i am so insanely jealous

i want to move to canadia.

brittany and katie - thank you for the CDs. you sure didn't have to.

i seem to have lost my poor dead headphone. dad already ate the good ones. dear god.

right now people just really bother me. i don't like them. at all. i am going to end up like aunt ella.
she is actually my great aunt. i think.. something like that. yeah.
anyway aunt ella is my mom's mom's sister. she never got married, you know. it's actually pretty tragic. (she is more lucky than i am in this sense) her.. fiance? i think he was. maybe just boyfriend. anyway the point is he died in WWII and ella never got married. poor thing. anyway now she's living with grandma and papa in their house in remote south georgia.
so the point is i am going to end up like aunt ella, living with morgan and her husband and they'll have this huge mass hilarious family and i will have a terribly bad back and when my great neice hugs me i will fall over and i'll end up a christian addict and give out jesus cards for christmas.
except i won't be like aunt ella at all because she is far far far too sweet and nice and i will be a mean old grouch aunt. and i will never have almost gotten married.

anyway i am just sitting around thinking about the friends i do not have.

agsdhgahhah my mom just called me phyllis.

you know i had a really good talk with her the other day about. oh things. lol. music, yeah. as i said on 'i left my heart', she made me a tape of an older luscious jackson album and we listened to it and talked about it and music and a bunch of friends she has/had who are/were musicians. phyllis knows soooo many people! is that just something that happens when you are a dancer who lives in new york? well not IS a dancer, more WAS a dancer. i love phyllis. i want to be phyllis. and my mom. and ani difranco.

brittany and laylee went to see kate and leopold and apparently it was fucking hilarious. and i just called brittany's house and some strange child answered the phone and said that brittany was at starbucks with laylee. gee they seem to be getting along well....

I'M IN GEORGIA... EVERYONE GO TO THE TRAVEL BLOG

today is "Family Christmas" which means that everyone in my immediate family (sister, father, mother) gives each other presents today. because we're going to Georgia for Real Christmas and that is when santa happens and we give gifts to outer relative types. today is a beautiful day.
mom got the best gifts. morgan gave her this statue of a faery for the garden. it's really beautiful and she was like 'i dont know if i can bear to put it outside!' and dad gave her this alan lee print which is (suppposedly) exactly like the one they saw in england a million years ago and dad refused to buy for her. and mom is always going on about that and how you cant even get them anymore (which she made up because it is a better story) and dad found it for her on ebay and had a long conversation with the guy from the company that sold it to him about the san diego comic con (which is THE comic con) and how he was BRINGING ALAN LEE AND THE FROUDS!!! so dad was like 'we have to go' hence two posts ago.
and dad also gave her this great huge poetry book with three audio CDs of the poets reading their work. it was amazing. and my gift (HORRIBLY anti-climactic) was the 'soul music' terry pratchet dvd which is "a tale of sects, dwarfs and rock 'n' roll". but mom really liked it and she was surprised apparently and she was like 'i'm gonna OD on christmas excitement' and it was funny beans.
dad got three DVDs. ahhagha. mom gave him dogma and morgan gave him crouching tiger, hidden dragon which has "over 100 minutes of deleted scenes" and i find that very cool and i gave him monty python and the holy grail and that has the coolest feature thingies such as "how to use your coconuts properly" and then the knights are legos. gahdslkhga.
and morgan and i's presents were sort of matching as they usually are. i gave her boys for pele by tori amos and a tori poster. she gave me the green world by dar williams (which i dont even remember having said i wanted lol) and the self-titled le tigre album. (SO EXCITING!!! WEE!!!)
and dad gave morgan the plushie Delirium doll (who came with a little fishie) and i got Death which is great and morgan says we look alike? then mom gave morgan little setsuma smelling thingies which is lovely because setsuma is a kind of japanese orange and its lovely and she gave me a vanilla travel candle and vanilla lotion thingies.
oh and now that we're on the subject. brittany gave me a vanilla candle as well (you guys know me too well.) and she gave me a little photo album thing (which i desperately needed) and a bag of recee's (but her brother ate one and i forgive him) and frankenberry (which turns your milk pink.) and i am going now.

