agsdhgahhah my mom just called me phyllis.

you know i had a really good talk with her the other day about. oh things. lol. music, yeah. as i said on 'i left my heart', she made me a tape of an older luscious jackson album and we listened to it and talked about it and music and a bunch of friends she has/had who are/were musicians. phyllis knows soooo many people! is that just something that happens when you are a dancer who lives in new york? well not IS a dancer, more WAS a dancer. i love phyllis. i want to be phyllis. and my mom. and ani difranco.

brittany and laylee went to see kate and leopold and apparently it was fucking hilarious. and i just called brittany's house and some strange child answered the phone and said that brittany was at starbucks with laylee. gee they seem to be getting along well....

I'M IN GEORGIA... EVERYONE GO TO THE TRAVEL BLOG

today is "Family Christmas" which means that everyone in my immediate family (sister, father, mother) gives each other presents today. because we're going to Georgia for Real Christmas and that is when santa happens and we give gifts to outer relative types. today is a beautiful day.
mom got the best gifts. morgan gave her this statue of a faery for the garden. it's really beautiful and she was like 'i dont know if i can bear to put it outside!' and dad gave her this alan lee print which is (suppposedly) exactly like the one they saw in england a million years ago and dad refused to buy for her. and mom is always going on about that and how you cant even get them anymore (which she made up because it is a better story) and dad found it for her on ebay and had a long conversation with the guy from the company that sold it to him about the san diego comic con (which is THE comic con) and how he was BRINGING ALAN LEE AND THE FROUDS!!! so dad was like 'we have to go' hence two posts ago.
and dad also gave her this great huge poetry book with three audio CDs of the poets reading their work. it was amazing. and my gift (HORRIBLY anti-climactic) was the 'soul music' terry pratchet dvd which is "a tale of sects, dwarfs and rock 'n' roll". but mom really liked it and she was surprised apparently and she was like 'i'm gonna OD on christmas excitement' and it was funny beans.
dad got three DVDs. ahhagha. mom gave him dogma and morgan gave him crouching tiger, hidden dragon which has "over 100 minutes of deleted scenes" and i find that very cool and i gave him monty python and the holy grail and that has the coolest feature thingies such as "how to use your coconuts properly" and then the knights are legos. gahdslkhga.
and morgan and i's presents were sort of matching as they usually are. i gave her boys for pele by tori amos and a tori poster. she gave me the green world by dar williams (which i dont even remember having said i wanted lol) and the self-titled le tigre album. (SO EXCITING!!! WEE!!!)
and dad gave morgan the plushie Delirium doll (who came with a little fishie) and i got Death which is great and morgan says we look alike? then mom gave morgan little setsuma smelling thingies which is lovely because setsuma is a kind of japanese orange and its lovely and she gave me a vanilla travel candle and vanilla lotion thingies.
oh and now that we're on the subject. brittany gave me a vanilla candle as well (you guys know me too well.) and she gave me a little photo album thing (which i desperately needed) and a bag of recee's (but her brother ate one and i forgive him) and frankenberry (which turns your milk pink.) and i am going now.

brittany and my family and i saw fellowship of the ring on wednesday night. it was great. i intend to write a huge comparison about it to harry potter and why it was so much better and tell you all about BilboDemon.

dad wants us to go to the san diego comic convention next year.

today i am sick and i am staying home. i am also eating cocoa krispies.
so last night chuck zimmer called and talked to dad about the play. katherine dohan as been cast as Silver. my dad is the 'lead terror', morgan is Pink, and i am Green (though i do not feel very green)
it has been decided that pink is a lovely morgan color and that silver is a lovely katherine color and that my father is not a terror.
but apparently "it's called acting"

my granny cracks me up. to death and pieces!!! my dad picked me up from school today and when i was putting my bag in the car i noticed a blockbuster bag.
me: why'd you go to blockbuster
dad: to get granny's present.
me: what is it.
dad: 'princess diaries'
me: why!!
dad: because she didnt get to see it in the theatre and she heard it was good. and it has julie andrews in it.

and i thereby died of laughter.
the end.

