best to leave, especially since laylee is IMing me now.
point: i needed new shoes. and i actually TOLD mom so, which wasnt very smart, let me tell you. the point is we went to oak court mall and mom attacked the shoes and i was like 'nooo' and i made her take me to journeys because its reasonable there. i like it there, sometimes. so the point is we went and i got new black converse shoes (just the same as my old ones) except that theyre kinda... big. i should let you know now i have THE tiniest feet ever. ok maybe not. but they are damn small. and the smallest that anyone has is a 6 and mine are like 5 and a half, usually. or something along those lines. or smaller.
point: i forgot that my old converse shoes were in mens sizes!! and they fit just fiiiine, it was like a 4 or something. so the new ones are going to be large, once i start wearing them around...
point: mom made me try on a million and one pairs of shoes (boots, really) because i wanted some sort of. i was like 'i wish i had some of those big clunky black boots' and then mom was like 'ok' and before i knew it she was asking the evil man at journeys and i went alksdhglashg. i am not going to get into it.
point: i ended up getting clunky black boots and i love them to death.
also, the reason for all these shoes was that today was the varsity band concert (of which i am a part of) it was also the orchestra, jv band, jazz band, choirs' concert. (why is it that there are like four choirs)
did you know that zak baker was in the jazz band.
the jazz band is amazing amazing amazing wondrously good. theyre always the last to perform, as they are the finale and whatnot. and it was discovered and noted by katherine dohan and i that the guitarists and bassists of the jazz band all look the same from the back row of the auditorium when they are all wearing tuxedos and top hats. because they all have fluffy shaggy hair. well actually you can tell patrick (katherine said that was his name? well it's rather suiting. he looks like a damn leprechaun. a tall one, too.) apart from the other ones because his hair is deliriously long. it looks like. crimp n style barbie's: massively blond (dyed, i'm sure) and remotely wavy and as long as jingle bells.
point: he frightens me. A LOT.
another point: he looks very funny in a top hot.
yet another point: zak had hat hair today.
and another: you'll notice that all the guys in jazz band wore their tuxes and hats (and carried their canes) all day long, while the lesser, uncool beings of the other bands/orchestras/choirs, removed theirs.
jazz band members have mass pride. (no one else does) they know they are loved. like beans.
and anyway there are only three girls in the damn jazz band. (i think..... don't quote me!) and one is robin's sister acacia and she is quite cool because i say so.
anyway i have gotten horribly off-topic. it would be best to leave, especially since laylee is IMing me now.
Wednesday, December 12, 2001
Tuesday, December 11, 2001
Sunday, December 09, 2001
Saturday, December 08, 2001
Friday, December 07, 2001
Wednesday, December 05, 2001
Monday, December 03, 2001
Sunday, December 02, 2001
Cj and Laki:kjnkljg
Chaodoom:hullo.
Cj and Laki:i slobbered on it\
Chaodoom:ok
Cj and Laki:you have to believe we arw masgic
Chaodoom:how... appetizing
Cj and Laki:IT S[PARKLES
Chaodoom:ok. i believe that.
Chaodoom:it does?
Chaodoom:keen.
Cj and Laki:SDYTPOPPOIT
Chaodoom:now you're just being silly.
Cj and Laki:do you see it!?
Chaodoom:yup.
Cj and Laki:li
Cj and Laki:ar
Cj and Laki:no it really sparkels
Cj and Laki:no one believes me
Cj and Laki:youre taking me over
Cj and Laki:even the burnt part sparkles
Cj and Laki:mmmmm
Cj and Laki:crumbly bread cookies
Cj and Laki:thwack thwack
Chaodoom:hullo.
Cj and Laki:i slobbered on it\
Chaodoom:ok
Cj and Laki:you have to believe we arw masgic
Chaodoom:how... appetizing
Cj and Laki:IT S[PARKLES
Chaodoom:ok. i believe that.
Chaodoom:it does?
Chaodoom:keen.
Cj and Laki:SDYTPOPPOIT
Chaodoom:now you're just being silly.
Cj and Laki:do you see it!?
Chaodoom:yup.
