once upon a time i was at borders and this girl picked up troy by adele geras and i says to her i says 'thats a really great author' and she looked at me kinda funny and read the blurb and put it back and i was like, in my head anyway, 'your loss!' but i tried again on sunday there was another girl in the YA section at borders standing in the exact same spot, holding into the cold fire by lynne ewing and she picked up on the bright side i'm now the girlfriend of a sex god by louise rennison and anyway so i says to this girl i says 'thats a really funny author' and she actually SAID something, and as it just so happens, i can't remember what it was so i told her that it was the sequel and she goes 'yeah something about.... thongs?' and i went 'yes thats the one!' or something dumber but then we sort of turned back to our own respective shelves and she asked me a few moments later if i had read any klause and i went yes! yes! and we talked about her for a minute but she hasnt read alien secrets and then we walked around and i recommended things and she pointed out things and i went 'oh i've read that' repeatedly and we actually ended up talking about daughters of the moon for a few moments too. then on display there was a little sign that said something like... 'with a twist of the supernatural' and shattered mirror by amelia atwater-rhodes and echo by francesca lia block and witches and wizards of oberin by suza scalora were on display which REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bothered me. a whole fucking lot. i cannot express how much that bothered me. go read the books, theyre all really short and suza scalora's are all photography books, so seriously just go read them and then tell me if that display name does not seriously bother you as well. anyway. the girl, shelia was her name, told me she had actually been looking for suza scalora's first book the fairies which is mighty good and brittany says she likes the pictures in that one better than the new one, but as i have only examined the new one once, and flipped through it on another occasion, i really can't tell yet. so as it wasnt with the new scalora books, which are in the YA section(?!?!?!) we looked in the picture books and couldnt find it so i would have suggested sci-fi/fantasy but her mother came and whisked her away. but it was nice to recommend things to people even if they wont remember. and even if they do go to IC.

Atea Diosa:you remember the pad i put in laylees note
Atea Diosa:turns out she NEEDED IT.
Atea Diosa:o.o

Laylee2000:omg my brother wsa in here helping me a minute ago and omg!
Laylee2000:he was like talking about these paintings and then out of the blue he goes have you ever smoked pot?
Laylee2000:an di was like *b=smile smily* no
aLittleStarlight:brittany says your brother is a drug dealer
Laylee2000:HES NOT A FUCKING DRUG DEALER
aLittleStarlight:SUUUUUUURE
Laylee2000:i hate nothign more than when people talk about my fucking brother
aLittleStarlight:whyd he ask you taht
Laylee2000:beacuse
Laylee2000:and then he was like kyle does
Laylee2000:and i was like yeah i know
Laylee2000:and yeah
Laylee2000:and then he was like so do i
Laylee2000:and i was lieK YEAH I KNOW!
Laylee2000:hahahahah
Laylee2000:it was really funny
aLittleStarlight:yes it was
Laylee2000:and then he was like all uhmmm haws kyle ever tried to get u to try it? or asked if you wanted to?
Laylee2000:and i waslike no not really he said i was too young
Laylee2000:and then he was lek what you WAnt to?! and i was liek no
Laylee2000:it was hiarious
Laylee2000:and WRONG
Laylee2000:lol!
Laylee2000:i hope to god u go blog and mention me

why is doy dead. i'm hungry. i am going to go and study for latin/read wuthering heights/fail everything anyway.
wish me luck or something.

i keep laughing randomly for no reason today.
i like it.

i am far too hungry.

i am home from school again. i'm supposed to be working on this book report that's due tomorrow. i'm gonna go listen to tori now.

Love Song For the Drummer by Dot Antoniades

He was chocolatemahoganybrownbrickred
several shades of Indian earth blended
no lines
creaseless
Symmetry danced in his veins
my inner sonata silenced
I became 1 movement
fluid
blushing beige at the thought of him in his boyhood
palms down
panting the vulnerability out of me
vulgar ability I have
to fantasize myself into his country
without knowing anything except
percussion turns me on
But it wasn’t about him
it was the song
La musica beating me ceaseless
senseless

I am young
so young
yet
have old eyes
a stolen soul
I steal souls
but viscerally speaking
my tummy doesn’t tumblesaul when I see him
But when I hear him
my spirit sambas uncontrollably
as if La Mariachi
were plucking steel
string
sinews inside me
Barely breathing
percussion rushing thru me
I could see nothing
I was surrounded by sound
panties stained a deeper shade of clay
as the rhythm made its home between my legs
hatching sunsets
a warmth only I was aware of

