last night i accidentally dozed off doing my history homework. luckily it was a somewhat light sleep, since i had the light on and everything i guess. and i wasn't prepared for sleep which effects it, i think. anyway. i had THE most beautiful dream. it was night time and everything was rainy and becca was at my house. she had the back door open, and called me over. i looked outside and there were these two gorgeous flamingoes parading through my backyard. they had this sort of pale glow in the middle of the night and the rain. oh it was beautiful. then i (thank god) woke up at 4am, did my history outline, and went back to sleep. morgan woke me up and got me pants and gave me candy earlier this morning. she is the sweetest thing.
today is going to be awful, but i found my favorite bra. woo!

HAHAHAH dear god
this will make your day i swear to god:

FUNTASTIC FUNK

just got off the phone with brock. i was doing pretty well with my history shit. i was the little engine that could. mostly because i had a goal: "when i finish this part, i am going to call brock and ask him what we're doing tomorrow!" so i did that, and we ended up listening to the whole throwing muses album over the phone. i really need to get some focus and get a life. talking to brock is always brilliant. i hate that he doesn't have a computer and his blog anymore, but the fact that it means we end up on the phone for huge portions of hte night makes me really happy. i just wish there was something productive i could pretend to do while we talked. like tonight, we listened to limbo, i babbled and recited my favorite lines, and he drew sketches for art. we also did some nice talking, of course. i love that boy. quoth katherine, "oh god. you are so lovely together." i need to stop calling him 'that boy' and shit though because i think 'boy' bothers him. it makes me wish he was violent.
today i had a stupid history test after school that i had to take because i didn't participate in the class discussion over hte chapter. i'm really ret@rd*d. i just hate how sickly stupid it is that i have this huge inability to talk like that. i don't know why. it makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. i should be able to scream, you know?
but laylee sent me a happy love sucker via margaret, as good luck and encouragement and laylee love in sucker form. it made my day ten times better. plus katherine w cut margaret's hair and it's very cute. i hope she likes it.
i think me and katherine d are gonna be up all night. and isn't it nice?

WAGGHHHHH THEY CAHNGED SOME TOUR DATES FOR BONFIRE MADIGAN AND NOW TEY ARE LPLAYING IN NASHVIELLE AHGOIEEOAHGOEAOGHEHOAGPHWEOH BROCK BROCK WHERE ARE YOU

me: man my mom is making me look at colleges
me: this is scary
margaret: just scream "U of M" and walk away

HAHAHA. i love that girl.
no, right now i am living in this beautiful fantasy and me and everyone are all going to go to antioch and oberlin in ohio. yes. you heard me. go watch those damn image slideshows at the antioch site, and you'll understand. oh my god. and bonfire madigan is SO playing there on halloween. so they have good shows. i'm melting.
man this is so cheap and cute, it breaks my heart.
i just like looking at this antioch site because it feels like somewhere i'd actually enjoy, something i could actually do, instead of my huge terrifying-ness and intimidation every time somebody mentions college. so good.

i'm supposed to be at macaroni grill, eating a caesar salad or something, with the latin kids. oh well. who the fuck wants to go to macaroni grill with the latin kids, and eat a damn caesar salad or something? and make stupid latin jokes and draw on the table? not me.
i really like my brandon cds so far.
anyway i'm proud of myself for having already started my homework this evening. i have done english and half of math. go alanna go! usually i am sitting on my ass about now wondering where my toes have gone.

aww katie just called me from her car, driving home from work. we had a nice little 2 minutes and 16 second conversation. how sweet is that? i love katie.

YAYYY I FINALLY GOT BRANDON'S CDS! he got mine like a week ago, and they were a week late. FINALLY i have received:
stereopathetic soul manure by beck
tigermilk by belle and sebastian
babysitters on acid by lunachicks
between here and there by the rx bandits

hahah what a strange little mix of cds. anyway, that's made my day lots better. and running through the sprinklers with brock after school.
the day was okay, simply because it wasn't yesterday. and shit wasn't falling out of the sky. i can't think of anything else exciting, except that i'm hungry so i'm going to go take a shower.

thanks to becky's blog for this one: http://www.bookblog.net/gender/genie.html
i am really quite enjoying this. i'm putting in big posts from a bunch of blogs into here, and i'm sure that this takes away some of the fun for you other bored kids, but for those of you who are too lazy... here you go. and it's still fun to go do it yourself anyway.
they tell me i'm female. they usally get me wrong for these things, how odd. robin, zoe, christie, tarah, and ted link are also female. sallis, katherine, and becca are male.
brock is male with spellcheck, female with typoes.
too much fun for me to have.

