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Wednesday, October 30, 2002




Which Donnie Darko character are you? by Shay

haven't seen the movie but i'd like to

Sunday, October 27, 2002

things are getting strange

last night's show went really well, considering it was the first show and everything. there was one line that i pretty much blew (i only said the first statement in it. luckily harriet picked it up anyway.) the marx puppet went unexpectedly well! the members were very connected. today i bought belated birthday presents for margaret graves and katherine warren (shh!) at the internation artisans' market at prescott church, where i used to go every sunday. then i came home for a little while before dad and i finally went to put up posters for the play at pie in the sky and legba records. at legba, we looked around and i bought the white stripes self-titled album. then we went by black lodge video to see if they'd put up the poster we gave them a while ago, which they had. dad and i looked at movies and ended up renting our castmate morgan fox's movie, three minutes based upon the revolution of the sun. we haven't had a chance to watch it yet though. so it was discovered that brittany didn't really tell her parents about taking her to the play tonight, except that she wanted to go so they came home kinda late-ish and they didn't want to drive her. so she didn't get to come, which is pretty bad because morgan fox wanted his four cameramen to SEE the play this weekend and FILM the play next weekend. anyway morgan and i washed our costumes but we both forgot to put them in the dryer in time for them to be ready by 7, which is when we had to be at the theatre. so mom, who helped manage the house tonight, brought them for us. i had to walk around with my pockets inside out for a while to try and make them undamp. it didn't really work. the play tonight was really weird. the beginning, especially, was really dragging. but i was very proud that afterwards sarah told me i had been louder than zoë. *beam beam* so the show was weird, as stated. i felt the whole time i was on like i was dreaming or something. the show was supposedly sold out, mainly because of this mental health conference that's being held in memphis and they dropped off a bus load of people. but the responses were weird or something i guess. several people, and andy, came in a little late. andy sat in a seat really close to where i was lying at the time and waved. patty said that he was trying to talk to her while she was on stage and that he kept saying "ineffable! ineffable!" but after i noticed him come in and everything, it looked like he was going to sleep! he literally leaned his head back and rested it on the stage, and then he kind of nodded away. he started looking around again after a big loud noise. it was strange. when i exitted, i discovered that there were about five people just ... sitting in the lobby. just sitting, doing nothing. so they pay $10 for a play that they are going to sit during the lobby during? nice going, guys. and people kept coming in and out of the theatre... it was crazy. but afterwards some really nice people talked to us and asked for autographs and everything. after everyone left, brad, sarah, morgan, dad, and i sat around for a while in the lobby and then went to ihop for a very quick quasi-dinner, where i had some fries. we had a great time listening to elton john, backstreet boys, and earth, wind, & fire. we were some of the only people there at first and then this HUGE mass of people just kind of gathered. and we were of course being loud and crazy so we had to tone it down a little. pretty depressing. then we headed over to highland quartet or whatever it's called for the midnight showing of the rocky horror picture show! we were slightly late -- we missed the very beginning of the opening song (with the lips, you ignorant bastard.) there were only about 15 people there. morgan, sarah, and i sang all the songs and i think dad sang a few. brad had only seen it once before. i noticed a bunch of details on the big screen that i'd never seen before. it was strange and wonderful. sarah was the only one of us yelling at the movie and there was another guy a few rows back who was yelling too, but not the same words. no one dressed up or brought props or anything. it was pretty great. i'm sad that katherine, zoë, and laylee couldn't come. they missed a great time.

Saturday, October 26, 2002

jenny mccarthy



Your Inner Blonde is Jenny McCarthy




Sure you're hot, but the only guys you seem to attract are twelve year old nose pickers.


Maybe you'll make a comeback, but you've got to lay off the bodily functions.




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More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

Friday, October 25, 2002

if i had only been born about ten years earlier and i lived either in new york or on the west coast... i could have seen/see all the best concerts. some of these combinations are MIND-BOGGLING. go here and weep for all the concerts you ever missed.
everybody vote for tori! the video is really weird and beautiful. i highly recommend it. it's great. also click here.

