enjoy some tunes while you guzzle down all this emo content

Tuesday, October 30, 2001

Laylee2000:brittany is possibly the coolest person ever created
Laylee2000:
POSSIBLY< well find out in a second if she is or not
Laylee2000:
ahhahaha
aLittleStarlight:
aww
aLittleStarlight:
i've been ditched
aLittleStarlight:
!!!!
Laylee2000:
aw
Laylee2000:
no youre pretty damn cool too
aLittleStarlight:i think we need to go resurrect lindenwood
aLittleStarlight:
what do you think
hersheys086:
what does ressurect mean?
hersheys086:
haha
Laylee2000: heh heh heh heh hehe
Laylee2000: im reading ur first blog
Laylee2000: and the [infamous] IM that was w/u and nick about the roach
Laylee2000: i wish my mic worked so u coudl hear how im laughign
Laylee2000: hah hah haah
Laylee2000: ohs hutu
Laylee2000: :)
Laylee2000: i lvoe you alanan
yesterday morning, as i was waking up, i had this sort-of half-asleep 'dream' where botticelli's venus told me to go shave my legs.

Monday, October 29, 2001

Laylee2000:A;SLKJFD;LSAKFDJ
Laylee2000:
you remember Lusty Laylee?
aLittleStarlight:
x_x
Laylee2000:
ii usd that today
aLittleStarlight:
no...
Laylee2000:
someone said i was a porn star
DAMMIT BORDERS IS BITCHLAND I HATE THEM YOU ASK FOR A SIMPLE LITTLE ORDER PLACEMENT OF THIS BOOK THATS NO WHERE ELSE IN TOWN BUT YOU JUST SAW IT THIS SUMMER AT THE DAMN PUBLISHING HOUSE AND YOU KNOW ITS STILL IN FUCKING PRINT EXCEPT THAT BORDERS/BITCHLAND AND IT TAKES THEM SIX DAMN WEEKS TO TELL YOU THAT ITS NO LONGER BEING PUBLISHED.
i had a good day today.
as it is, at this moment, i can't remember what was so good about it. but!! i do remember at one point in the day stopping all my wacky fun and saying 'this is a good day.'
so.
i remember that there was something about an erotic dance though.

Sunday, October 28, 2001

aLittleStarlight:morgan is making fun of me
A mere Statistic:
why
A mere Statistic:
that meanie
aLittleStarlight:
because i'm easy to make fun of
A mere Statistic:
shh yeah well
I AM EATING COUNT CHOCULA.
I LOVE COUNT CHOCULA.

i forgot to blog on tuesday that this came out. yes indeed i want it. i also want the cranberries new album, 'wake up and smell the coffee' (that phrase eternally reminds me of mrs. moore. i love you, mrs. moore!!) i am talking to nick right now and he's lovely as usual but his computer is still broken and that is very crappy. (i love you, sir nicholas!!) and uhm. not much is happening. i finished my homework. dad signed my progress report. things are happening. why am i so hungry. nick makes me hungry. it's all his fault. it's always his fault. i asked mom to buy some boo berry or count chocula, since there is apparently a revival and brittany and i ate them at her house last weekend. dad denies having ever bought it in the first place but i swear he did!!! i think i have to publish the archives and heal them and uhm. i'm gonna go now.
Atea Diosa:i have no caffine in my system thats horrble
aLittleStarlight:
awww
aLittleStarlight:
that is horrible
aLittleStarlight:
and here we are with a million six packs of diet drinks
Atea Diosa:
i'm so out of it i just poked myself in the eye with toiletpaper