Cj and Laki:li
Cj and Laki:ar
Cj and Laki:no it really sparkels
Cj and Laki:no one believes me
Cj and Laki:youre taking me over
Cj and Laki:even the burnt part sparkles
Cj and Laki:mmmmm
Cj and Laki:crumbly bread cookies
Cj and Laki:thwack thwack
brittany is here and the DAMN PLANS ACTUALLY WORKED SORT OF. because i had to come an hour earlier, as brittany's tai chi class died and then she couldnt get in touch with katie so she still came at 1 and it was damn confusing. and then brittany's whole family died off to the restaurant with us and brittany 'will be a very good lawyer.' (in bed) yeahhh let me tell you about it. she has the 'the potential to be dirty' according to laylee. oh yes laylee didnt get to come to the restaurant :( but she DID show up at borders like waayyy late and she attacked me and we fell onto the suzanne vega cds. and katie listened to the smashing pumpkins too loud on her headphones and we could all hear them and then she wouldnt let us turn it down and you know billy corgan has a remotely annoying voice. esp when its all teeny tiny and floating around all over the place. and uh. brittany and i gave katie the last two books in the 'his dark materials' series by philip pullman and that was happy. and then katie had to leave and brittany invited laylee to my house
[brittany: i did not!
alanna: you did too
brittany: so whaaat!]
and she stayed for hours and hours on end but then she called her mom and she had to leave. :( and watched the 'fuckingest' movie [according to brittany] and it was called 'say anything' but then we watched a godawful movie called 'a knight's tale' and then and then uhm. we danced and danced to laylee's really cool mix cd for alanna and then she got tired and that was sad because we were like wooohaghahhaha. then her mom came and we ran out into the street and we had to chase down her car and give her the 'rockstar x-mas cd' that brittany made her. even though she is a jew. brittany is a terrible person. she did not say she wanted it!! no she didnt!! and it had fake beatles on it and people who were NOT simon and garfunkel and really bobby helms. HHAHAHAHAH. billy bobby. and some GODAWFUL shedaisy songs. but there were some good parts like john lennon's 'so this is christmas' because i told her to put that on there. and she found tori doing 'have yourself a merry little christmas' and BIF doing 'santa claus is coming to town' and that was funny as beans. and patti smith doing 'white christmas' and that was amusing and she couldnt quite hit the high notes and i liked it. and SPACE GHOST and the LEGION OF DOOM!!! ahhh that was the bestest. est. and uhm yes i am done with that.
so the point is that laylee's mix was really good!! and i knew a couple of those violent femmes song, like the one that CUT OFF after like 10 SECONDS. and brittany doesnt know how to spell femmes. I AM NOT ELMO. i am like. oscar. i will not sing this song. falalala. ok i can post now.
[brittany: i did not!
alanna: you did too
brittany: so whaaat!]
and she stayed for hours and hours on end but then she called her mom and she had to leave. :( and watched the 'fuckingest' movie [according to brittany] and it was called 'say anything' but then we watched a godawful movie called 'a knight's tale' and then and then uhm. we danced and danced to laylee's really cool mix cd for alanna and then she got tired and that was sad because we were like wooohaghahhaha. then her mom came and we ran out into the street and we had to chase down her car and give her the 'rockstar x-mas cd' that brittany made her. even though she is a jew. brittany is a terrible person. she did not say she wanted it!! no she didnt!! and it had fake beatles on it and people who were NOT simon and garfunkel and really bobby helms. HHAHAHAHAH. billy bobby. and some GODAWFUL shedaisy songs. but there were some good parts like john lennon's 'so this is christmas' because i told her to put that on there. and she found tori doing 'have yourself a merry little christmas' and BIF doing 'santa claus is coming to town' and that was funny as beans. and patti smith doing 'white christmas' and that was amusing and she couldnt quite hit the high notes and i liked it. and SPACE GHOST and the LEGION OF DOOM!!! ahhh that was the bestest. est. and uhm yes i am done with that.
so the point is that laylee's mix was really good!! and i knew a couple of those violent femmes song, like the one that CUT OFF after like 10 SECONDS. and brittany doesnt know how to spell femmes. I AM NOT ELMO. i am like. oscar. i will not sing this song. falalala. ok i can post now.
I HATE THE SESAME SEED TEST
Your personality type is: Elmo
You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of backstabbers, and you are worry free.
Your personality type is: Elmo
You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of backstabbers, and you are worry free.