Thursday, October 24, 2002

everyone come see the play i am in tomorrow night! theatre at its best.... the intensity of the show is amazing! it's shocking! static! electric!

the momo's curse
by our own voice
at theatreworks
8pm on oct 24, 26, 27, nov 1 &2
3pm on nov 3

the play itself is about an hour and 45 minutes long. now i know you can spare that much of your life for one of the all-time weirdest plays you will ever see. read the article in the memphis flyer.

also i disagree with becca that "techies are the backbone of every theatrical production." firstly, what the fuck do they do! why are there so many of them?! secondly, our play has no backstage and HAS NO TECHIES. we have The Sound Guy and The Lights Guy and thats it. fuck tech.
(i think i want to be on tech at school next year)

Thursday, October 17, 2002

WELL I'M GOING TO FAIL EVERY SUBJECT THAT SCHOOL EVER CREATED.
I PROMISE.

Tuesday, October 15, 2002

i need a chick with a cowboy hat

this weekend was great, this week has been awful. friday, right after school, i rode the bus to the library with margaret to work on our (deadly) english project. we didn't get anything accomplished really. elise and evan were there working on theirs too. dad picked me up around 5 and we went straight to rehearsal, where we were working on scenes 8 and 9 or something like that. so at the break, after scene 8, i called up mom and she took me to kullision skate park which is actually the world's smallest warehouse in the white ghetto, about five minutes away from my house where i met up with brittany and heather hyden. the smile brigade was supposed to play their farewell show there, but were not allowed for some reason. we saw the holiday, instead, and justin from tsb who is very cool and is my new hero. katherine dohan showed up at some point and we all grooved. i think the three of us felt really out of place. well i know i did. we were the only people there, i swear, who didn't go to the same church and school. it was like the youth group in a bottle called the five feet that are the kullision skate park. basically everyone there was a cordova punker. you'd be surprised at how many there are, but that's what the suburbs will do to you. so katherine and brittany came over afterwards. katherine tried to teach brittany and me the bass line for "blister in the sun" on my teeny acoustic guitar which is missing a string. if it wasn't i would be jamming in there right now, i swear to god. (meg taught me to play 'america the beautiful.' i dont think i remember how but i can pretend.) katherine wanted to spend the night at my house (with brittany) but she called her parents and they didn't want her to. so she left around midnight. brittany, morgan, and i watched degrassi. it was bloody brill. this kid got abused by his father for the first time, somebody foudn out about it, and they got him away from his dad ALL IN ONE EPPIE. i'm really upset that i didn't watch this week because ashley did some ecstasy and made out with some guy who isnt jimmy. anyway we all went to bed after that. brittany had to get picked up at 10am for tai chi. i went ahead and got up then. i think i got online for a little while... ate something... watched tv. we had rehearsal from 2:30 - 5:30. afterwards, morgan went to see her friend sara stephens in the very hungry caterpillar at ewing children's theatre. then they came home and we all went to see spirited away which is a GREAT movie so GO SEE IT!! don't listen to leath bing for he is a creepy asian.

Friday, October 11, 2002

woo boy! postin early!

Thursday, October 10, 2002

Nabikichan086: i was pretending to put kevin in time out and mom said "you remember where it is" and then at the same exact time kevin and my dad said "sure, she spent half of her childhood there" THE EXACT SAME TIME!
lately when i listen to rock music with male singers they sound like they're trying to be black francis.... pixies much? sorry, jack white. you don't cut it.
so today in seventh period, some teacher in a classroom near the lab, some teacher yelled "HEY" and proceeded to yell some things. i seriously, literally, honestly believed that frank black was in the next room.

