Atea Diosa:i have no caffine in my system thats horrble
aLittleStarlight:awww
aLittleStarlight:that is horrible
aLittleStarlight:and here we are with a million six packs of diet drinks
Atea Diosa:i'm so out of it i just poked myself in the eye with toiletpaper

Atea Diosa:i kinda feel like being productive and making websites and just working my ass off tonight
Atea Diosa:brb i gotta pee

do you know how entertaining watching a washing machine can be?
i kept looking up to check it, so as to know when to put the detergent in and see if it was done and so on and so forth... and then i couldnt look back down.
suds are amazing creatures.

morgan and i had to hang out at the laundromat today because it was required in the chores or else i couldnt have brittany over. as things go, brittany didnt want to come over anyway so basically all that happened was that i got a little reading done.

last night the family and i went to davis-kidd for dinner and uhm. a bookie. 0r something. but the point is that i skipped the football game so i didnt have to march about and smash the cymbals. i met someone AGAIN. it seems that everyone was there, as they were having a 20% off sale. this girl... i dont remember how to spell her name.... rikelle??? x_x no idea. the point is that she and her friend were talking and i was looking at books and she was very familiar and she asked me if she knew me and i looked very familiar and i said yeah so do you and did you go to lindenwood? and yeah and she goes to IC also and she told me that the girl, shelia, whom i met on sunday, is not a very nice person even though she still does have good taste in books. so i had. i cant remember. food. at bronte. yes. so uhm. i ended up buying witches and wizards of oberin and black mirror and the hanged man and put me in a deliriously good mood!!! oh and we also got SECRET birthday presents for morgan and i cant tell you what they are yet because its TOTALLY SECRET!!! right-o so i read witches&wizards last night, since its a picture book and all it didnt take so long. i liked it more than i thought i would.

p.s. go email morgan and wish her a happy birthday. i promise i wont let her see it until next saturday, november 3, birthday of a genius.

aLittleStarlight:i'm eating a biscuit
aLittleStarlight:it tastes funny
hoy bofe:maybe you should cook it

do you remember dan from the 'ecstatic disco nights' play thing? i jolly well hope you do because he has come up again. he and christen foehring, who drives me to school every day, are in this christian youth choir thingie which got a new director a couple weeks ago, like right after the play ended. and this new evil choir director woman kicked him out of the choir because he's gay.
i hate people. especially memphians. we really, truly suck. if ever you meet a memphian, run away. as a matter of fact, if you meet any southerner, run away.
the point is that christen and her choir buddies organized this big whole thing with petitions and things and if they dont let him back in the choir, they're gonna drop out. more development on this later, if i remember to ask christen.

I SURE DO LOVE DELUDED PRINCESS OH MY GOD AND THEYRE SUCH HOT ASS PUNKS YOU KNOW THEY ARE AND THEIR SCREECHING WAILING MUSIC IS THE MOST INSPIRATIONAL SHIT I HAVE EVER HEARD IN MY LIFE OH MY GOD I GOT KICKED OUT OF NEW DAISY THEATRE FOR ALL FUCKING ETERNITY BECAUSE I ATTACKED THE BAND DONT THEY KNOW WHAT GRATITUTE IS...... ????? PLEASE HELP ME SNEAK IN I LOVE THEM I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STAND IT IF I GO ANOTHER .6769234086 SECONDS WITHOUT HEARING THEM OH MY GOD

the new cranberries album came out two days ago. i want it.

aLittleStarlight:she was wearing a switchblade symphony shirt
Atea Diosa:yes she was
aLittleStarlight:that says a lot about a person
aLittleStarlight:besdies that they look like the potato famine

once upon a time i was at borders and this girl picked up troy by adele geras and i says to her i says 'thats a really great author' and she looked at me kinda funny and read the blurb and put it back and i was like, in my head anyway, 'your loss!' but i tried again on sunday there was another girl in the YA section at borders standing in the exact same spot, holding into the cold fire by lynne ewing and she picked up on the bright side i'm now the girlfriend of a sex god by louise rennison and anyway so i says to this girl i says 'thats a really funny author' and she actually SAID something, and as it just so happens, i can't remember what it was so i told her that it was the sequel and she goes 'yeah something about.... thongs?' and i went 'yes thats the one!' or something dumber but then we sort of turned back to our own respective shelves and she asked me a few moments later if i had read any klause and i went yes! yes! and we talked about her for a minute but she hasnt read alien secrets and then we walked around and i recommended things and she pointed out things and i went 'oh i've read that' repeatedly and we actually ended up talking about daughters of the moon for a few moments too. then on display there was a little sign that said something like... 'with a twist of the supernatural' and shattered mirror by amelia atwater-rhodes and echo by francesca lia block and witches and wizards of oberin by suza scalora were on display which REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bothered me. a whole fucking lot. i cannot express how much that bothered me. go read the books, theyre all really short and suza scalora's are all photography books, so seriously just go read them and then tell me if that display name does not seriously bother you as well. anyway. the girl, shelia was her name, told me she had actually been looking for suza scalora's first book the fairies which is mighty good and brittany says she likes the pictures in that one better than the new one, but as i have only examined the new one once, and flipped through it on another occasion, i really can't tell yet. so as it wasnt with the new scalora books, which are in the YA section(?!?!?!) we looked in the picture books and couldnt find it so i would have suggested sci-fi/fantasy but her mother came and whisked her away. but it was nice to recommend things to people even if they wont remember. and even if they do go to IC.