brittany and my family and i saw fellowship of the ring on wednesday night. it was great. i intend to write a huge comparison about it to harry potter and why it was so much better and tell you all about BilboDemon.

dad wants us to go to the san diego comic convention next year.

today i am sick and i am staying home. i am also eating cocoa krispies.
so last night chuck zimmer called and talked to dad about the play. katherine dohan as been cast as Silver. my dad is the 'lead terror', morgan is Pink, and i am Green (though i do not feel very green)
it has been decided that pink is a lovely morgan color and that silver is a lovely katherine color and that my father is not a terror.
but apparently "it's called acting"

my granny cracks me up. to death and pieces!!! my dad picked me up from school today and when i was putting my bag in the car i noticed a blockbuster bag.
me: why'd you go to blockbuster
dad: to get granny's present.
me: what is it.
dad: 'princess diaries'
me: why!!
dad: because she didnt get to see it in the theatre and she heard it was good. and it has julie andrews in it.

and i thereby died of laughter.
the end.

last night's band concert went ok

yesterday afternoon, dad, morgan, and i went to theatreworks to 'audition' for their new play Synesthesia. katherine asked me to inform her when the next play would be happening so i did and she came and it was good times. chuck zimmer is directing this one (his first with our own voice, i think) but dad and morgan were like 'how is gonna direct? he never even talks!' and it was funny. so some time in the last month or so when no one was looking he got married to a nice woman named robin. (robyn???) they have nice smiles.
point: 'auditions' consisted of filling out this form. it had question thingies on it like. 'what can you bring to this show' and so i didnt know so katherine wrote on mine 'I can bring happiness to all !! :)' and i scratched out happiness and wrote 'death and pain' and scratched out that and wrote 'cheese' and scratched out the whole thing altogether. and then morgan wrote something about how i can be their guinea pig and i just left it like that. and then i said something about how it would be a new and different experience.
so after that we went upstairs (i didnt even know there was an upstairs except for the little lighting box!!) and its like a dance studio with a mirror wall and the floor and all that.
ok now would be the time to tell you that it's not regular auditions. it's more like. acting exercises and seeing who's interested and telling people what the show is about. right.
so robin had us stand in a circle and bill baker (zak's dad, kimberly's husband) sort of introduced new people such as katherine and tracy, who have not been in OOV shows before. and then he introduced me (and butchered my name) as morgan's sister and dad's daughter so you know. thats kind of the bad thing is that i am eternally a limb. have you noticed? i always seem to be tacked on to someone else's name because i'm not really ever doing anything for myself. and anyway i was basically just going to this audition so that katherine wouldn't be alone and to make my sister happy because it's not really my thing, i guess. actually it might be and i just really don't know. i don't really have a thing. at all. the point is that i went and i was the fifth wheel.
ok so then bill went to sit down next to chuck and they had clipboard things and it was really intimidating the whole time how they were always looking at you, and i guess that was the point, but they would like take notes and gahgalkhd. i mean i know they weren't like 'ok well we shouldnt put HER in this play' but it was like. kind of skary. anyway.
so most of it was exercise things and it involved colors. like robin told us to imagine a color we really really didnt like and imagine a weapon and then we had to go around the room and destroy plants of this horrid color which were all over the place. (my color was orange and i had a rock. morgan had a ruler aghaha.) and let's see i can't remember what else.
at one point they had people read lines for the speaking parts. there's only like. four or so? so most people will be cast as colors, i think. dad and katherine read. dad read the part for this character joel, and good lord it was hilarious. he was like this sci-fi guy and nearly everything he said was quoted from some movie and dad did it really well of course and bill was like smiling to death and pieces which is so funny because he's never smiling to death and pieces.
then we got back into a circle and robin would say a color and we passed the color around the circle by doing some thing that represented it to us. i'm really uncomfortable doing things like that and i dont know if i'm going to be in the show because of that. then we were put into pairs and given a word emotion thing and we had to act it out sort of and tracy and i got 'exasperated' so i was supposed to be like her little sister or something and i wanted everything and she went insane.
morgan and dan are so damn cute.
you remember dan. the one who is getting kicked out of choir for being gay. yes.
this would be a good time to tell you that sarah rushakoff uploaded pictures from ecstatic disco nights to their site thing and they can be attacked here. and i have to go clean out the van.