last night's band concert went ok

yesterday afternoon, dad, morgan, and i went to theatreworks to 'audition' for their new play Synesthesia. katherine asked me to inform her when the next play would be happening so i did and she came and it was good times. chuck zimmer is directing this one (his first with our own voice, i think) but dad and morgan were like 'how is gonna direct? he never even talks!' and it was funny. so some time in the last month or so when no one was looking he got married to a nice woman named robin. (robyn???) they have nice smiles.
point: 'auditions' consisted of filling out this form. it had question thingies on it like. 'what can you bring to this show' and so i didnt know so katherine wrote on mine 'I can bring happiness to all !! :)' and i scratched out happiness and wrote 'death and pain' and scratched out that and wrote 'cheese' and scratched out the whole thing altogether. and then morgan wrote something about how i can be their guinea pig and i just left it like that. and then i said something about how it would be a new and different experience.
so after that we went upstairs (i didnt even know there was an upstairs except for the little lighting box!!) and its like a dance studio with a mirror wall and the floor and all that.
ok now would be the time to tell you that it's not regular auditions. it's more like. acting exercises and seeing who's interested and telling people what the show is about. right.
so robin had us stand in a circle and bill baker (zak's dad, kimberly's husband) sort of introduced new people such as katherine and tracy, who have not been in OOV shows before. and then he introduced me (and butchered my name) as morgan's sister and dad's daughter so you know. thats kind of the bad thing is that i am eternally a limb. have you noticed? i always seem to be tacked on to someone else's name because i'm not really ever doing anything for myself. and anyway i was basically just going to this audition so that katherine wouldn't be alone and to make my sister happy because it's not really my thing, i guess. actually it might be and i just really don't know. i don't really have a thing. at all. the point is that i went and i was the fifth wheel.
ok so then bill went to sit down next to chuck and they had clipboard things and it was really intimidating the whole time how they were always looking at you, and i guess that was the point, but they would like take notes and gahgalkhd. i mean i know they weren't like 'ok well we shouldnt put HER in this play' but it was like. kind of skary. anyway.
so most of it was exercise things and it involved colors. like robin told us to imagine a color we really really didnt like and imagine a weapon and then we had to go around the room and destroy plants of this horrid color which were all over the place. (my color was orange and i had a rock. morgan had a ruler aghaha.) and let's see i can't remember what else.
at one point they had people read lines for the speaking parts. there's only like. four or so? so most people will be cast as colors, i think. dad and katherine read. dad read the part for this character joel, and good lord it was hilarious. he was like this sci-fi guy and nearly everything he said was quoted from some movie and dad did it really well of course and bill was like smiling to death and pieces which is so funny because he's never smiling to death and pieces.
then we got back into a circle and robin would say a color and we passed the color around the circle by doing some thing that represented it to us. i'm really uncomfortable doing things like that and i dont know if i'm going to be in the show because of that. then we were put into pairs and given a word emotion thing and we had to act it out sort of and tracy and i got 'exasperated' so i was supposed to be like her little sister or something and i wanted everything and she went insane.
morgan and dan are so damn cute.
you remember dan. the one who is getting kicked out of choir for being gay. yes.
this would be a good time to tell you that sarah rushakoff uploaded pictures from ecstatic disco nights to their site thing and they can be attacked here. and i have to go clean out the van.

I MURDERED MY COOKIES!

A mere Statistic:::goes to get more mountain dew::
aLittleStarlight:fun day
A mere Statistic:gkdjsaklgjasdklg
A mere Statistic:lol
A mere Statistic:I HATE WHEN I POUR A CUP
A mere Statistic:OF MOUNTAIN DEW
A mere Statistic:AND FUCKING LEAVE IT OUT ON THE TABLE
A mere Statistic:GKJSDAGKJASKLGJKLSJG
A mere Statistic:SDGKLSDJGKJDG
A mere Statistic:GKLJKGJ;SDGJKSLG
A mere Statistic:::runs out to get it::

Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!
ahhahahah no. this is SO terribly inaccurate. i'm going to take it again. but i do have a cd case/jacket/thing with this picture on it. (it's the one full of ani cds. C-Di) the image is quite cute but i'm getting sick of it.



Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!
phhhhhh now i've got the same one as brittany. and this one is ALSO terribly inaccurate. where the hell is the grouch cat. where is the grail!?



Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHH they just keep getting ... 'better'
less accurate dammit.

anyway it would seem there are only five choices, none of which are me and none of which are grail. i loathe this test.

today was the band concert and it was one of these black dress or skirt/blouse deals. so i didnt have a black dress or any of that. so we went all over and ended up getting this AMAZINGLY COOL skirt at moondance (my favorite place i swear) and i needed black shoes. so mom took me to chinatown imports and i got some little $6 chinese shoes there but theyre rather small, actually...
point: i needed new shoes. and i actually TOLD mom so, which wasnt very smart, let me tell you. the point is we went to oak court mall and mom attacked the shoes and i was like 'nooo' and i made her take me to journeys because its reasonable there. i like it there, sometimes. so the point is we went and i got new black converse shoes (just the same as my old ones) except that theyre kinda... big. i should let you know now i have THE tiniest feet ever. ok maybe not. but they are damn small. and the smallest that anyone has is a 6 and mine are like 5 and a half, usually. or something along those lines. or smaller.
point: i forgot that my old converse shoes were in mens sizes!! and they fit just fiiiine, it was like a 4 or something. so the new ones are going to be large, once i start wearing them around...
point: mom made me try on a million and one pairs of shoes (boots, really) because i wanted some sort of. i was like 'i wish i had some of those big clunky black boots' and then mom was like 'ok' and before i knew it she was asking the evil man at journeys and i went alksdhglashg. i am not going to get into it.
point: i ended up getting clunky black boots and i love them to death.