Saturday, December 01, 2001
brittany and i are the worst plan-makers EVER. seriously. katie and laylee and brittany and i have been trying to make plans the last HOUR. katie left about half an hour ago and since then i have been trying to get the plans straight. ok i THINK i'm supposed to show up at brittany's tai chi class, beishou lin, at 1 and then her parents are driving all of us to a restaruant, saigon li (except it might not be that one, it might be another one) and then we're going to borders after lunch and then either our parents are picking us up or we're going home with brittany. and laylee and katie cant stay so i'll probably go home with brittany except that it might be easier on her parents for her to go home with me so i dont know. anyway........
aLittleStarlight:WELL WHY DONT I JUST GO THERE INSTEAD OF DAMNED BEISHOULINGA SDLKGHALSDGHDL
Atea Diosa:yes but we might go to another one i don't know alanna ;_;
aLittleStarlight:o.o
aLittleStarlight:oh
Laylee2000:HAHAHAHAHh
aLittleStarlight:*dies*
aLittleStarlight:god
Laylee2000:oh god
Atea Diosa:thats why.
Laylee2000:ur plans are very hard people
Atea Diosa:thast why i watn you to come to me
Atea Diosa:so i can take you where we're going
aLittleStarlight:these plans are SHITTY
Laylee2000:this is so difficult, plans with you two are always confusing and never work
aLittleStarlight:lol i know
aLittleStarlight:god
aLittleStarlight:watch this
aLittleStarlight:i'm gonna be the only one there
Laylee2000:HAHA
aLittleStarlight:and i'll come at the wrong time
Laylee2000:yes yo are
Laylee2000:HAHAHAHAHHA
Laylee2000:alanna that wilL SO happen
aLittleStarlight:and then no one will even come at 1
Atea Diosa:lolol no you'll call first.
aLittleStarlight:and brittany will be slaving away at home working
aLittleStarlight:shh i'll come too early
Atea Diosa:well i'll be there at 1 lol.
Laylee2000:me n katie wont show and britta will kill me monday @ school
aLittleStarlight:and you wont be able to reach me
Atea Diosa:.......LOL WTF
aLittleStarlight:and i'll like sit there in the rain and the place will be closed
Atea Diosa:LOL
Atea Diosa:hahahahha
aLittleStarlight:because like. it burned down
Laylee2000:AWWWWW
aLittleStarlight:and so i sit outside it all night
Atea Diosa:i'll call you if its closed lol
Atea Diosa:HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
Atea Diosa:*rolls around laughing*
Laylee2000:Hahahahahahahaha
Laylee2000:thats precious
aLittleStarlight:LOL
Atea Diosa:ok i really need to get o sleep
aLittleStarlight:doesnt that sound likely as beans
Atea Diosa:so so hahaha
aLittleStarlight:geez
Atea Diosa:i'll call you tomorrow after my parents awaken lana
aLittleStarlight:god
Laylee2000:mkay
aLittleStarlight:i wont be up
Atea Diosa:and we'll make it so definite we can't change a thing
Laylee2000:hahah
aLittleStarlight:you'll have to leave a damn message
Atea Diosa:or something like that
Atea Diosa:so i'll wake you up
aLittleStarlight:ok hld on
aLittleStarlight:my mom or somebody will prob be up
aLittleStarlight:so talk to her
Atea Diosa:no cause i'll need to know if your parents can come
Atea Diosa:i mean can bring you
Atea Diosa:*mass spasm*
aLittleStarlight:o.o
aLittleStarlight:bring me where
Atea Diosa:to bei shoulin!!!!!!!
aLittleStarlight:the restaurant?
Atea Diosa:where else?!
aLittleStarlight:what!
aLittleStarlight:why?!
Atea Diosa:lol NO!
aLittleStarlight:i'm so confused
Atea Diosa:GALJFDSKAJ JESUS CHIRST ALALANNA
aLittleStarlight:hahahahah
Atea Diosa:I DON'T KNOW WHICH RESTURANT WE'RE GOING TO
aLittleStarlight:i love my new name
Atea Diosa:PHO SAIGON OR SAIGON LI
aLittleStarlight:well whats your point
aLittleStarlight:by then you'll know hopefuly
Atea Diosa:SO THEREFORE YOU'RE ALL COMING TO BEI SHOULIN
Atea Diosa:AND MY PARENTS ARE TAKING YOU TO WHEREVER THEY WANT TO GO
Atea Diosa:alanna its just easier on me this way but if you want to sit infront of a fucking saigonli building and we go somewhere else then so be it
Laylee2000:...imscared...