Wednesday, October 09, 2002

every day i make my way through the streets of your town

i was really pumped about writing a real post until i sat down. well i'm going to try my best for you guys, because i know i'm sick of looking through blogs with no new posts! (merv's place as the exeption.) i found these 60 cent cappuccino and cream candies that brittany sort of made me buy at big lots a few weeks ago. i'd eaten two that day and that was basically it. but i found them! and i'm addicted! they're really sweet but they leave this taste in my mouth that makes me want another one. plus i'm hungry. mmmmmmm. moving on.
i already talked a little about the weekend... friday night was great. i had rehearsal and then i got to hang out with awesome people. everyone went to abyssinia, which is an ethopian restaurant, and kevin came to pick me up from home (with william's car that kevin couldn't drive) while they were there because i told them i had to eat. and they decided to go to a restaurant like. a block away from my house. because william's stomach was eating itself. so i didn't really have anything except a bite of gross cloth bread. i had to run across poplar twice and it was horrifyingly hilarious. kevin and i nearly died ten times on the way from my house to abyssinia. after that we joggled around across the street, where the creepy cuban captain d's is. and there were these drums or something and we ran all over the world trying to find where they were coming from, with no success. then we drove around listening to modest mouse. we ended up at that christ methodist church place and we played on the playground for a while. kevin and william bribed lots of soda out of this party that was ending at the church. most of it got poured on the wood chips i think. the swings were pretty great. a lot of that newfangled equipment was discovered to be incredibly dangerous! and all the swingie bar things make your hands hurt and smell. alice and i invented the word "muffin" that you have to say like robin goodwin as a kind of abbreviation for "motherfucker" but used in completely different context. then we drove around and it was some modest mouse live song and they said something about thanks to the pixies and i was all like 'THE PIXIES' and they changed the song for me. they played "debaser" for me. it was great. kevin sang it with me. i think elise was trying to get william to watch me sing in his rearview mirror. at that point we had ended up at bookstar so that william could buy smoke and mirrors by neil gaiman. i like that place but we couldnt find the mammoth book of erotica this time.
on saturday.... i went to rehearsal. that was it. oh yeah i went with morgan and mom to buy a present for morgan to take to her friend mariana's birthday, but it also ended up being a shopping trip for mom and dad's anniversary, which was sunday (october 6). morgan bought mariana a card with an old lady on it, being levitated off the ground by all the balloons she was holding. it said "get carried away on your birthday!" and mom got a card for dad that had a cow kissing another cow that said "i love you for heifer." i didn't get anything because i don't have any money. then we went to cat's music. morgan bought the nelly furtado cd for mariana. i had to help mom find the new david bowie cd, heathen, for dad. the two-disc one. with the great pixies cover of "cactus!" i didn't get anything because i DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY. it was so distressing. i tried to make morgan buy the new tegan and sara but she wouldn't. i tried to make mom buy the new bree sharp but she wouldn't. it was depressing. we blew that popsicle stand.
sunday was mom and dad's anniversary so mom woke me up around 9 or something to ask me where dad's card and gift were. i, obviously, couldn't go back to sleep so i got up. nothing really happened until 3:30. which was rehearsal. we worked on scenes 6-8. since i haven't talked about the other rehearsals i'll sum this one up: in scene 6 i'm a really bad villager because i'm not animated enough. in scene 7 i'm a really bad surrealist because i'm not loud enough and i can't say my lines right and i can't play the game very well. in scene 8 i get to play ring-around-the-rosies while the world falls apart. i've decided not to reveal anything about this scene because it needs to be surprising. i'm just like "it's creepy. we play ring-around-the-rosies and it's HORRIFYING!" actually katherine and i were talking about it when her mom drove me to davis-kidd after school today and she was like "i think i'm going to have to leave before scene 8. or maybe i just won't come at all." which is sad. i think she should come and see katherine. katherine was trying to reassure her by telling her that she's not actually IN scene 8. oh oh oh! everyone come to the momo's ball because we really need money!!! the production costs A LOT and bill has already had to cut out some of the things he wanted to do for lack of