Saturday, October 27, 2001

Atea Diosa:i kinda feel like being productive and making websites and just working my ass off tonight
Atea Diosa:
brb i gotta pee
do you know how entertaining watching a washing machine can be?
i kept looking up to check it, so as to know when to put the detergent in and see if it was done and so on and so forth... and then i couldnt look back down.
suds are amazing creatures.
morgan and i had to hang out at the laundromat today because it was required in the chores or else i couldnt have brittany over. as things go, brittany didnt want to come over anyway so basically all that happened was that i got a little reading done.
last night the family and i went to davis-kidd for dinner and uhm. a bookie. 0r something. but the point is that i skipped the football game so i didnt have to march about and smash the cymbals. i met someone AGAIN. it seems that everyone was there, as they were having a 20% off sale. this girl... i dont remember how to spell her name.... rikelle??? x_x no idea. the point is that she and her friend were talking and i was looking at books and she was very familiar and she asked me if she knew me and i looked very familiar and i said yeah so do you and did you go to lindenwood? and yeah and she goes to IC also and she told me that the girl, shelia, whom i met on sunday, is not a very nice person even though she still does have good taste in books. so i had. i cant remember. food. at bronte. yes. so uhm. i ended up buying witches and wizards of oberin and black mirror and the hanged man and put me in a deliriously good mood!!! oh and we also got SECRET birthday presents for morgan and i cant tell you what they are yet because its TOTALLY SECRET!!! right-o so i read witches&wizards last night, since its a picture book and all it didnt take so long. i liked it more than i thought i would.

p.s. go email morgan and wish her a happy birthday. i promise i wont let her see it until next saturday, november 3, birthday of a genius.

aLittleStarlight:i'm eating a biscuit
aLittleStarlight:
it tastes funny
hoy bofe:
maybe you should cook it

Friday, October 26, 2001

do you remember dan from the 'ecstatic disco nights' play thing? i jolly well hope you do because he has come up again. he and christen foehring, who drives me to school every day, are in this christian youth choir thingie which got a new director a couple weeks ago, like right after the play ended. and this new evil choir director woman kicked him out of the choir because he's gay.
i hate people. especially memphians. we really, truly suck. if ever you meet a memphian, run away. as a matter of fact, if you meet any southerner, run away.
the point is that christen and her choir buddies organized this big whole thing with petitions and things and if they dont let him back in the choir, they're gonna drop out. more development on this later, if i remember to ask christen.

Thursday, October 25, 2001

I SURE DO LOVE DELUDED PRINCESS OH MY GOD AND THEYRE SUCH HOT ASS PUNKS YOU KNOW THEY ARE AND THEIR SCREECHING WAILING MUSIC IS THE MOST INSPIRATIONAL SHIT I HAVE EVER HEARD IN MY LIFE OH MY GOD I GOT KICKED OUT OF NEW DAISY THEATRE FOR ALL FUCKING ETERNITY BECAUSE I ATTACKED THE BAND DONT THEY KNOW WHAT GRATITUTE IS...... ????? PLEASE HELP ME SNEAK IN I LOVE THEM I DONT KNOW IF I CAN STAND IT IF I GO ANOTHER .6769234086 SECONDS WITHOUT HEARING THEM OH MY GOD
the new cranberries album came out two days ago. i want it.

aLittleStarlight:she was wearing a switchblade symphony shirt
Atea Diosa:
yes she was
aLittleStarlight:
that says a lot about a person
aLittleStarlight:
besdies that they look like the potato famine

once upon a time i was at borders and this girl picked up troy by adele geras and i says to her i says 'thats a really great author' and she looked at me kinda funny and read the blurb and put it back and i was like, in my head anyway, 'your loss!' but i tried again on sunday there was another girl in the YA section at borders standing in the exact same spot, holding into the cold fire by lynne ewing and she picked up on the bright side i'm now the girlfriend of a sex god by louise rennison and anyway so i says to this girl i says 'thats a really funny author' and she actually SAID something, and as it just so happens, i can't remember what it was so i told her that it was the sequel and she goes 'yeah something about.... thongs?' and i went 'yes thats the one!' or something dumber but then we sort of turned back to our own respective shelves and she asked me a few moments later if i had read any klause and i went yes! yes! and we talked about her for a minute but she hasnt read alien secrets and then we walked around and i recommended things and she pointed out things and i went 'oh i've read that' repeatedly and we actually ended up talking about daughters of the moon for a few moments too. then on display there was a little sign that said something like... 'with a twist of the supernatural' and shattered mirror by amelia atwater-rhodes and echo by francesca lia block and witches and wizards of oberin by suza scalora were on display which REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY bothered me. a whole fucking lot. i cannot express how much that bothered me. go read the books, theyre all really short and suza scalora's are all photography books, so seriously just go read them and then tell me if that display name does not seriously bother you as well. anyway. the girl, shelia was her name, told me she had actually been looking for suza scalora's first book the fairies which is mighty good and brittany says she likes the pictures in that one better than the new one, but as i have only examined the new one once, and flipped through it on another occasion, i really can't tell yet. so as it wasnt with the new scalora books, which are in the YA section(?!?!?!) we looked in the picture books and couldnt find it so i would have suggested sci-fi/fantasy but her mother came and whisked her away. but it was nice to recommend things to people even if they wont remember. and even if they do go to IC.