Atea Diosa:of course you are
Laylee2000:youre scaring me brittany
Laylee2000:i love you
Atea Diosa:now i'm going to bed i'll call you tomorrow alanna and laylee don't just think you can coem to borders you have to put up a fucking struggle
Laylee2000:dont kill me and eat my children
Atea Diosa:fight your mother o-weak one
aLittleStarlight:mmmmmm i'm confused
aLittleStarlight:i'll probbaly go to borders at 1
Laylee2000:haha okay i will
aLittleStarlight:and hten it will burn down too
Atea Diosa:.....OLOL
aLittleStarlight:and i'll sit outside all night in the rain
Atea Diosa:no.
Laylee2000:and ill cal u @ 9 or w/e to tell u if i can come or not
Atea Diosa:GO TO BEISHOULIN AT ONE NO REASONS ARE ALLOWED JUST GO .
Atea Diosa:OK?!
aLittleStarlight:whats saigonli
Atea Diosa:damn straight you will laylee.
aLittleStarlight:what
Atea Diosa:ok.
Laylee2000:HAHAAH alanan just stop.
Laylee2000:ill explain
Atea Diosa:JUST GO TO BEI SHOULIN ALANNA.
Laylee2000:hahaha
aLittleStarlight:ahhagha whatioahdsaglks
Atea Diosa:YOU ARE REALLY KILLING ME
Atea Diosa:goodbye
Atea Diosa has left the room.
Friday, November 30, 2001
Thursday, November 29, 2001
i finished reading 'the night trilogy' by elie wiesel a little while ago. an hour or so. i don't know why they made it a triology... it's three books, yes, but the first 'night' is a biography and hte other two 'dawn' and 'the accident' are fiction.. I THINK. god i am so confused. if 'the accident' is fiction, then the character has the same name as the author. it's quite quite confusing. but anyway 'night' is about the holocaust. and then the other two are like post. and really theyre all mainly about death. i really liked them though.
ok this is what i found to be the saddest part of the whole damned book. i'm sure it wont seem as sad now, without having read everything before it, but it was the only part that made me teary-eyed. the main character (eliezer) and his father have just been taken to Gleiwitz which is this concentration camp and theyre shoved into these barracks (to go to sleep) and it's so crowded that they have to walk on people and no one's screaming or making noise or anything and people are walking on them and it's awful and there's no room to breathe and things. ehh i think there might be more to this passage than i thought. uhm. anyway....
"My father and I were thrown to the ground by this rolling tide. Beneath our feet someone let out a rattling cry: 'You're crushing me... mercy!' A voice that was not unknown to me
'You're crushing me... mercy! mercy!' The same faint voice, the same rattle, heard somewhere before. That voice had spoken to me one day. Where? When? Years ago? No, it could only have been at the camp.
'Mercy!' I felt that I was crushing him. I was stopping his breath. I wanted to get up. I struggled to disengage myself, so that he could breathe. But I was crushed myself beneath the weight of other bodies. I could hardly breathe. I dug my nails into unknown faces. I was biting all round me, in order to get air. No one cried out.
Suddenly I remembered. Juliek! The boy from Warsaw who played the violin in the band at Buna...
'Juliek, is it you?'
'Eliezer... the twenty-five strokes of the whip. Yes... I remember.' [elie got beaten at buna] He was silent. A long moment elapsed.
'Juliek! Can you hear me, Juliek?'
'Yes...' he said in a feeble voice. 'What do you want?'
He was not dead.
'How do you feel, Juliek?' I asked, less to know the answer than to hear that he could speak, that he was alive.
'All right, Eliezer... I'm getting on all right... hardly any air... worn out. My feet are swollen. It's good to rest, but my violin..." I thought he had gone out of his mind. What use was the violin here?
'What, your violin?' He gasped.
'I'm afraid... I'm afraid... that they'll break my violin... I've brought it with me.' I could not answer him. Someone was lying full length on top of me, covering my face. I was unable to breathe, through either mouth or nose. Sweat beaded my brow, ran down my spine. This was the end––the end of the road. A silent death, suffocation. No way of crying out, of calling for help.
I tried to get rid of my invisible assassin. My whole will to live was centered on my nails. I scratched. I battled for a mouthful of air. I tore at decaying flesh which did not respond. I could not free myself from this wass weighing down my chest. Was it a dead man I was struggling against? Who knows?
I shall never know. All I can say is that I won. I succeeded in digging a hole through this wall of dying people, a little hole through which I could drink in a small quantity of air.
'Father, how are you?' I asked, as soon as I could utter a word. I knew he could not be that far from me.