His spirit:  soft blunted blade
entering through my exit
I thought I had been spade
reinvented manmade
Music
I want you to lay
in the soft shell cave of my thighs
fill the echoes
make me come legato
because my poems have been plosive
too macho
Raise me 12 notes higher
sweaty palms ride me bareback
give phoenix her flames back
fan the silent valley under her wings
let her sing
until they cut out her tongue
or
the nightingale gets jealous
Wake Calliope
There’s salsa on the glossy cedar dance floor
now that I’ve drank the last drop I want more

I want to know
how bodies moved
in the first shadow of night
before the lights came on
and we saw
and were shamed
cos we felt so good
for our own sake
I want musica keeping my shoulders strong
womb thumping birth of bass
immaculate
no blueprint
to the submission into mass movement
I do not want to merely reflect
He was musician
I was nothing but me listening
trying to tear the atmosphere desperately
because gravity distracts me
keeps me from myself
I swore his eyes were not jewels.
They were dark
rich like chocolate
bigger than Guatemala
They knew things I wanted to know

That night I believed
I believed
Religion escaped me
faith became me
Alone
I dropped to my knees
humbled
and samba’d myself to sleep


© 1999 Dot Antoniades.

i am home sick today. yes indeed i am. i dont feel very good and i should be reading 'wuthering heights' right now but i am really really not in the mood. i should maybe eat something. my fingers are cold. i was making a patti smith tape for brittany and i intended to finish but mom put all the records someplace i dont know. so i found a lene lovitch record and listened to a couple of her songs because mom is always saying that she sounds like people i listen to today even though the album came out in 79 and i discovered shes the one who sings 'i think we're alone now'
btw the picture is of kim gordon from sonic youth. if its the purple one with the quote about joni mitchell i suggest you refresh the page because i like the red and orange ones better.
p.s. i added two new mp3s yesterday but be careful because sometimes they do not like to cooperate.

put rockstar shut-me-ups on your own page!

except not really because she's not dead!! again, the point of this quiz was really dumb but i liked taking it just because i did. and morgan and brittany got her too. so we were ALL this woman who is not dead yet.
after you take the test, it says:: "You were Adalita Srsen in a past life! Music is in your blood and you love nothing more than to be onstage in a small club with an appreciative crowd pumping out music in true punk-rock style. You love supporting causes you feel strongly about, which reflects in your songwriting. You also have a huge soft spot for our furry friends!"
about adalita it says:: "Being the female guitarist, lyricist and sultry lead singer in Australian band Magic Dirt, has elevated Adalita (her last name was Srsen but she has dropped it) to cult status within Australia.Magic Dirt were formed in Geelong, Victoria in 1992. ....live shows saw Adalita belting out riffs on the guitar with passion and intensity. In 1995 Magic Dirt supported Hole at some of the shows during their Australian tour, which gained the band more popularity. In 2001 Magic Dirt are touring to promote their new album "What Are Rockstars Doing Today?" Aside from being a great guitarist and a role model for guitar-playing girls all over Australia, Adalita is also a strong supporter of animal rights and is a member of the World Society of the Protection of Animals. She has also been involved in petitions against animal cruelty."
and the point is that magic dirt is a very cool band according to brittany.
i have not had the privilege of hearing them yet.