bad news: becca can't come over tomorrow
good news: she is going to be at tim's!! bahhh!! i hope all goes well.
middle news: she is coming to record on thursday instead.
shit-ass news: i have a history test thing to do on thursday afternoon, and i hate ms. ervin with passion death.

brock called just as i was about to start my homework, around 7:30 or so. he had decided not to do any more of his work, so we talked until about 9:45. he made my day ten years better. i love that boy. and that is all.

i just came to blog and realized i shouldn't be.
quick today:
it sucked.
i didn't talk in the history discussion, and now i have to do a written test after school on thursday. i would've rather done that to begin with.
i got really depressed after that.

there were a couple good things that happened. allison was in our lunch today, so that was hilarious as always. brock, katherine, and i stayed after school watching "glory" for history extra credit. brock kept playing with the carpet and asking why we were there. katherine and i laughed at the cheesy shots and the terrible score. it's amazing how bad movies are.
also i wrote a not-really-a-poem sorta thing. i haven't written a real poem since sept 17, which, ironically, was the date of our LAST in-class history discussion thingie, which i also did not talk during. however, while that one was written after i died repeatedly and was all about that, this one is not. i wrote it in chemistry this morning, and it's shitty. oh well. i need to shut up and go do my homework.

becca is coming over to record tomorrow!!!

i thought therapy was going to be hell today, and it WASN'T. yayyyy. it went a lot better than i expected, and i actually said some shit that was on my mind, like getting depressed yesterday. i don't know if she understood this one thing i said, which was really important to me that she understand, but it was near the end and mom was in there so i couldn't fix it. either she didn't understand, or she killed my meaning in life. HAHA. how funny would that be?
but she did mention again that she talks to me like one of her adult clients, as opposed to one of her other teenaged ones. and she makes me feel better about some things, so i feel like it's worthwhile that i'm still going. today she said "you're going to hate me when this is all over" which i loved. and every time we have to make another appointment she asks if i want to keep coming back, which is very nice. i make the appointments myself, not like with orthodontists or somebody. i don't know. it's going okay.

listening to: "the big lebowski" on comedy central

yesterday i actually made something of a decent attempt to clean my room. it was insane. you can see the floor. and there's sheets on the bed, too. well, i know I'M impressed.
katie came over just after 4:30, right after i got out of the shower. it was pretty nice timing. i was all wet when we hugged, though hahaha. we sat around for a while and i didn't really know what to say at first. we looked at movie showings, and eventually made plans to see a 7:30 showing of "school of rock" with brock and his brother wesley. unfortunately, brock had gotten sick, so he couldn't come hang out otherwise like i had wanted. so mom dropped off me and katie at last chance, where i got the purple tape by the pixies, and she got interpol due to my recommendation. i'm really glad she liked it because otherwise i would've felt guilty. also, she gave me a tegan and sara album that she didn't like, but i haven't gotten around to listening to it yet. plus i don't know where i've put it. it's probably still on the floor under the newspapers. then we went and ate at pie in the sky. mmmm. i had a beautiful root beer and managed it all the way through the movie, and home again. bravo alanna. i also called katherine and invited her and leah to the movie, because i knew katherine had wanted to see it. i wasn't actually sure i was going to like it, but it was the only thing i wanted to see at paradiso, which is next to brock's house and therefore easier for him to get a ride to.
so katie and i got there first, because my dad must be early for everything. plus he had ordered our tickets online, so we didn't even have to stand in line. instead, we played around like tourists next to the fountain. damn the fact that there's a fountain and fake balconies in that movie theatre. then brock and wesley got there, and ordered food and whatnot. somehow in between there, brock lost his and wesley's tickets and he had to buy some more. i really don't know how that happened. he probably dropped them into his huge ACID beverage and they melted. go figure.
we were somewhat late by the time we got into the theatre. i guess me and katie should've gone ahead and saved seats, because the only place with six seats together was the third row. they got there eventually, and it was really fun getting to wave to them across the theatre and whatnot.
anyway i was very surprised that i liked the movie so much. i usually hate jack black, and it seemed like a dumb concept anyway. but i, yes, i am now every other critic of this movie, liked it, even though i shouldn't have. as everyone has said, it's a formulaic silly little flick that you're not supposed to like but you DO and it's AWESOME and FUN and i recommend it. one of the best parts is that they actually know what they're talking about. there was not one place on the soundtrack that induced me to cringing -- lots of ramones, the clash, and even JONATHAN FUCKING RICHMAN!! (oh you KNOW i danced in my seat. and brock sang with me. it was beautiful, you KNOW it.) not one artist's name was mentioned that made me go "what?! noooo that kid is shit!" in fact, i loved reading the stickers and whatnot all over the movie. finding little names like PATTI SMITH and LUNACHICKS just made me too happy for words. it really wasn't fair.
ANYWAY. after the movie we stood around and talked for a bit. i sang and air-guitared violent femmes all the way outside, and probably got some nasty looks. ah well. i enjoyed myself. mom and dad picked me up and katie, and we went home and listened to our new cds and watched music videos i have downloaded. i showed katie "get up" and "untouchable face" which i think she liked. it was uncanny how much of the real story she got out of elise's video. wow, i was impressed. i guess either we did a good editting job, or katie just had some kind of insight. i don't know, but it was pretty amazing. so we ended up just kind of chillin and talking until 4am or so. it was very very very nice. i love katie.
we woke up and had donuts. mmmmmm. we also watched this absolutely nuts-oid movie called "the hole" which was chinese, if i remember right. it was part of this series of movies that chinese filmmakers did about what the year 2000 was going to be like. in this one, there was this insane epidemic which turned people into human roaches. absolutely nuts. it was longer than it needed to be, i think. but every shot really took its time... like you'd sit there and watch the guy lie there in his underwear for like 3 minutes. it was an interesting movie, at any rate, and the last shot was really really beautiful. so i'm glad we saw it.
then we hung out some more. et cetera. katie went home. i did homework. got depressed. you know the drill. except for the last part of sunday, it was a pretty damn nice weekend.