also, the reason for all these shoes was that today was the varsity band concert (of which i am a part of) it was also the orchestra, jv band, jazz band, choirs' concert. (why is it that there are like four choirs)
did you know that zak baker was in the jazz band.
the jazz band is amazing amazing amazing wondrously good. theyre always the last to perform, as they are the finale and whatnot. and it was discovered and noted by katherine dohan and i that the guitarists and bassists of the jazz band all look the same from the back row of the auditorium when they are all wearing tuxedos and top hats. because they all have fluffy shaggy hair. well actually you can tell patrick (katherine said that was his name? well it's rather suiting. he looks like a damn leprechaun. a tall one, too.) apart from the other ones because his hair is deliriously long. it looks like. crimp n style barbie's: massively blond (dyed, i'm sure) and remotely wavy and as long as jingle bells.
point: he frightens me. A LOT.
another point: he looks very funny in a top hot.
yet another point: zak had hat hair today.
and another: you'll notice that all the guys in jazz band wore their tuxes and hats (and carried their canes) all day long, while the lesser, uncool beings of the other bands/orchestras/choirs, removed theirs.
jazz band members have mass pride. (no one else does) they know they are loved. like beans.
and anyway there are only three girls in the damn jazz band. (i think..... don't quote me!) and one is robin's sister acacia and she is quite cool because i say so.
anyway i have gotten horribly off-topic. it would be best to leave, especially since laylee is IMing me now.

sjusaeyeguy:did u kno that grapefruits contain antioxidants which stop some signs of aging
sjusaeyeguy:IM THE GRAPEFRUIT LADY
sjusaeyeguy:IM INVINCIBLE

i'm supposed to blog for brittany that i tried to take my portable cd player to the harry potter movie but my parents (who dragged me there) wouldnt let me.

Super Saiyan AJ: and our umbrellas shall be open under the sun
Super Saiyan AJ: you're my hero
A mere Statistic: I've never even been to poland

Super Saiyan AJ:yeah i'll stop by and do a strip-tease
Cj and Laki:HUBBA HUBBA HEY says laylee

Laylee2000:and people take me more seriously when i have long hair
Laylee2000:i appear more airhead-y w/short hair. with long hair people just think im fucked up

Laylee2000:KROGERS HAS GOOD COFFEE

POOR LAYLEE

nick makes me hungry

i lub lappy joose.

Laylee2000:i liked ur skrit tons and tons
aLittleStarlight:glaskdhasldkghlsdkgahasgdlhk what skirt

laylee told me to come blog so here i am. bliss.

A mere Statistic:are you ungood at math
A mere Statistic:I know I am
A mere Statistic:blue moooooooooon
A mere Statistic:you saw me
A mere Statistic:standing
A mere Statistic:alooooooooone
A mere Statistic:why does school attack you
A mere Statistic:let's run away
A mere Statistic:to a schoolless land

dad: *returns from grocery* alanna? i think you'll be happy with the choice of cereal for you
me: what is it
dad: *holds up COUNT CHOCULA box*
me: *mass cackle thing*
dad: cause i love to see you smiiile

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH ALL THESE COOKIE PARTS

Cj and Laki:kjnkljg
Chaodoom:hullo.
Cj and Laki:i slobbered on it\
Chaodoom:ok
Cj and Laki:you have to believe we arw masgic
Chaodoom:how... appetizing
Cj and Laki:IT S[PARKLES
Chaodoom:ok. i believe that.
Chaodoom:it does?
Chaodoom:keen.
Cj and Laki:SDYTPOPPOIT
Chaodoom:now you're just being silly.
Cj and Laki:do you see it!?
Chaodoom:yup.
Cj and Laki:li
Cj and Laki:ar
Cj and Laki:no it really sparkels
Cj and Laki:no one believes me
Cj and Laki:youre taking me over
Cj and Laki:even the burnt part sparkles
Cj and Laki:mmmmm
Cj and Laki:crumbly bread cookies
Cj and Laki:thwack thwack