Saturday, October 20, 2001

Atea Diosa:you remember the pad i put in laylees note
Atea Diosa:
turns out she NEEDED IT.
Atea Diosa:
o.o

Thursday, October 18, 2001

Laylee2000:omg my brother wsa in here helping me a minute ago and omg!
Laylee2000:
he was like talking about these paintings and then out of the blue he goes have you ever smoked pot?
Laylee2000:
an di was like *b=smile smily* no
aLittleStarlight:
brittany says your brother is a drug dealer
Laylee2000:
HES NOT A FUCKING DRUG DEALER
aLittleStarlight:SUUUUUUURE
Laylee2000:
i hate nothign more than when people talk about my fucking brother
aLittleStarlight:
whyd he ask you taht
Laylee2000:
beacuse
Laylee2000:
and then he was like kyle does
Laylee2000:
and i was like yeah i know
Laylee2000:and yeah
Laylee2000:
and then he was like so do i
Laylee2000:
and i was lieK YEAH I KNOW!
Laylee2000:
hahahahah
Laylee2000:
it was really funny
aLittleStarlight:
yes it was
Laylee2000:and then he was like all uhmmm haws kyle ever tried to get u to try it? or asked if you wanted to?
Laylee2000:
and i waslike no not really he said i was too young
Laylee2000:
and then he was lek what you WAnt to?! and i was liek no
Laylee2000:
it was hiarious
Laylee2000:
and WRONG
Laylee2000:
lol!
Laylee2000:
i hope to god u go blog and mention me
why is doy dead. i'm hungry. i am going to go and study for latin/read wuthering heights/fail everything anyway.
wish me luck or something.
i keep laughing randomly for no reason today.
i like it.
i am far too hungry.
i am home from school again. i'm supposed to be working on this book report that's due tomorrow. i'm gonna go listen to tori now.

Love Song For the Drummer by Dot Antoniades


He was chocolatemahoganybrownbrickred
several shades of Indian earth blended
no lines
creaseless
Symmetry danced in his veins
my inner sonata silenced
I became 1 movement
fluid
blushing beige at the thought of him in his boyhood
palms down
panting the vulnerability out of me
vulgar ability I have
to fantasize myself into his country
without knowing anything except
percussion turns me on
But it wasn’t about him
it was the song
La musica beating me ceaseless
senseless

I am young
so young
yet
have old eyes
a stolen soul
I steal souls
but viscerally speaking
my tummy doesn’t tumblesaul when I see him
But when I hear him
my spirit sambas uncontrollably
as if La Mariachi
were plucking steel
string
sinews inside me
Barely breathing
percussion rushing thru me
I could see nothing
I was surrounded by sound
panties stained a deeper shade of clay
as the rhythm made its home between my legs
hatching sunsets
a warmth only I was aware of

His spirit:  soft blunted blade
entering through my exit
I thought I had been spade
reinvented manmade
Music
I want you to lay
in the soft shell cave of my thighs
fill the echoes
make me come legato
because my poems have been plosive
too macho
Raise me 12 notes higher
sweaty palms ride me bareback
give phoenix her flames back
fan the silent valley under her wings
let her sing
until they cut out her tongue
or
the nightingale gets jealous
Wake Calliope
There’s salsa on the glossy cedar dance floor
now that I’ve drank the last drop I want more

I want to know
how bodies moved
in the first shadow of night
before the lights came on
and we saw
and were shamed
cos we felt so good
for our own sake
I want musica keeping my shoulders strong
womb thumping birth of bass
immaculate
no blueprint
to the submission into mass movement
I do not want to merely reflect
He was musician
I was nothing but me listening
trying to tear the atmosphere desperately
because gravity distracts me
keeps me from myself
I swore his eyes were not jewels.
They were dark
rich like chocolate
bigger than Guatemala
They knew things I wanted to know

That night I believed
I believed
Religion escaped me
faith became me
Alone
I dropped to my knees
humbled
and samba’d myself to sleep


© 1999 Dot Antoniades.