reading everyone's blog today has depressed me. now i'm thinking about hippos in holes. i don't really have anything else to say right now, but i will definitely blog about what a good weekend i had when i am feeling better. and i need to do some homework anyway.
guys, please be happy for me. someone give me some love.

sorry i didn't blog yesterday, kiddies.
just found a pretty awesome layouts site. it's hosted on the same place that i got this layout, but it's actually a searchable database of lots of different webdesigners. pretty fucking cool, and the layouts aren't half bad. the only problem is that (from what i have seen so far) they're all done in diaryland codes, so if you are a blogger kid, you have to mess with the html more than you might like to. i can help you out though, don't hesitate to ask. wootie woot.
yesterdayyyy i had an evil oral presentation in history. i don't really know how it went, but whitney said i sounded like i knew what i was talking about, and ms. ervin hugged me?? it was fucking nuts. she went at me full-frontal, and i hugged back. i can't even imagine what it looked like. but aside from that, yesterday was pretty nice. the presentation wasn't even that bad.
we also had a pep ralley. i sat next to brock until he left, and also laylee and becca. sitting next to them was funny because we basically just watched seniors that they liked. my friend whitney is a cheerleader ho ho ho and she is hilarious. especially during the pom pom routine, she was EXTREMELY over the top and "cheerleader! woowoo!" and she kept making "EAT DIRT" jokes at me and doing the cow dance. very funny to me.
after school, some kids were supposed to go hang out at lauren henry's house, but we had to go to my house and get the camera first. then lauren's mom drove lauren, lauren's sister sally, alice, brock, allison, and me to el mezcal. i had forgotten my money at home hahahah and just got water. i wasn't that hungry, anyway. i really need to learn to eat. i had had only one cracker all day and didn't eat anything else until like 8:30.
then we went to lauren h's house, and we filmed lots of silly silly things. allison and i sang dictator, but it was definitely not one of our best takes. allison had a guitar for some reason, which was funny, and she added a sort of repeated "go eat some fucking yogurt" thing that happened 3 or so times. but we haven't sang it for a really long time, so the lines were kinda off. i was NOT at my highest energy level, having gone to bed at like 3, and then 1 or so every other night of the week. so i need to learn to sleep, too. but it was great. maybe soon there will be some pictures up on the little random picture thing from there. who knows. it was a really nice night, though. even with my lack of energy, allison and i had a race as two of our favorite parody characters, the blankinship and the dragonkitty respectively. i am not sure who won. but after the race bit, we had something of a fight... i split allison's jeans and her lip. it was really hardcore, but i feel awful about it.
we also watched this old tape of katie robbins' 8th grade birthday party, which was hilarious. all the girls looked exactly the same, and the guys all looked tiny. there was an orgy, and it was hilarious. we also watched allison's tape of an ancient dance recital in which a girl collapses on another girl's head, and it's fucking funny. we ran around the backyard as power rangers and also reenacted the famous whitney's fall from the famous roof. (wow i have talked about 3 whitneys today, this is insane.)
inside, we danced around to this crazy techno-ass songs and it was hella funny. we also did this dance thing of allison's which was too much fun.g whahahe.
everyone had planned on going to the football game, but brock and i got picked up by my mom before that. i really wasn't in the mood, and a football game is no place to hang out with people, to me. surrounded by people you hate. shudder. plus, the battery on my camera was dead by then, and i didn't want to be at the game with no way of filming katherine and the drumline.
brock and i tried to call a few people, but none of them picked up. and everyone else was at the football game ahahaha. it was kind of ironic, i guess. wanting to hang out with people, instead of go to the game, and then that's where everyone else was. ah well. that's life. i'm still glad we didn't go, though. instead, we went to starbucks where a guy had fallen asleep in the drive-thru. it was really funny. i'm glad it was funny because otherwise it would've been bad, if something had happened to him in the driveway and he'd passed out. but he had just dozed off hahaha. mom went and woke him up, she's so nice. also ironic that right now she's talking to me about why she feels terrible as a mother, and how i'm RURNT.