funds. moving on... right after rehearsal, dad took me to bookstar to meet laylee. she was a little late but it wasn't her fault so thats ok. dad bought a drink at the starbucks there for me and he gave me money to buy something to eat. laylee and i got cold in the cafe so we walked around the bookstore. then this guy julian who went to her school last year came up and we talked to him for a good long time and it turned out she hates him anyway. so that was an eternal waste of time. i didn't know that she hated him, or else we would have been there for a total of two seconds. so laylee finally got us out of there by saying we wanted to go eat at taco bell. she got a cheese quesadilla and i got a chicken quesadilla. laylee didn't finish hers because it was making her sick or something. i finished eating mine while we walked to turlte's music, and we got to talk a bit. outside, she got like. her fourth and fifth phone calls of the evening, on her cell phone. leath wanted to come pick her up at that very second because she was supposed to meet them at borders at 8:30 or something which basically adds up to that she'd allotted less than an hour and a half to our hangoutage time and i'd thought she had to babysit or something. her lovely mother drove me home, where morgan was watching our "get up" video again. my parents were at their anniversary dinner at cafe society. i stayed up way too late online talking to jerel.
on monday, we had the day off. as if you didn't know. i was supposed to meet margaret at the library at 2 to work on this (wretched) english project. the day before, i had realized i wouldn't be able to meet then because i would have no ride, since my parents would be at work. by the time i thought about it on sunday, i felt like it was too late to call. so i called first thing in the morning on monday and left a message. and called like 720385 times and emailed her but we never got in touch. she called here around 2:20 and i felt really really awful. she said she found a few books though. morgan and i watched "seven brides for seven brothers" and it was glorious. we did homework and it sucked.
on tuesday, ms. haughton asked me why i was still out of uniform! i was like "I TOLD YOU." so she wrote me up. when i took the thing to the office, it was fifth period and no one was there so the (EVIL EVIL EVIL) secretary told me she would call me down in sixth period. she didn't. so today i was called to the office during 3rd period (english) and i was there through like. half of 4th. and they didnt even get a chance to talk to me because they're too slow and stupid and evil. so they called me back during 6th period etymology and finally talked me and basically said i had to wear the uniform until my appeal went through. i hate ms. haughton so much right now. not only for that but because of this test we took. i actually did pretty well on it but the things i missed were because of her shit ass directions!!! we had to memorize all this vocabulary, right? the word and its genitive and the meaning. (among other irrelevant things.) so most of the words, you had to memorize the genitive SINGULAR but there were two that you had to memorize the genitive PLURAL for some reason. so on the directions she said to write the genitive singular (she underlined that.) so when i wrote iussa, i put that the genitive singular was iussi, not iussorum. and that it meant 'a command' instead of 'commands' because the woman is retarded!! and i was too scared to ask her about it today because i thought she would see my non-uniform. go figure because i was actually wearing my black moondance skirt and a grey shirt! quite a few people asked me if i was caving in on the uniform thing. i didn't really mean to be dressed like that. but i don't want to wear that skirt to school again. that skirt was not made for me. or maybe i'm just not compatible with skirts. i can't sit in my desk in the ways that i like to sit wearing a skirt. well not comfortably anyway. or without feeling like i'm going to wipe my shoes all over the thing, which wouldn't have been a good idea, as it rained all today. and like. as soon as i stepped out of the door this morning, the skirt went looser than i'd tied it and it kind of fell down on my hips and dragged the ground all day. i hate going on stairs in that thing. especially when theyre all wet and slippery from the rain. as i said previously, katherine dohan's lovely mother drove me to davis-kidd after school where i finished reading what my mother doesn't know by sonya sones. i hadn't meant to finish it, but it happened. it wasn't nearly as good as stop pretending but i forgive it because it was written in beautiful beautiful poetry form. so stuff that i normally would be bored to death reading about is made interesting anyway. i started reading this book called stoner & spaz and i had just picked up the giver when my mom came. she bought some halloween books and things for her library at school.
POTATOES ARE RADICAL!