Wednesday, October 17, 2001

try to shut me upi am home sick today. yes indeed i am. i dont feel very good and i should be reading 'wuthering heights' right now but i am really really not in the mood. i should maybe eat something. my fingers are cold. i was making a patti smith tape for brittany and i intended to finish but mom put all the records someplace i dont know. so i found a lene lovitch record and listened to a couple of her songs because mom is always saying that she sounds like people i listen to today even though the album came out in 79 and i discovered shes the one who sings 'i think we're alone now'
btw the picture is of kim gordon from sonic youth. if its the purple one with the quote about joni mitchell i suggest you refresh the page because i like the red and orange ones better.
p.s. i added two new mp3s yesterday but be careful because sometimes they do not like to cooperate.

Tuesday, October 16, 2001


try to shut me up


put rockstar shut-me-ups on your own page!

except not really because she's not dead!! again, the point of this quiz was really dumb but i liked taking it just because i did. and morgan and brittany got her too. so we were ALL this woman who is not dead yet.
after you take the test, it says:: "You were Adalita Srsen in a past life! Music is in your blood and you love nothing more than to be onstage in a small club with an appreciative crowd pumping out music in true punk-rock style. You love supporting causes you feel strongly about, which reflects in your songwriting. You also have a huge soft spot for our furry friends!"
about adalita it says:: "Being the female guitarist, lyricist and sultry lead singer in Australian band Magic Dirt, has elevated Adalita (her last name was Srsen but she has dropped it) to cult status within Australia.Magic Dirt were formed in Geelong, Victoria in 1992. ....live shows saw Adalita belting out riffs on the guitar with passion and intensity. In 1995 Magic Dirt supported Hole at some of the shows during their Australian tour, which gained the band more popularity. In 2001 Magic Dirt are touring to promote their new album "What Are Rockstars Doing Today?" Aside from being a great guitarist and a role model for guitar-playing girls all over Australia, Adalita is also a strong supporter of animal rights and is a member of the World Society of the Protection of Animals. She has also been involved in petitions against animal cruelty."
and the point is that magic dirt is a very cool band according to brittany.
i have not had the privilege of hearing them yet.