'Well!' answered a distant voice, which seeemed to come from another world. I tried to sleep. He tried to sleep. Was he right or wrong? Could one sleep here? Was it not dangerous to allow your vigilance to fail, even for a moment, when at any moment, when at any minute death could pounce upon you?
I was thinking of this when I heard the sound of a violin. The sound of a violin, in this dark shed, where the dead were heaped on the living. What madman could be playing the violin here, at the brink of his own grave? Or was it really an hallucination?
It must have been Juliek.
He played a fragment from Beethoven's concerto. I had never heard sounds so pure. In such a silence.
How had he managed to free himself? To draw his body from under mine without my being aware of it?
It was pitch dark. I could hear only the violin, and it was as thought Juliek's soul were the bow. He was playing his life. The whole of his life was gliding on the strings–– his lost hopes, his charred past, his extinguished future. He played as he would never play again.
I shall never forget Juliek. How could I forget that concert, given to an audience of dying and dead men! To this day, whenever I hear Beethoven played my eyes close and out of the dark rises the sad, pale face of my Polish friend, as he said farewell on his violin to an audience of dying men.
I do not know for how long he played. I was overcome by sleep. When I awoke, in the daylight, I could seek Juliek, opposite me, slumped over, dead. Near him lay his violin, smashed, trampled, a strange overwhelming little corpse."
i just don't know what i'm gonna do for my biography report (due monday) x_x... and i still havent turned in this project that was due an eternity ago because i keep forgetting about it when we get to class. as we are studying the odyssey in a very odd way and it consumes my entire attention, also as i am eating many cheesy popcorn bits.
ok this is what i found to be the saddest part of the whole damned book. i'm sure it wont seem as sad now, without having read everything before it, but it was the only part that made me teary-eyed. the main character (eliezer) and his father have just been taken to Gleiwitz which is this concentration camp and theyre shoved into these barracks (to go to sleep) and it's so crowded that they have to walk on people and no one's screaming or making noise or anything and people are walking on them and it's awful and there's no room to breathe and things. ehh i think there might be more to this passage than i thought. uhm. anyway....
"My father and I were thrown to the ground by this rolling tide. Beneath our feet someone let out a rattling cry: 'You're crushing me... mercy!' A voice that was not unknown to me
'You're crushing me... mercy! mercy!' The same faint voice, the same rattle, heard somewhere before. That voice had spoken to me one day. Where? When? Years ago? No, it could only have been at the camp.
'Mercy!' I felt that I was crushing him. I was stopping his breath. I wanted to get up. I struggled to disengage myself, so that he could breathe. But I was crushed myself beneath the weight of other bodies. I could hardly breathe. I dug my nails into unknown faces. I was biting all round me, in order to get air. No one cried out.
Suddenly I remembered. Juliek! The boy from Warsaw who played the violin in the band at Buna...
'Juliek, is it you?'
'Eliezer... the twenty-five strokes of the whip. Yes... I remember.' [elie got beaten at buna] He was silent. A long moment elapsed.
'Juliek! Can you hear me, Juliek?'
'Yes...' he said in a feeble voice. 'What do you want?'
He was not dead.
'How do you feel, Juliek?' I asked, less to know the answer than to hear that he could speak, that he was alive.
'All right, Eliezer... I'm getting on all right... hardly any air... worn out. My feet are swollen. It's good to rest, but my violin..." I thought he had gone out of his mind. What use was the violin here?
'What, your violin?' He gasped.
'I'm afraid... I'm afraid... that they'll break my violin... I've brought it with me.' I could not answer him. Someone was lying full length on top of me, covering my face. I was unable to breathe, through either mouth or nose. Sweat beaded my brow, ran down my spine. This was the end––the end of the road. A silent death, suffocation. No way of crying out, of calling for help.
I tried to get rid of my invisible assassin. My whole will to live was centered on my nails. I scratched. I battled for a mouthful of air. I tore at decaying flesh which did not respond. I could not free myself from this wass weighing down my chest. Was it a dead man I was struggling against? Who knows?
I shall never know. All I can say is that I won. I succeeded in digging a hole through this wall of dying people, a little hole through which I could drink in a small quantity of air.
'Father, how are you?' I asked, as soon as I could utter a word. I knew he could not be that far from me.
'Well!' answered a distant voice, which seeemed to come from another world. I tried to sleep. He tried to sleep. Was he right or wrong? Could one sleep here? Was it not dangerous to allow your vigilance to fail, even for a moment, when at any moment, when at any minute death could pounce upon you?