I MURDERED MY COOKIES!

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Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!
ahhahahah no. this is SO terribly inaccurate. i'm going to take it again. but i do have a cd case/jacket/thing with this picture on it. (it's the one full of ani cds. C-Di) the image is quite cute but i'm getting sick of it.



Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!
phhhhhh now i've got the same one as brittany. and this one is ALSO terribly inaccurate. where the hell is the grouch cat. where is the grail!?



Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHH they just keep getting ... 'better'
less accurate dammit.

anyway it would seem there are only five choices, none of which are me and none of which are grail. i loathe this test.

today was the band concert and it was one of these black dress or skirt/blouse deals. so i didnt have a black dress or any of that. so we went all over and ended up getting this AMAZINGLY COOL skirt at moondance (my favorite place i swear) and i needed black shoes. so mom took me to chinatown imports and i got some little $6 chinese shoes there but theyre rather small, actually...
point: i needed new shoes. and i actually TOLD mom so, which wasnt very smart, let me tell you. the point is we went to oak court mall and mom attacked the shoes and i was like 'nooo' and i made her take me to journeys because its reasonable there. i like it there, sometimes. so the point is we went and i got new black converse shoes (just the same as my old ones) except that theyre kinda... big. i should let you know now i have THE tiniest feet ever. ok maybe not. but they are damn small. and the smallest that anyone has is a 6 and mine are like 5 and a half, usually. or something along those lines. or smaller.
point: i forgot that my old converse shoes were in mens sizes!! and they fit just fiiiine, it was like a 4 or something. so the new ones are going to be large, once i start wearing them around...
point: mom made me try on a million and one pairs of shoes (boots, really) because i wanted some sort of. i was like 'i wish i had some of those big clunky black boots' and then mom was like 'ok' and before i knew it she was asking the evil man at journeys and i went alksdhglashg. i am not going to get into it.
point: i ended up getting clunky black boots and i love them to death.

also, the reason for all these shoes was that today was the varsity band concert (of which i am a part of) it was also the orchestra, jv band, jazz band, choirs' concert. (why is it that there are like four choirs)
did you know that zak baker was in the jazz band.
the jazz band is amazing amazing amazing wondrously good. theyre always the last to perform, as they are the finale and whatnot. and it was discovered and noted by katherine dohan and i that the guitarists and bassists of the jazz band all look the same from the back row of the auditorium when they are all wearing tuxedos and top hats. because they all have fluffy shaggy hair. well actually you can tell patrick (katherine said that was his name? well it's rather suiting. he looks like a damn leprechaun. a tall one, too.) apart from the other ones because his hair is deliriously long. it looks like. crimp n style barbie's: massively blond (dyed, i'm sure) and remotely wavy and as long as jingle bells.
point: he frightens me. A LOT.
another point: he looks very funny in a top hot.
yet another point: zak had hat hair today.
and another: you'll notice that all the guys in jazz band wore their tuxes and hats (and carried their canes) all day long, while the lesser, uncool beings of the other bands/orchestras/choirs, removed theirs.
jazz band members have mass pride. (no one else does) they know they are loved. like beans.
and anyway there are only three girls in the damn jazz band. (i think..... don't quote me!) and one is robin's sister acacia and she is quite cool because i say so.
anyway i have gotten horribly off-topic. it would be best to leave, especially since laylee is IMing me now.

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