Monday, October 15, 2001

god damn. bloggerbot signed off again. well i dont blame it, with a warn of 96% and all. but it's highly annoying. so this weekend.
i guess no one knew but morgan and dad were in a play. actually i haven't had a chance to say anything about the plays they've been in, considering this is their first one of the season and the first one since my blog began. i don't really think i've taken the time to say ANYTHING about it which is really very rude of me. let me try to think of something important to say.
.......
once upon a time a year ago my sister and i were manually and brutally forced to attend this thing one saturday called COMMON GROUND. yes so there we met people. namely. zak (who i discovered goes to my school) and zoë (who i was paired up with when i wasnt allowed to pair with morgan because kimberly instructor lady knows us). yes so the point is i was terrified at the idea of COMMON GROUND, but morgan was very. not. right so i ceased showing up but she kept going. and then she got dad to go to the adult one. which i think he highly enjoyed. suddenly i can't remember much of what the actual COMMON GROUND play was like but thats ok for the moment i'm thinking. i remember that. khy said 'i am chocolate' and i liked that part. so they reeealllly liked doing it, my family did and i really liked watching them. i think i went to the show once or twice, and one time i sat with christen foehring and her friends next to a fellow named... Dan. (please remember that for later) the point is that it was a nice show and they really enjoyed it and so when it came time for auditions for the troupe's next show which was called 'ephemera' in which dad played a very important role, as the 'audience'. it was a play within a play so like he and sarah played the audience for this other play. and it was all the regulars. the troupe, our own voice. and i met all these wonderfully cool people in the troupe such as sarah, khy, john, sonja, alex, claire, melody, randy, chuck, bill, andy, bennett, oh my god the list goes on forever! so after 'common ground' and 'ephemera' there was... 'experimental movement' which is hte first one brittany saw. and then 'santa claus/spurt of blood' which was two different plays. and brittany helped me pass out programs on that one and the last day of it i had to watch the house which means taking up money and getting people drinks and programs and things. oh and somewhere along the line morgan and dad were made an official part of the troupe but not liek with a date or anything. suddenly they were just. in. and morgan told me all about everyone and it was really personal i think for me. almost like actually being in the show without the awkward acting bit. and then theres the dancing of course. which brings me round to the latest (first) show, of the new season, signifying morgan and dad's one year alliance with the company. indeed. so this show was a 'play' which is what everyone in the damn thing was calling it even though someone there described it as. uhm.... a 'disco musical.' there was no dialogue except for the small portion of dj talk between songs, written by randy who is mentally ill so it was amazingly cool sounding and only parts of it made sense. everyone had characters but we didnt really know much about them and we just had to make things up about them from their style of dancing and things. i think it really had to do with expression through dance of course. yeah so my dad and this guy john had characters based on steve martin and dan akryod's characters in some early snl episodes. you know. the czechoslovakian brothers. the two wild and crazy brothers. you remember them. i know you do. don't deny it. bitch. yeah so that was my dad and john. they were great. GREAT. and dad makes THE funniest faces whilst he dances. we cracked up through the whole damn thing. and these gay guys brad and dan were in it with zak as the uh. boy band. (justin, nick, and nigel) BOYS IN THE SINK!! alkhsdglkha they were hilarious and they had these great outrageous costumes. we screamed for them during their solo dance thingie. and saturday (last night) brittany made posters and we held them up and screamed and ohhh my god it was the best. morgan is the most adorable thing alive. i can't think of anything more to say and i'm very very very tired so goodnight all youse guys out there in blogland. or something.
alanna: *asks morgan an opinionated question*
morgan: *gives a random answer*
alanna: seriously?
morgan: no. i'm just guessing.
i'm now composing a post about the play. please be patient with me. it's in the process of being completed.
anyway where was i on the hair story. oh right. so uhm i was sitting there after my hair was done while mom got hers hacked away and i looked at these ancient hair style book thingies. you know the ones. unless they somehow only exist in memphis.
i have never gotten my hair cut out of town. amazing.
point being that there were many mullets
OH MY GOD I POSTED FROM BLOGGER BOT. THE DAMN FELLOW KEEPS SIGNING OFF
Atea Diosa:give it to me i love it i love it give it to me
Atea Diosa:
o_o
aLittleStarlight:
do you now

Saturday, October 13, 2001

today i got my hair cut. it was raining, as mom loves get her hair cut on a rainy day. even though it doesnt look so nice for as long because you have to go into the rain when you leave. anyway.
the lady who did it was the same lady as last time. (last time= june 14, before we went to san francisco.) so the lady kept telling me that she couldnt believe my hair had grown so much. and then she kept telling me how thick it was and so on and so forth. she hums along to all the songs on the radio and she doesnt make me say much of anything and i like her. she didn't cut it as short as last time and i keep thinking that i look younger than i am.
the lady parted it on the side and put little pins up in it and made it twist around in some terrifying way to keep it out of my eyes. i dont do anything to it usually so after i take it out i dont intend to do anything like that to it again. we're going to peabody place for the first time later, and we're probably gonna see a movie (?)
i want to see if tower records has the new leona naess cd, seeing as no one else does.
i have never been to tower records before.
the point is.
that i will blog later. dad is being a bitch.

Wednesday, October 10, 2001

leona naess's new album came out yesterday. i didnt post about it then, though, because 1. i didn't really have the time and 2. i didnt even actually think about it and 3. amazon.com didnt even have the picture of the album cover up!
yes so that's quite sad.
i think that this album is gonna be much more poppy than her last one... morgan and i listened to a couple of the songs on her web site and i liked them but i get the feeling that it wont be as good. or maybe that's just because i bought garbage last week and it wasn't as good..... i don't know. bjork was wonderful wonderful so maybe this will be just as wonderful wonderful has her last album. which was truly wonderful wonderful. it's one of the only cds i own that could even be considered for classification under 'pop' even though it's not like.. radio pop i guess. not like sticky sugar-coated terrifying teenybopper pop. its just atmospherical pop. and quite lovely at that. and not all of the songs are even poppish i guess and the lyrics are beautiful. leona naess is a poet.
and i read somewhere that she's also a calvin klein model and that's why they put huge pictures of her face on her albums.
i also read that she refused to do a jeans ad wearing a bra like they wanted her to and instead she wore some huge men's shirt thing.
she's quite cool you know.