I was thinking of this when I heard the sound of a violin. The sound of a violin, in this dark shed, where the dead were heaped on the living. What madman could be playing the violin here, at the brink of his own grave? Or was it really an hallucination?
It must have been Juliek.
He played a fragment from Beethoven's concerto. I had never heard sounds so pure. In such a silence.
How had he managed to free himself? To draw his body from under mine without my being aware of it?
It was pitch dark. I could hear only the violin, and it was as thought Juliek's soul were the bow. He was playing his life. The whole of his life was gliding on the strings–– his lost hopes, his charred past, his extinguished future. He played as he would never play again.
I shall never forget Juliek. How could I forget that concert, given to an audience of dying and dead men! To this day, whenever I hear Beethoven played my eyes close and out of the dark rises the sad, pale face of my Polish friend, as he said farewell on his violin to an audience of dying men.
I do not know for how long he played. I was overcome by sleep. When I awoke, in the daylight, I could seek Juliek, opposite me, slumped over, dead. Near him lay his violin, smashed, trampled, a strange overwhelming little corpse."
i just don't know what i'm gonna do for my biography report (due monday) x_x... and i still havent turned in this project that was due an eternity ago because i keep forgetting about it when we get to class. as we are studying the odyssey in a very odd way and it consumes my entire attention, also as i am eating many cheesy popcorn bits.
Wednesday, November 28, 2001
yeah so i was in jackson, mississippi visiting my grandparents for a few days over thanksgiving break. and uhm i am going to post on the travel blog about it so yeah. laylee is mad because i dont post gahahah. i saw harry potter on friday, as i was manually forced into the damn theatre (betrayed by my family!) and it was godawful. and i bought 'dummy' by portishead and 'the bends' by radiohead and it was Big Fat Head Day. morgan did some more sketches for her Innocent Vegas Showgirl theme (thats what shes calling it, go complain to her) and theyre all gorgeous let me tell you.
Tuesday, November 27, 2001
Thursday, November 22, 2001
Wednesday, November 21, 2001
Laylee2000:i just got a direct hit on a bug ! ewwwww i squished it riiiiiight there w/the middle of my hand and it STUCK to my haaaand and ewwwwwww ewwwwwww ewwwwwwwwwwww its AFJSLDfkj gross. i dont like dead bugs. or live ones for that matter
A mere Statistic: ::smashs a laylee with the middle of his hand::
A mere Statistic: ::sticks::
A mere Statistic: ewwwwwwwwwww ewwwwwwwwww
A mere Statistic: ::smashs a laylee with the middle of his hand::
A mere Statistic: ::sticks::
A mere Statistic: ewwwwwwwwwww ewwwwwwwwww
Tuesday, November 20, 2001
BRITTANY IS A SNOOD BITCH! I SWEAR!
Atea Diosa: OH OH OH YOU CHEAT
Atea Diosa: damn snood
do you dare addict yourself?! SNOOD ON!!
kat09987:Anyways, that gave me an idea for the CLUE extra credit thing....we could go tou lots of diff. movie places [dressed up really really weirdly] and hang outs in diff parts of town and see how the reactions differ
aLittleStarlight:ghaha what would that do
kat09987:I guess it would be a bit ..... I dunno... steryotypical,
kat09987:It would be extrememly interesting
aLittleStarlight:yeah it would
aLittleStarlight:and then we would get shot
aLittleStarlight:the end
kat09987:It would be so cool...
aLittleStarlight:ghaha what would that do
kat09987:I guess it would be a bit ..... I dunno... steryotypical,
kat09987:It would be extrememly interesting
aLittleStarlight:yeah it would
aLittleStarlight:and then we would get shot
aLittleStarlight:the end
kat09987:It would be so cool...
aahaah i just took the blogaholic quiz again and somehow managed to get 48% instead of 32... x_x have i changed so much in the past few days? or did i just learn what a meme was? hmm....
Monday, November 19, 2001
ok it's called "Vidrar Vel" and it's by this icelandic band and good lord it is beautiful please go watch the video at mtv.com
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Moderate |
| Schizoid: | Moderate |
| Schizotypal: | Very High |
| Antisocial: | Moderate |
| Borderline: | Moderate |
| Histrionic: | Low |
| Narcissistic: | Low |
| Avoidant: | High |
| Dependent: | High |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Moderate |
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