Monday, October 07, 2002





I'm Penny, which ambiguous dyke are you? Quiz by Turi.


hopefully you noticed my idol to the left over there is the lovely frank black lead singer/songwriter for the pixies. who are very dead of course but. he's still wonderful. and if you noticed the blog name change, well yay! it's from a pixies song called "letter TO memphis" but that didn't make sense obviously. but it's a great song! read the lyrics! download it too because the chorus is beautiful!!
xEienNoYamix: Let's put it this way.
xEienNoYamix: I hate peoples brains.

and basically, that was my weekend.

except for friday night, which was great. i got to hang out with kevin and elise and william and alice. theyre all great. the rest of the weekend was pretty blegh. even though i did get to see laylee for a whole ten seconds.

Tuesday, October 01, 2002

i know what god wants

today was ok for the most part. ms. haughton, my latin teacher, noticed for the first time that i wasn't in uniform. she took me into the hall and asked me about things and she told me to rethink my decision to appeal and all this. it was ridiculous. if i was braver i would have said something more intelligent/intelligible. in other uniform news, i am SO SICK of hearing people (guys especially) tell me how it doesn't matter and that you can do more damage from 'the inside' anyway. i can't even go into the ridiculousness of that.
oh yeah, by the way, zak baker joined hardcore club after morgan and brittany and i told him how we hated it and how awful it was. and he won't tell us what he did to get into it. probably because he doesn't want us to tell his parents or something, is what i guess. and he asked again today about the hunter thompson video. i was like 'it sucks' and he was like 'i dont care!' but then we had to start rehearsing. in rehearsal news, he's beautiful. in performance news, i play something/someone different in every scene, but that's really typical. it's not relaly like you're suppposed to keep up with who we are. in the scene that we just started to work on today and we're going to do some more with tommorow, i am the famous surrealist poet robert desnos. i think that i am one of the characters, with (two) lines because i was so bad at the little game we did at one of the auditions that the chorus is going to be doing while the surrealists do the surreal thing. or maybe bill thinks i'm a poet haha? i'm nervous about having actual lines to memorize. also, bill said that we would be getting a sense of what part of artaud we were playing by what we had to do in different scenes and i am just completely lost, i swear to god. in the first scene in which we resurrect artaud, i have two lines about flesh and bone and all this. and, later, a line about "so the stillness of the night silences all obscenities." also i am one of lot's daughters (from the bible), in this painting and that is really horrifying. it's also my last scene. i'm going to shut up about the play now. i remember, rereading some things i said about synesthesia, how much i went on and on about nothing.
yesterday a girl named feagin in my seventh period class came up and asked me about why i wasn't wearing the uniform and we talked through.. the whole class. (people were finishing their projects that they were supposed to have finished on friday.) she's a freshman and she asked for my screen name. today we chatted a bit and i found out that she has pretty awesome taste in music (bright eyes, elliott smith, ani difranco, aimee mann, tool, a whole lot of shit i can't remember) and she made a chat with me and a few of her friends who go to white station, one of whom was the girl that used to be in my math class, that i talked to for a milisecond at davis-kidd and who has waved to me in the hall a few times (sam[antha]) point being that that was very cool and coincidental. in other news on the social frontier, i am feeling like a total retard at this moment. i swear, i feel like i should stop talking to people altogether. yes, i love sharing my music and taste with the world but, of course, i am never recognized for it and everyone else on the planet just is. because i know how to pick my friends. it's like becca's friend who was in the homecoming court that likes bikini kill becuase becca introduced it to her because laylee introduced it to HER because i introduced it to laylee. ditto with rasputina and margaret earthman the cheerleader. and today becca herself (as you can read on her blog, if you know where it is. i don't think i'm supposed to link though) was just randomly talked to by three completely awesome people just sitting at starbucks because she radiates coolness. that and she had a sleater-kinney sticker on her backpack. and they talked about bikini kill, rasputina, and bonfire madigan. katherine dohan is on the morning announcement staff and they played L'Trimm's "cars that go boom" for the song of the day when i discovered that several of katherine's friends had heard the song through her and. there's the usual, of course. i don't know i'm all jealous i guess. that and i know that when they get "famous" or at least they all turn out as really great musicians that i will be sitting around in some shit job and envying the hell out of them because i dropped oboe and never picked up guitar/bass/drums/piano/triangle/cowbell.