Thursday, October 04, 2001

well THAT certainly took long enough.
ms. kitts: IT'LL ONLY TAKE THIRTY MINUTES
me: LKASD;GLH;SDhga;sldhg;lahd;gh;SDLHASK;LDG
ughhh i'm trying to do my homework and its really really really not going well..... *dies*
::::laylee on september 22 before we went bowling the other day::::
"kyle has a pond AND a pool. and theyre really pretty. sucha pretty house. what a bastard."
i feel that i am becoming influental musically again. on a very small scale.
i got katherine dohan to download 'all hands on the bad one' by sleater-kinney. *so go get it.* and then she asked me about buying a cd.
and this isnt as big, but i brought the new garbage cd in christen's car this morning when she drove me to school and i'm supposed to burn a copy for her, and i figure you know it can be a regular thing if i brought cds sometimes. and like. totally attack her. fun day! i want to bring s-k tomorrow now.
i listened to the first part of the garbage cd yesterday and i didnt like it very much but then i listened to some more of it, the middle/second half part of it and i liked it more. there were more classic garbage elements, which had been lacking in the first part. so then we listened to it in the car this morning and the beginning grew on me a bit even if it's not what you'd expect from them. i mean that IS the point and everything obviously but like... i mean.. musically. like the lyrics and the melodies weren't as good as the standards i've set for the band.

Wednesday, October 03, 2001

THIS PAGE IS HILARIOUS GHAHGAH you must go. its soooo funny in a really crappy way. brittany and i were uhm. 'discussing' it last night....