brittany is here and the DAMN PLANS ACTUALLY WORKED SORT OF. because i had to come an hour earlier, as brittany's tai chi class died and then she couldnt get in touch with katie so she still came at 1 and it was damn confusing. and then brittany's whole family died off to the restaurant with us and brittany 'will be a very good lawyer.' (in bed) yeahhh let me tell you about it. she has the 'the potential to be dirty' according to laylee. oh yes laylee didnt get to come to the restaurant :( but she DID show up at borders like waayyy late and she attacked me and we fell onto the suzanne vega cds. and katie listened to the smashing pumpkins too loud on her headphones and we could all hear them and then she wouldnt let us turn it down and you know billy corgan has a remotely annoying voice. esp when its all teeny tiny and floating around all over the place. and uh. brittany and i gave katie the last two books in the 'his dark materials' series by philip pullman and that was happy. and then katie had to leave and brittany invited laylee to my house
[brittany: i did not!
alanna: you did too
brittany: so whaaat!]
and she stayed for hours and hours on end but then she called her mom and she had to leave. :( and watched the 'fuckingest' movie [according to brittany] and it was called 'say anything' but then we watched a godawful movie called 'a knight's tale' and then and then uhm. we danced and danced to laylee's really cool mix cd for alanna and then she got tired and that was sad because we were like wooohaghahhaha. then her mom came and we ran out into the street and we had to chase down her car and give her the 'rockstar x-mas cd' that brittany made her. even though she is a jew. brittany is a terrible person. she did not say she wanted it!! no she didnt!! and it had fake beatles on it and people who were NOT simon and garfunkel and really bobby helms. HHAHAHAHAH. billy bobby. and some GODAWFUL shedaisy songs. but there were some good parts like john lennon's 'so this is christmas' because i told her to put that on there. and she found tori doing 'have yourself a merry little christmas' and BIF doing 'santa claus is coming to town' and that was funny as beans. and patti smith doing 'white christmas' and that was amusing and she couldnt quite hit the high notes and i liked it. and SPACE GHOST and the LEGION OF DOOM!!! ahhh that was the bestest. est. and uhm yes i am done with that.
so the point is that laylee's mix was really good!! and i knew a couple of those violent femmes song, like the one that CUT OFF after like 10 SECONDS. and brittany doesnt know how to spell femmes. I AM NOT ELMO. i am like. oscar. i will not sing this song. falalala. ok i can post now.

I HATE THE SESAME SEED TEST

Your personality type is: Elmo

You are cute, and everyone loves you. You are a best friend that no one takes the chance of losing. You never hurt feelings and seldom have your own feelings hurt. Life is a breeze. You are witty and calm most of the time. Just keep clear of backstabbers, and you are worry free.

brittany and i are the worst plan-makers EVER. seriously. katie and laylee and brittany and i have been trying to make plans the last HOUR. katie left about half an hour ago and since then i have been trying to get the plans straight. ok i THINK i'm supposed to show up at brittany's tai chi class, beishou lin, at 1 and then her parents are driving all of us to a restaruant, saigon li (except it might not be that one, it might be another one) and then we're going to borders after lunch and then either our parents are picking us up or we're going home with brittany. and laylee and katie cant stay so i'll probably go home with brittany except that it might be easier on her parents for her to go home with me so i dont know. anyway........