Atea Diosa:you remember the pad i put in laylees note
Atea Diosa:turns out she NEEDED IT.
Atea Diosa:o.o

Laylee2000:omg my brother wsa in here helping me a minute ago and omg!
Laylee2000:he was like talking about these paintings and then out of the blue he goes have you ever smoked pot?
Laylee2000:an di was like *b=smile smily* no
aLittleStarlight:brittany says your brother is a drug dealer
Laylee2000:HES NOT A FUCKING DRUG DEALER
aLittleStarlight:SUUUUUUURE
Laylee2000:i hate nothign more than when people talk about my fucking brother
aLittleStarlight:whyd he ask you taht
Laylee2000:beacuse
Laylee2000:and then he was like kyle does
Laylee2000:and i was like yeah i know
Laylee2000:and yeah
Laylee2000:and then he was like so do i
Laylee2000:and i was lieK YEAH I KNOW!
Laylee2000:hahahahah
Laylee2000:it was really funny
aLittleStarlight:yes it was
Laylee2000:and then he was like all uhmmm haws kyle ever tried to get u to try it? or asked if you wanted to?
Laylee2000:and i waslike no not really he said i was too young
Laylee2000:and then he was lek what you WAnt to?! and i was liek no
Laylee2000:it was hiarious
Laylee2000:and WRONG
Laylee2000:lol!
Laylee2000:i hope to god u go blog and mention me

why is doy dead. i'm hungry. i am going to go and study for latin/read wuthering heights/fail everything anyway.
wish me luck or something.

i keep laughing randomly for no reason today.
i like it.

i am far too hungry.

i am home from school again. i'm supposed to be working on this book report that's due tomorrow. i'm gonna go listen to tori now.

Love Song For the Drummer by Dot Antoniades

He was chocolatemahoganybrownbrickred
several shades of Indian earth blended
no lines
creaseless
Symmetry danced in his veins
my inner sonata silenced
I became 1 movement
fluid
blushing beige at the thought of him in his boyhood
palms down
panting the vulnerability out of me
vulgar ability I have
to fantasize myself into his country
without knowing anything except
percussion turns me on
But it wasn’t about him
it was the song
La musica beating me ceaseless
senseless

I am young
so young
yet
have old eyes
a stolen soul
I steal souls
but viscerally speaking
my tummy doesn’t tumblesaul when I see him
But when I hear him
my spirit sambas uncontrollably
as if La Mariachi
were plucking steel
string
sinews inside me
Barely breathing
percussion rushing thru me
I could see nothing
I was surrounded by sound
panties stained a deeper shade of clay
as the rhythm made its home between my legs
hatching sunsets
a warmth only I was aware of

His spirit:  soft blunted blade
entering through my exit
I thought I had been spade
reinvented manmade
Music
I want you to lay
in the soft shell cave of my thighs
fill the echoes
make me come legato
because my poems have been plosive
too macho
Raise me 12 notes higher
sweaty palms ride me bareback
give phoenix her flames back
fan the silent valley under her wings
let her sing
until they cut out her tongue
or
the nightingale gets jealous
Wake Calliope
There’s salsa on the glossy cedar dance floor
now that I’ve drank the last drop I want more

I want to know
how bodies moved
in the first shadow of night
before the lights came on
and we saw
and were shamed
cos we felt so good
for our own sake
I want musica keeping my shoulders strong
womb thumping birth of bass
immaculate
no blueprint
to the submission into mass movement
I do not want to merely reflect
He was musician
I was nothing but me listening
trying to tear the atmosphere desperately
because gravity distracts me
keeps me from myself
I swore his eyes were not jewels.
They were dark
rich like chocolate
bigger than Guatemala
They knew things I wanted to know

That night I believed
I believed
Religion escaped me
faith became me
Alone
I dropped to my knees
humbled
and samba’d myself to sleep


© 1999 Dot Antoniades.

i am home sick today. yes indeed i am. i dont feel very good and i should be reading 'wuthering heights' right now but i am really really not in the mood. i should maybe eat something. my fingers are cold. i was making a patti smith tape for brittany and i intended to finish but mom put all the records someplace i dont know. so i found a lene lovitch record and listened to a couple of her songs because mom is always saying that she sounds like people i listen to today even though the album came out in 79 and i discovered shes the one who sings 'i think we're alone now'
btw the picture is of kim gordon from sonic youth. if its the purple one with the quote about joni mitchell i suggest you refresh the page because i like the red and orange ones better.
p.s. i added two new mp3s yesterday but be careful because sometimes they do not like to cooperate.

put rockstar shut-me-ups on your own page!

except not really because she's not dead!! again, the point of this quiz was really dumb but i liked taking it just because i did. and morgan and brittany got her too. so we were ALL this woman who is not dead yet.
after you take the test, it says:: "You were Adalita Srsen in a past life! Music is in your blood and you love nothing more than to be onstage in a small club with an appreciative crowd pumping out music in true punk-rock style. You love supporting causes you feel strongly about, which reflects in your songwriting. You also have a huge soft spot for our furry friends!"
about adalita it says:: "Being the female guitarist, lyricist and sultry lead singer in Australian band Magic Dirt, has elevated Adalita (her last name was Srsen but she has dropped it) to cult status within Australia.Magic Dirt were formed in Geelong, Victoria in 1992. ....live shows saw Adalita belting out riffs on the guitar with passion and intensity. In 1995 Magic Dirt supported Hole at some of the shows during their Australian tour, which gained the band more popularity. In 2001 Magic Dirt are touring to promote their new album "What Are Rockstars Doing Today?" Aside from being a great guitarist and a role model for guitar-playing girls all over Australia, Adalita is also a strong supporter of animal rights and is a member of the World Society of the Protection of Animals. She has also been involved in petitions against animal cruelty."
and the point is that magic dirt is a very cool band according to brittany.
i have not had the privilege of hearing them yet.