aLittleStarlight: http://www.gurlpages.com/contradictory/index.htm <- page that looks funny but is blinding me
Atea Diosa: hey sweet look at the little thingie at the bottom
Atea Diosa: *goes about reading rants*
aLittleStarlight: lol
aLittleStarlight: is it not blinding you
Atea Diosa: either they have really bad typing skills
Atea Diosa: or they have really bad grammar
Atea Diosa: and worse spelling than i
Atea Diosa: "this is why i think aborton shold bv etotaly made ilegal in every country of the world except mabe those realy bad countries were they suck and all. not like america which is obvously the best and most i,mpotant place to liv. "
Atea Diosa: O_O
Atea Diosa: my my...
Atea Diosa: i,mpotant alanna
Atea Diosa: *dies*
Atea Diosa: "ok i have had a totaly great udea, in all the cool countries were they make cool stuff and are realy imoptant in world afairs and have all provelegs and enligtend peple and stuf they shold make aborton ilegal. but in the sucky coutries were they all ignoant and dont do stuf like america aborton shold be reqired."
Atea Diosa: *Starts laughing*
aLittleStarlight: AHAAHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: thats ahdgshadhalhkdasd funny
Atea Diosa: she didn't even state why she thinks it shoudl be illegal!
aLittleStarlight: yeah well
aLittleStarlight: i read the first poem and it was boring so i'm not gonna read any of the others
Atea Diosa: and her spelling/typing is driving me crazy
Atea Diosa: its worse than mine.
aLittleStarlight: maybe she just thinks that since she's so superior to everyone else that she should just automatically think differently and she shouldnt have to state her opinion. she's DIFFERENT. should'nt it be OBVIOUS?
Atea Diosa: "i am DEEPLY involved with anthing that has to do with being different cuz as you know, i am so different from anyone els in the world (you can see that in my poemss)). but homosexuality is like, so wrong. ill tell you"
aLittleStarlight: see that!!
Atea Diosa: *Bursts into laughter*
aLittleStarlight: alkdhgla;dhgaldkh
Atea Diosa: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: *dies*
Atea Diosa: OMG *dies of laughter*
aLittleStarlight: x_x
aLittleStarlight: this is really getting on my nerves now
aLittleStarlight: *runs away*
Atea Diosa: omg i just read this thing to my parents
Atea Diosa: and this is just soooooo funny
Atea Diosa: my parents are making fun of her
aLittleStarlight: LOL
aLittleStarlight: read what thing
Atea Diosa: go read the "homosexuality" thing
Atea Diosa: "well as a femenist i have relised it is my RIGHT and privledge to war miniskirts and bras only if i want to! femenists are reclaming thereselves and we can wer anything we want (ok but dont do it if your really fat cos thats prety gross) we can be as sexual as we want anytime we want for anyone! we desrve to hav this right like men. if i went to bar and slept with evrry guy there that doesnt make me s lut but a womyn in control of hersef."
aLittleStarlight: "sexx if for MAKIN BABYS, k, its not for stickin your penis in someones......,.... i cant even say it, ewww.  and like, two women is even worsse because you know, i wouldnt ever touch a girl's..., youknow." shes talking about how great she is and she cant even say vagina. she cant even TYPE it.
aLittleStarlight: thats just sad
aLittleStarlight: SAD
Atea Diosa: omg
Atea Diosa: i'm so going to email this bitch and rave at her constantly
aLittleStarlight: "i mean hey, do whateverr (orr whoever HA HA HA)"
aLittleStarlight: and obviously she finds herself amusing
Atea Diosa: I KNOW I KNOOOOOOW read this
Atea Diosa: "if i went to bar and slept with evrry guy there that doesnt make me s lut but a womyn in control of hersef."
aLittleStarlight: X_X
Atea Diosa: "as a femenist i dont thinkwomyn shold have to suffer PERODS. this is disgutsing icky and smely and also it is rather barbaric to bled esp form the privates *blush* i think that all you doctos shold get together quick and make a drug that stop perods! it is so unladylike!"
aLittleStarlight: X_X
aLittleStarlight: yes and we're still supposed to all make children.
Atea Diosa: *falls over and dies*
Atea Diosa: *reapeatedly*
aLittleStarlight: and if thats not ladylike then what the hell is!??!
Atea Diosa: *bursts into laughter*
Atea Diosa: who the hell knows
aLittleStarlight: "why would yyou be gaay if your parents arent't?" 
aLittleStarlight: asdghashdgladkhgs;ldhgal sdhgaskdhg;lasdkhg;lakgh;sdalhg
aLittleStarlight: *rolls away*
Atea Diosa: omg *reads her poem*
Atea Diosa: *dies*
Atea Diosa: i wonder if this is a joke site
aLittleStarlight: "you know i would understnd if it wasn't a choice (YES it is a choice, deal with it, its a sickness that makes them chooose too be lke that)" i really dont think she gets it that people DONT chose to be like that
aLittleStarlight: and just because you dont get aids just by being gay
aLittleStarlight: "thee most emportant thingin thee world"
Atea Diosa: HAHHAHAHAHA MY PARENTS ARE SO DISSING HER
aLittleStarlight: ahshha what are they saying
Atea Diosa: *listenage*
aLittleStarlight: waht the hell did he say
Atea Diosa: he said
Atea Diosa: 'oh illusive intellegence where art thou"
aLittleStarlight: HAHHAHAHAHAH
aLittleStarlight: AHAHAAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: AHAAHHAAAAHAAHHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: akshasd;lkghak;lh
aLittleStarlight: "so its not like i hav, like, a problm with wat thei do, but yu know, do it in private, like in yor BEDS (eewwww)"
aLittleStarlight: WHAT THE HELL IS HER PROBLEM
aLittleStarlight: GEEZ
aLittleStarlight: SHES LIKE
Atea Diosa: theyre cracking me up
Atea Diosa: O_O she's a fucking insane
aLittleStarlight: 'NO I HAVE ABOSLUTELY NO PROBLEM WITH IT I AM SO OPEN EEWWWWWW GROSS GORSS'
aLittleStarlight: tell her shes a goddamn hypocrite
Atea Diosa: hahah
Atea Diosa: hahahaha i will
aLittleStarlight: "and the last thing-- AND THISS IS LIKE, A SCIENTFIFIC FACT!!!-- its those gayz who brouught aids to the world!"
aLittleStarlight: it was a chimpanze actually.
aLittleStarlight: some idiot in the jungle ate a funky chimpanze
aLittleStarlight: and started passing aids around
Atea Diosa: my parents are so making fun of her
aLittleStarlight: ahahghaha
aLittleStarlight: apparently
aLittleStarlight: what the hell are they saying
Atea Diosa: i'm sending it to you
aLittleStarlight: the best part is like
aLittleStarlight: how she says shes a pagan
aLittleStarlight: and she doesnt even know what that means
aLittleStarlight: i find it so hilarious
aLittleStarlight: shes like 'i havent read about it or anything but in my heart i know i'm a pagan'
aLittleStarlight: except with many more spelling mistakes
Atea Diosa: where did she say pagan
aLittleStarlight: uhm lemme see
Atea Diosa: go listen
aLittleStarlight: at the end of the gay thing
aLittleStarlight: and... in the bio part i think
aLittleStarlight: "i triedd to help themm but they didnt want help!"
aLittleStarlight: ^evil lady in 'but i'm a cheerleader' movie
Atea Diosa: LOLOLOL
Atea Diosa: thats my parents
aLittleStarlight: AHHAHAHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: AAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH
aLittleStarlight: AHGHAHHASDHASKDLHAH
aLittleStarlight: AHAHHAHHGAHHAH
aLittleStarlight: SDHASDGLKHASHGKD;LAHDGHAHAHHAHAHAHH
Atea Diosa: LOLOLOLOL
Atea Diosa: isn't that the funniest shit ever
aLittleStarlight: HAHAHAAHGAHDSHHAD
aLittleStarlight: AHAHAHHAHHAHHAHHAAH
aLittleStarlight: ANGSTY
aLittleStarlight: omg britany
aLittleStarlight: I JUST REALISEX
aLittleStarlight: THE BAGE
aLittleStarlight: THE PAGE IS CLLA
aLittleStarlight: HASGDHAHHAHAGHA
aLittleStarlight: SDHAHAH THE APGE IS COLALED
aLittleStarlight: CONTRADICTION.ORG ASHDGSAD GLKADHHGAHH AHAHGHADSHA HSDGHAHSDHAA
Atea Diosa: HAHAHAHAHAH yeah
aLittleStarlight: GSDHAHAHHGAHHAHAHHAHAA
aLittleStarlight: HAHAHHAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: SALKHDGA;DGKHADLKH
aLittleStarlight: ok i have to go now
Atea Diosa: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
aLittleStarlight: x_x
aLittleStarlight: ashgdhasdahha dhshdhahhh gahsdhahh gahahsdahhs
Atea Diosa: okokok
Atea Diosa: byesbyes
Atea Diosa: *dies of laughter*]
aLittleStarlight: your parents are hilarious
aLittleStarlight: angsty angsty
aLittleStarlight: bye