god damn. bloggerbot signed off again. well i dont blame it, with a warn of 96% and all. but it's highly annoying. so this weekend.
i guess no one knew but morgan and dad were in a play. actually i haven't had a chance to say anything about the plays they've been in, considering this is their first one of the season and the first one since my blog began. i don't really think i've taken the time to say ANYTHING about it which is really very rude of me. let me try to think of something important to say.
.......
once upon a time a year ago my sister and i were manually and brutally forced to attend this thing one saturday called COMMON GROUND. yes so there we met people. namely. zak (who i discovered goes to my school) and zoë (who i was paired up with when i wasnt allowed to pair with morgan because kimberly instructor lady knows us). yes so the point is i was terrified at the idea of COMMON GROUND, but morgan was very. not. right so i ceased showing up but she kept going. and then she got dad to go to the adult one. which i think he highly enjoyed. suddenly i can't remember much of what the actual COMMON GROUND play was like but thats ok for the moment i'm thinking. i remember that. khy said 'i am chocolate' and i liked that part. so they reeealllly liked doing it, my family did and i really liked watching them. i think i went to the show once or twice, and one time i sat with christen foehring and her friends next to a fellow named... Dan. (please remember that for later) the point is that it was a nice show and they really enjoyed it and so when it came time for auditions for the troupe's next show which was called 'ephemera' in which dad played a very important role, as the 'audience'. it was a play within a play so like he and sarah played the audience for this other play. and it was all the regulars. the troupe, our own voice. and i met all these wonderfully cool people in the troupe such as sarah, khy, john, sonja, alex, claire, melody, randy, chuck, bill, andy, bennett, oh my god the list goes on forever! so after 'common ground' and 'ephemera' there was... 'experimental movement' which is hte first one brittany saw. and then 'santa claus/spurt of blood' which was two different plays. and brittany helped me pass out programs on that one and the last day of it i had to watch the house which means taking up money and getting people drinks and programs and things. oh and somewhere along the line morgan and dad were made an official part of the troupe but not liek with a date or anything. suddenly they were just. in. and morgan told me all about everyone and it was really personal i think for me. almost like actually being in the show without the awkward acting bit. and then theres the dancing of course. which brings me round to the latest (first) show, of the new season, signifying morgan and dad's one year alliance with the company. indeed. so this show was a 'play' which is what everyone in the damn thing was calling it even though someone there described it as. uhm.... a 'disco musical.' there was no dialogue except for the small portion of dj talk between songs, written by randy who is mentally ill so it was amazingly cool sounding and only parts of it made sense. everyone had characters but we didnt really know much about them and we just had to make things up about them from their style of dancing and things. i think it really had to do with expression through dance of course. yeah so my dad and this guy john had characters based on steve martin and dan akryod's characters in some early snl episodes. you know. the czechoslovakian brothers. the two wild and crazy brothers. you remember them. i know you do. don't deny it. bitch. yeah so that was my dad and john. they were great. GREAT. and dad makes THE funniest faces whilst he dances. we cracked up through the whole damn thing. and these gay guys brad and dan were in it with zak as the uh. boy band. (justin, nick, and nigel) BOYS IN THE SINK!! alkhsdglkha they were hilarious and they had these great outrageous costumes. we screamed for them during their solo dance thingie. and saturday (last night) brittany made posters and we held them up and screamed and ohhh my god it was the best. morgan is the most adorable thing alive. i can't think of anything more to say and i'm very very very tired so goodnight all youse guys out there in blogland. or something.

alanna: *asks morgan an opinionated question*
morgan: *gives a random answer*
alanna: seriously?
morgan: no. i'm just guessing.

i'm now composing a post about the play. please be patient with me. it's in the process of being completed.

anyway where was i on the hair story. oh right. so uhm i was sitting there after my hair was done while mom got hers hacked away and i looked at these ancient hair style book thingies. you know the ones. unless they somehow only exist in memphis.
i have never gotten my hair cut out of town. amazing.
point being that there were many mullets

OH MY GOD I POSTED FROM BLOGGER BOT. THE DAMN FELLOW KEEPS SIGNING OFF

Atea Diosa:give it to me i love it i love it give it to me
Atea Diosa:o_o
aLittleStarlight:do you now

today i got my hair cut. it was raining, as mom loves get her hair cut on a rainy day. even though it doesnt look so nice for as long because you have to go into the rain when you leave. anyway.
the lady who did it was the same lady as last time. (last time= june 14, before we went to san francisco.) so the lady kept telling me that she couldnt believe my hair had grown so much. and then she kept telling me how thick it was and so on and so forth. she hums along to all the songs on the radio and she doesnt make me say much of anything and i like her. she didn't cut it as short as last time and i keep thinking that i look younger than i am.
the lady parted it on the side and put little pins up in it and made it twist around in some terrifying way to keep it out of my eyes. i dont do anything to it usually so after i take it out i dont intend to do anything like that to it again. we're going to peabody place for the first time later, and we're probably gonna see a movie (?)
i want to see if tower records has the new leona naess cd, seeing as no one else does.
i have never been to tower records before.
the point is.
that i will blog later. dad is being a bitch.

leona naess's new album came out yesterday. i didnt post about it then, though, because 1. i didn't really have the time and 2. i didnt even actually think about it and 3. amazon.com didnt even have the picture of the album cover up!
yes so that's quite sad.
i think that this album is gonna be much more poppy than her last one... morgan and i listened to a couple of the songs on her web site and i liked them but i get the feeling that it wont be as good. or maybe that's just because i bought garbage last week and it wasn't as good..... i don't know. bjork was wonderful wonderful so maybe this will be just as wonderful wonderful has her last album. which was truly wonderful wonderful. it's one of the only cds i own that could even be considered for classification under 'pop' even though it's not like.. radio pop i guess. not like sticky sugar-coated terrifying teenybopper pop. its just atmospherical pop. and quite lovely at that. and not all of the songs are even poppish i guess and the lyrics are beautiful. leona naess is a poet.
and i read somewhere that she's also a calvin klein model and that's why they put huge pictures of her face on her albums.
i also read that she refused to do a jeans ad wearing a bra like they wanted her to and instead she wore some huge men's shirt thing.
she's quite cool you know.

well THAT certainly took long enough.
ms. kitts: IT'LL ONLY TAKE THIRTY MINUTES
me: LKASD;GLH;SDhga;sldhg;lahd;gh;SDLHASK;LDG