ran into billy while walking to starbucks. luckily we didn't have to talk or anything because we were going opposite directions.
i ended up not even getting anything at starbucks. i figured if we were going to backyard burger to get something to eat, the coffee would clash. i'm so silly. but i'm glad, because i got a CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKE at bb. i love those motherfuckers. then we went by black lodge and rented three movies. when we got home, i showed mom the "here comes your man" video while brock was on the phone with his mom. she kept saying "i love this band! i wish i'd known about them in the 80s! this is a great video!" which made me really happy. imagine if she HAD known about them in the 80s, and i was raised on the pixies. imagine if i had seen them live, as a bouncing babe. man, my whole life would be different. i bet i'd have a band by now.
brock found my report card on the coffee table, and i felt fucking ret@rd*d and ashamed. we put on "pink flamingoes" which only mom had seen before. it was really different from what she remembered, and she said later that she was really emmbarrassed to have rented it for us. i like the fact that they only had one shot for every seen. but that's about it. brock left the room to blog, and mom and i took off that movie and put on "say anything" because john cusack is god. morgan and dad came home from rehearsal, and morgan left like 20 seconds later to spend the night at foot's. then brock's mom came to pick him up. at that point all my energy just swam out into the universe. i nearly fell asleep on the couch. i liked listening to "say anything" though, so i stayed in there. and i intended to go get on the computer, too. at one point i realized mom had gone to bed, and dad had replaced her on the couch next to me. he is THE loudest eater, and was eating these chips really really loudly, so i couldn't hear the movie anymore. i told him 4 times to quit eating so loudly. he didn't.
me: YOU ARE THE LOUDEST EATER!
dad: where are you going?
me: TO BED!!!
it was depressing, but i was really tired anyway, and i really need the sleep. pretty funny that friday was the only night this week i went to bed at a decent hour (11pm).
woke up this morning and was sort of staring at the sun on the bed, when mom brought me the phone. yayy it was katie! she is coming over at 5 to spend the night. i'm really excited. again, anybody have suggestions for something exciting to do?
i also planned to cd-shop with brock today. and the invitation for anybody who would like to hang out with me and katie is still very open.
i need to go to driving school.
here's a shout-out to Anonymous. don't know who you are, and don't really care to.

listening to: a Jane Siberry album my mom is playing in the kitchen

anyone up for rasputina in arkansas/alabama? i am not sure yet which one it is, because they typed the state name as 'AK' which could be a typo for AL or a mistake for AR.
i hope it's arkansas, because that city is closer. dear god how i'd love to see them.
lucky brandon. they are going to new orleans on halloween. that piece of shit better go.

dear god i have no drive

oh my god. fuck missy elliott, "here comes your man" by the pixies is my new all-time favorite music video. the whole thing is entirely campy and hilarious. they wear bright colors and have this stupid little set and these stupid camera angles and these stupid effects. it's the best thing i've ever seen.
the absolute clencher:
as with everything else, pixies blow every other music video out of the water. lip-synching? forget about that shit. no, they don't JUST not do it. they parody the entire stupid lip-synching concept.
frank black sits there and pretends to play his little guitar and hangs his mouth wide open. and that's it, except for closing it at the end of a line.
HAHAHAAHHAAHAHHAHA. AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAH.
same deal with kim (yes that was a pun. god i'm clever.)
everyone go download this video. it's the best thing i've ever experienced.

oral presentations can suck it.
ms. ervin is the world's motherfucker.