aLittleStarlight:WELL WHY DONT I JUST GO THERE INSTEAD OF DAMNED BEISHOULINGA SDLKGHALSDGHDL
Atea Diosa:yes but we might go to another one i don't know alanna ;_;
aLittleStarlight:o.o
aLittleStarlight:oh
Laylee2000:HAHAHAHAHh
aLittleStarlight:*dies*
aLittleStarlight:god
Laylee2000:oh god
Atea Diosa:thats why.
Laylee2000:ur plans are very hard people
Atea Diosa:thast why i watn you to come to me
Atea Diosa:so i can take you where we're going
aLittleStarlight:these plans are SHITTY
Laylee2000:this is so difficult, plans with you two are always confusing and never work
aLittleStarlight:lol i know
aLittleStarlight:god
aLittleStarlight:watch this
aLittleStarlight:i'm gonna be the only one there
Laylee2000:HAHA
aLittleStarlight:and i'll come at the wrong time
Laylee2000:yes yo are
Laylee2000:HAHAHAHAHHA
Laylee2000:alanna that wilL SO happen
aLittleStarlight:and then no one will even come at 1
Atea Diosa:lolol no you'll call first.
aLittleStarlight:and brittany will be slaving away at home working
aLittleStarlight:shh i'll come too early
Atea Diosa:well i'll be there at 1 lol.
Laylee2000:me n katie wont show and britta will kill me monday @ school
aLittleStarlight:and you wont be able to reach me
Atea Diosa:.......LOL WTF
aLittleStarlight:and i'll like sit there in the rain and the place will be closed
Atea Diosa:LOL
Atea Diosa:hahahahha
aLittleStarlight:because like. it burned down
Laylee2000:AWWWWW
aLittleStarlight:and so i sit outside it all night
Atea Diosa:i'll call you if its closed lol
Atea Diosa:HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
Atea Diosa:*rolls around laughing*
Laylee2000:Hahahahahahahaha
Laylee2000:thats precious
aLittleStarlight:LOL
Atea Diosa:ok i really need to get o sleep
aLittleStarlight:doesnt that sound likely as beans
Atea Diosa:so so hahaha
aLittleStarlight:geez
Atea Diosa:i'll call you tomorrow after my parents awaken lana
aLittleStarlight:god
Laylee2000:mkay
aLittleStarlight:i wont be up
Atea Diosa:and we'll make it so definite we can't change a thing
Laylee2000:hahah
aLittleStarlight:you'll have to leave a damn message
Atea Diosa:or something like that
Atea Diosa:so i'll wake you up
aLittleStarlight:ok hld on
aLittleStarlight:my mom or somebody will prob be up
aLittleStarlight:so talk to her
Atea Diosa:no cause i'll need to know if your parents can come
Atea Diosa:i mean can bring you
Atea Diosa:*mass spasm*
aLittleStarlight:o.o
aLittleStarlight:bring me where
Atea Diosa:to bei shoulin!!!!!!!
aLittleStarlight:the restaurant?
Atea Diosa:where else?!
aLittleStarlight:what!
aLittleStarlight:why?!
Atea Diosa:lol NO!
aLittleStarlight:i'm so confused
Atea Diosa:GALJFDSKAJ JESUS CHIRST ALALANNA
aLittleStarlight:hahahahah
Atea Diosa:I DON'T KNOW WHICH RESTURANT WE'RE GOING TO
aLittleStarlight:i love my new name
Atea Diosa:PHO SAIGON OR SAIGON LI
aLittleStarlight:well whats your point
aLittleStarlight:by then you'll know hopefuly
Atea Diosa:SO THEREFORE YOU'RE ALL COMING TO BEI SHOULIN
Atea Diosa:AND MY PARENTS ARE TAKING YOU TO WHEREVER THEY WANT TO GO
Atea Diosa:alanna its just easier on me this way but if you want to sit infront of a fucking saigonli building and we go somewhere else then so be it
Laylee2000:...imscared...
Atea Diosa:of course you are
Laylee2000:youre scaring me brittany
Laylee2000:i love you
Atea Diosa:now i'm going to bed i'll call you tomorrow alanna and laylee don't just think you can coem to borders you have to put up a fucking struggle
Laylee2000:dont kill me and eat my children
Atea Diosa:fight your mother o-weak one
aLittleStarlight:mmmmmm i'm confused
aLittleStarlight:i'll probbaly go to borders at 1
Laylee2000:haha okay i will
aLittleStarlight:and hten it will burn down too
Atea Diosa:.....OLOL
aLittleStarlight:and i'll sit outside all night in the rain
Atea Diosa:no.
Laylee2000:and ill cal u @ 9 or w/e to tell u if i can come or not
Atea Diosa:GO TO BEISHOULIN AT ONE NO REASONS ARE ALLOWED JUST GO .
Atea Diosa:OK?!
aLittleStarlight:whats saigonli
Atea Diosa:damn straight you will laylee.
aLittleStarlight:what
Atea Diosa:ok.
Laylee2000:HAHAAH alanan just stop.
Laylee2000:ill explain
Atea Diosa:JUST GO TO BEI SHOULIN ALANNA.
Laylee2000:hahaha
aLittleStarlight:ahhagha whatioahdsaglks
Atea Diosa:YOU ARE REALLY KILLING ME
Atea Diosa:goodbye
Atea Diosa has left the room.

CutiePatootie005:UR DAD IS THE KEWLIEST WITH
CutiePatootie005:WELL CRAP
CutiePatootie005:HE WAS KINDA KEWL
CutiePatootie005:DESPITE HIS SILENCE

CutiePatootie005:WHO'S GOT A MULLET
kat09987:Karolina

Atea Diosa:william on toilet : come out, come out baby!!!!!
Atea Diosa:........ *freaky scared face*

george harrison died. he is my favorite beatle. good lord. i hate it when people pretend to know things they dont.