Tuesday, October 02, 2001

today the garbage album came out. i really want this and kristin hersh at the moment because this weekend i bought tuscadero's 'pink album' from 94 and ani difranco's debut album from 1990. it makes me happy.
so i'm going to try to get dad to take me to cd warehouse after school tomorrow because i KNOW they have kristin hersh which is impossibly great considering no one else does and they'll probably have garbage because they have some new albums and whatnot. did you know that shirley manson chopped all her hair off? i did not but she wason the cover of cosmogirl. just ask laylee. yeah so uhm. i just took this weird thing.

i liked reading the answer just because it was musicalness but i didnt like the whole boyfriend idea or anything. but whatever.
or maybe its just because thom yorke is like a thousand years older than me. ahahahh maybe not.
i'm going to run away now.
i'm talking to nick and laylee and katie, and brittany is talking to katie so it's lovely.
except that aj left.
he didn't even say goodbye to me either!

dirty boy.

Monday, October 01, 2001

the other day frankie and i were waiting for her mom to come pick us up and this car was at the red light stopped and whatnot and it was one of those little putt-putting cars. yeah you know the ones. except that it was like red and blue painted and there was this huge fake leanie-over can-shaped fiend on the back that said 'RED BULL' on it and then you realized the whole CAR said 'RED BULL' on it and there were these two people in it and they started waving drastically at us and frankie said they were holding red bull can things themselves but i didnt see that so we waved drastically back at them. and then i looked at frankie and we talked for like two seconds and then looked back out at the street and they were still there and they waved and we waved and it was rather amusing.
then frankie's mom was driving us home, and we passed starbucks and sitting there in the parking lot was the goddamn RED BULL car and i went LKAHSDGOIELKASHDLG and i fell into the window and practically out of the car.
Laylee2000: where are oyu you filthy skank whore??

Auto response from aLittleStarlight:
aLittleStarlight: buying tomatoes
Laylee2000: HAHAh