I was captive
in a speeding man-made oven
We were roasting
cooking toasty
well done in our seats
Sun full of fierce fire
burning through our skins
boiling all our blood and
bringing beads of sweet to sighing foreheads
She sang out
giving me chills
under my skin
and I was less and more
and I was so cold

i rode home through the rain
under an umbrella made of a tree
and let me just tell you:
never use a tree for an umbrella
if you want to stay dry,
but if you want the water
in your hair and over your eyes
filtered through the leaves
cascading
and sliding dored to your mouth.
when i got home i was so cold
it was love
i refused to be made dry

You are Heavy Metal! Angry, sad, and disillusioned, you are Heavy Metal. You are the embodiment of the darkness of the human heart. Your main themes are sadness, anger, and hopelessness. You are frequently misunderstood by others and many link you to devil worship. However, those willing to look through the shell of darkness and anger find you to be very intelligant, poetic, and artistic. Too bad your inclination to look for the beauty in darkness and your general attitude of frustration with humanity as a whole tends to send most people running for the nearest exit. But despite that, you wouldn't have it any other way.

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i know that you are gone but i can not stop and i do not stop. all i can do is say it and pretend you are here to hear. things are stupid. why are things stupid? i used to think suicide was so selfish and jesus that can't matter. it's too bad i'm not brave in that way. and it's supposed to be brave not to but how can it be when there is no life to show for it? how can one pretend to live and call it bravery holding them back? so suicide is looking more and more reasonable as opposed to my big fat nothing life these days which is going nowhere. yes i am that selfish. i figure i should get hit by some big truck next time i step outside. i need something real to cling to. i must be hard to please and easy to please and indecisive and opinionated and i make no sense and i have no self. i can not find any me in this body to save my skin. things are stupid. you can not tell me why things are stupid. isn't it perfect that depression should be genetic? i'll go insane, you just wait. i'll have some bizarre mental condition. so i used to want that. i used to be so scared of cancer and all at once think i had it and be sort of relieved and excited. i guess i was that attention-starved. yes i am that selfish. i only want to be seen as me and maybe you will find her for me right before i bite it. i only want not to be taken for granted. but i think it's hard for you to take me for granted when i have no identity and i have no originality and i have nothing to take. i think i can't be human as princess heart-of-stone. as miss manipulation. as she who derives pleasure from your annoyance. i can't be human if i can never cry. i know you are gone but i can not stop.

if i am full of only pure water i will not be mean and i will not be mean. i'll slip inside your head so easy, you might never notice and you might never know how amazing and fragile i could be. you can feed me forever with only pure water. i could be your dream. i could not be me and if only i could so easily be just what you need, i could cure you of every little thing. i could silently torture myself and you would never see. you'll be far too busy making pure water and never caring about me since i am only using you for this venial excuse, the murder i commit will not even matter to anyone but you. you who will only miss your dream. i am never me.

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i can put you in my pocket
before i go out to play
i get my church dress all messy
covered with dirt and sun drops
i can keep you safe
though my hands are pink and blistered
and my nails are not that clean
you might just forgive me
i take you from my pocket
before i plant you in the sky
you get my church mess all dressy
and i don't even mind
i can keep you safe in here
though you'll have to save yourself

aMereStatistic: you should be my first real kiss lana, that would be happy for me anyway

quoth brittany's blog, "alanna is the crazy/cute/rock dancing girlie"
aMereStatistic:strangely enough I don't consider myself a crazy cute rock dancing girlie

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Which Member of the Endless Are You?

	You are Rowlf! You don't draw attention to yourself much, preferring to keep your cool and stay in the background.
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aMereStatistic: god
aMereStatistic: shit kills me
aMereStatistic: shit kills you
aMereStatistic: I hate everyting

how are you, lonely blog? do you miss me yet?

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i've got multiple alliances
i have been ordered to remove 'obscene language' from my blog by my parents. because the internet 'is in public' and i'm not supposed to talk that way in public when they're around. but jesus they're not SUPPOSED to be around. they're not SUPPOSED to read my blog. YOU HEAR THAT? GO AWAY. you're not welcome.
anyway i doubt they are ever going to read that lol. i have changed the url for the blog. yes AGAIN. i figure that they got the new link from morgan's blog.... anyway i am only telling select souls. wahahaha how elite.