i finished reading 'the night trilogy' by elie wiesel a little while ago. an hour or so. i don't know why they made it a triology... it's three books, yes, but the first 'night' is a biography and hte other two 'dawn' and 'the accident' are fiction.. I THINK. god i am so confused. if 'the accident' is fiction, then the character has the same name as the author. it's quite quite confusing. but anyway 'night' is about the holocaust. and then the other two are like post. and really theyre all mainly about death. i really liked them though.
ok this is what i found to be the saddest part of the whole damned book. i'm sure it wont seem as sad now, without having read everything before it, but it was the only part that made me teary-eyed. the main character (eliezer) and his father have just been taken to Gleiwitz which is this concentration camp and theyre shoved into these barracks (to go to sleep) and it's so crowded that they have to walk on people and no one's screaming or making noise or anything and people are walking on them and it's awful and there's no room to breathe and things. ehh i think there might be more to this passage than i thought. uhm. anyway....
"My father and I were thrown to the ground by this rolling tide. Beneath our feet someone let out a rattling cry: 'You're crushing me... mercy!' A voice that was not unknown to me
'You're crushing me... mercy! mercy!' The same faint voice, the same rattle, heard somewhere before. That voice had spoken to me one day. Where? When? Years ago? No, it could only have been at the camp.
'Mercy!' I felt that I was crushing him. I was stopping his breath. I wanted to get up. I struggled to disengage myself, so that he could breathe. But I was crushed myself beneath the weight of other bodies. I could hardly breathe. I dug my nails into unknown faces. I was biting all round me, in order to get air. No one cried out.
Suddenly I remembered. Juliek! The boy from Warsaw who played the violin in the band at Buna...
'Juliek, is it you?'
'Eliezer... the twenty-five strokes of the whip. Yes... I remember.' [elie got beaten at buna] He was silent. A long moment elapsed.
'Juliek! Can you hear me, Juliek?'
'Yes...' he said in a feeble voice. 'What do you want?'
He was not dead.
'How do you feel, Juliek?' I asked, less to know the answer than to hear that he could speak, that he was alive.
'All right, Eliezer... I'm getting on all right... hardly any air... worn out. My feet are swollen. It's good to rest, but my violin..." I thought he had gone out of his mind. What use was the violin here?
'What, your violin?' He gasped.
'I'm afraid... I'm afraid... that they'll break my violin... I've brought it with me.' I could not answer him. Someone was lying full length on top of me, covering my face. I was unable to breathe, through either mouth or nose. Sweat beaded my brow, ran down my spine. This was the end––the end of the road. A silent death, suffocation. No way of crying out, of calling for help.
I tried to get rid of my invisible assassin. My whole will to live was centered on my nails. I scratched. I battled for a mouthful of air. I tore at decaying flesh which did not respond. I could not free myself from this wass weighing down my chest. Was it a dead man I was struggling against? Who knows?
I shall never know. All I can say is that I won. I succeeded in digging a hole through this wall of dying people, a little hole through which I could drink in a small quantity of air.
'Father, how are you?' I asked, as soon as I could utter a word. I knew he could not be that far from me.
'Well!' answered a distant voice, which seeemed to come from another world. I tried to sleep. He tried to sleep. Was he right or wrong? Could one sleep here? Was it not dangerous to allow your vigilance to fail, even for a moment, when at any moment, when at any minute death could pounce upon you?
I was thinking of this when I heard the sound of a violin. The sound of a violin, in this dark shed, where the dead were heaped on the living. What madman could be playing the violin here, at the brink of his own grave? Or was it really an hallucination?
It must have been Juliek.
He played a fragment from Beethoven's concerto. I had never heard sounds so pure. In such a silence.
How had he managed to free himself? To draw his body from under mine without my being aware of it?
It was pitch dark. I could hear only the violin, and it was as thought Juliek's soul were the bow. He was playing his life. The whole of his life was gliding on the strings–– his lost hopes, his charred past, his extinguished future. He played as he would never play again.
I shall never forget Juliek. How could I forget that concert, given to an audience of dying and dead men! To this day, whenever I hear Beethoven played my eyes close and out of the dark rises the sad, pale face of my Polish friend, as he said farewell on his violin to an audience of dying men.
I do not know for how long he played. I was overcome by sleep. When I awoke, in the daylight, I could seek Juliek, opposite me, slumped over, dead. Near him lay his violin, smashed, trampled, a strange overwhelming little corpse."


i just don't know what i'm gonna do for my biography report (due monday) x_x... and i still havent turned in this project that was due an eternity ago because i keep forgetting about it when we get to class. as we are studying the odyssey in a very odd way and it consumes my entire attention, also as i am eating many cheesy popcorn bits.

yeah so i was in jackson, mississippi visiting my grandparents for a few days over thanksgiving break. and uhm i am going to post on the travel blog about it so yeah. laylee is mad because i dont post gahahah. i saw harry potter on friday, as i was manually forced into the damn theatre (betrayed by my family!) and it was godawful. and i bought 'dummy' by portishead and 'the bends' by radiohead and it was Big Fat Head Day. morgan did some more sketches for her Innocent Vegas Showgirl theme (thats what shes calling it, go complain to her) and theyre all gorgeous let me tell you.

A mere Statistic:fuck health
A mere Statistic:I'm never gonna be healthy I don't need to take this class
A mere Statistic:I'm gonna die of aids like last year
A mere Statistic:I'm probably like technically dead
A mere Statistic:like my heart stopped pumping a few years ago

A mere Statistic:go use this creepy vibrating cucumber thing
A mere Statistic:go like
A mere Statistic:feel like a woman
A mere Statistic:or whatever
Atea Diosa:oooooooooooooooooooooh
aLittleStarlight:...
aLittleStarlight:o.o
A mere Statistic:exactly

good lord. this is the most TERRIFYING thing i have seen in a while.

Laylee2000:im megaversatile

Laylee2000:i just got a direct hit on a bug ! ewwwww i squished it riiiiiight there w/the middle of my hand and it STUCK to my haaaand and ewwwwwww ewwwwwww ewwwwwwwwwwww its AFJSLDfkj gross. i dont like dead bugs. or live ones for that matter


A mere Statistic: ::smashs a laylee with the middle of his hand::
A mere Statistic: ::sticks::
A mere Statistic: ewwwwwwwwwww ewwwwwwwwww

Laylee2000:why yes, yes i am
Laylee2000:why yes, i am god.

BRITTANY IS A SNOOD BITCH! I SWEAR!

Atea Diosa: OH OH OH YOU CHEAT
Atea Diosa: damn snood

do you dare addict yourself?! SNOOD ON!!

kat09987:Anyways, that gave me an idea for the CLUE extra credit thing....we could go tou lots of diff. movie places [dressed up really really weirdly] and hang outs in diff parts of town and see how the reactions differ
aLittleStarlight:ghaha what would that do
kat09987:I guess it would be a bit ..... I dunno... steryotypical,
kat09987:It would be extrememly interesting
aLittleStarlight:yeah it would
aLittleStarlight:and then we would get shot
aLittleStarlight:the end
kat09987:It would be so cool...

;_; brittany has made me REALLY paranoid about christmas. fuck fuck it's not even THANKSGIVING yet. BRITTANY THIS IS ALL YOUR DAMN FAULT.

jezebellekilara:john [boyfriend] looks like joe dirt
jezebellekilara:i still love his chest and his tattooes
jezebellekilara:but oh well
jezebellekilara:not a basis for a relationship exactly
jezebellekilara:unless you're REALLY shallow
jezebellekilara:and i was aiming for that

i think reblogger died again ;_;

A mere Statistic:I wish I talked like r2d2
aLittleStarlight:beep beep
A mere Statistic:and that some big yellow robot always understood me
A mere Statistic:I could me like "beep beep et oh et oh et et oh"
A mere Statistic:big yellow robot: "take that back!"

BE MYSELF GONNA GET IN YOUR WAY BE MYSELF YOURE THE ONE....
YOURE THE ONE LAST ONE....

;_; i want a kill rock stars gift pack for christmas

aghahga it would seem that yesterday nick spent his spare time taking all the damn test thingies. he cracks me up. dont you love him.

i just rememberd that in my dream i went to a radiohead concert

aahaah i just took the blogaholic quiz again and somehow managed to get 48% instead of 32... x_x have i changed so much in the past few days? or did i just learn what a meme was? hmm....

it would seem as though i am staying home again today.

ok it's called "Vidrar Vel" and it's by this icelandic band and good lord it is beautiful please go watch the video at mtv.com

my god i just saw the saddest/sweetest/beautifullest music video of all time. it was by sigur ros but i dont know the title.. it had a v in it. GOOD LORD I LOVED IT. if anyone knows what it was please attack me... ;_; i could cry

 
gahsdhaha what the hell sdhglaskdhglas

HAHAHA i rule

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Goth by night, normal by day. Deep in my
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today, brittany and bly and i are staying home from school.

A mere Statistic:my hair is all bed headed
aLittleStarlight:aaghaha
aLittleStarlight:mine is too
A mere Statistic:*feel feel*
A mere Statistic:so it is

jezebellekilara:stuff
jezebellekilara:stuff is dumb
aLittleStarlight:it sure is
aLittleStarlight:lets eat it
jezebellekilara:lol
jezebellekilara:yum
aLittleStarlight:now that is some good eatin

my cousin rita had her second baby today. they named her cassandra

my my i'm only a 32% blogaholic

Atea Diosa: DID YOU POST ON MY BLOG?!
aLittleStarlight: ....
aLittleStarlight: what
aLittleStarlight: no
aLittleStarlight: O.o
aLittleStarlight: i dont think so
aLittleStarlight: no
aLittleStarlight: what
aLittleStarlight: no
Atea Diosa: I POSTED THAT!??!?!
aLittleStarlight: YES LAHAHAHAHA
Atea Diosa: x_X
Atea Diosa: LOL WTF

Atea Diosa: your dirty words come out clean
A mere Statistic: damnit I'm talking to lana about social and innate morality, and how it affects sexual morality and whatnot
Atea Diosa: lol what
Atea Diosa: it was just in a song
Atea Diosa: shut up
Atea Diosa: i am the master at shoving many candy wrappers into a tiny milk dud box
Atea Diosa: <---master
A mere Statistic: ok
A mere Statistic: ::throws trix at you::

Atea Diosa:"and when it comes it comes abrupt it feels like trading brains with an imbisle"
aLittleStarlight:what the fuck
Atea Diosa:what the fuck

Ladygodiva76: dude we're so buying britt the new magnum XL XL trojan condoms - ok?

lana: oh you've gotta read the laylee quotes emote deleted my account
morgan: i posted on doy really stupid did you see it HA HA HA this is really stupid
brit: no
morgan: stp=afij I CAN'T KEEP UP
SHHHH
brit: X_X
mom: hey has anyone seen my terry pratchet book
alanna: i think it might be in the umm in the den?
morgan: hey alanna hey allana i'm aligator man*ramble* bumped into a tree swamp monster trying to drown her and i didn't know dingos lived in this part of george your mother was a hamster and your father smelled of eldeberiries(oops)
alanna: SCROLL DoWN ! YOU SPELLED MY NAME WRONG EVERYBODY TALK ABOUT POP MUSIC
*leave* Its A COMMERCIAL MOM
BRITT: Triest ot type
alanna: everybody talk about i know the trouble with the *something* grail is a bfat bastard
SCROLL DOWN
HA HA HA
alanna: *makes fun of rbrit typing *
tv: *scary music*
mom: LOOK ALANNA ITS ON
brt: o.o *pulbish*

Laylee2000: im going to eat my leg
Laylee2000: mmmmmm yummy knee....

aLittleStarlight: shh i'm putting you on my blog
Laylee2000: HAHAHAHAHAH
Laylee2000: yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Laylee2000: i love when u put me on there
Laylee2000: i go WOOWOO LOOK THATS MEEEEE !! and point to it like theres someone else here to see me pointing :)
Laylee2000: only i dont actually do thta....hahah

Laylee2000: omg i was offered a bar of chocolate last night by kyle and i was liek no i dont like solid chocolate
Laylee2000: and he was like? ok
Laylee2000: and i was like HAHA if id taken it, i woulda been a chocoalte whore
Laylee2000: IMA CHOCOLATE WHORE CHOCOLATE WHORE CHOCOLATECHOCOLATECHOCOLATE WHORE WHORE WHORE!!!
Laylee2000: haaaaaaahaaaaaa it was funn
Laylee2000: na dhe was like....whta the fuck!? hahahaha

Laylee2000: i thin kmy brothers really cool so its cool that hes [kyle] remotely like my brother in the "im not a preppy boy and im all cool n shit and i like all this cool music and im cool n shit" way
Laylee2000: ahahhahah thzt was fucked up

Laylee2000:but arg i think i shaved myt legs for nothing
Laylee2000:this is so annoying

ok it would seem that emote has deleted my account. emote is the place that lets me upload all my pictures and whatnot which is why everything is dead. also they will not let me make a new account, so for the time being everything is dead. sorry. give me a minute. blogs were supposed to be simple. i hate web sites.

my mother is insane.
mom: somebody saw my purse. somebody stole it. named alanna.

but. good lord. i think emote deleted my account. that is very sad. where am i going to put everything?!

A mere Statistic:I mean when I was little kid I became convinced that I could put headaches in socks

A mere Statistic:jesus christ on a cracker

hoy bofe:do you ever sleep

aLittleStarlight:that fellow frightens me
A mere Statistic:as he does me
aLittleStarlight:and his VOICE just KILLS MY SOUL
A mere Statistic:but
A mere Statistic:but
A mere Statistic:I love him

aLittleStarlight:my mother turns into a pumpkin at 11
A mere Statistic:well that's creepy

aww blogger is dyign

yay i am SO staying home from school!! and i almost slept through the whole damn thing too. we had a half day you know.

i love you, mr. bofe

now i am having archiving troubles.

the pet cd is very good.

i think the colors look funny over on the right side of the page. what do you think. i think they do.

i bought the pet cd today.

yay. many thanks to brittany AND bofe. you have healed mine bloggie.

this is beginning to kill me.

i agree with bly: blogger is pmsing.
this better not be fucking permanent!
i should file a complaint.